what the heck is wrong with me??

Question

my life is pretty normal. i work a job that i am moderatly happy with, i am amidst making a great and exciting future for myself, my family is mostly great and i have the best boyfriend/relationship on the planet.
everything in my life is either average, or above average!
yet i still get into these ruts. these short time periods in my life when i literally hate MYSELF. not my life. MYSELF. i hate how i look, how i dress, how i act. i feel like i'm not good enough for anyone or ANYTHING. i find myself crying constantly. but i hide it. i cry in the bathroom and then play it off like i'm fine. i don't feel like i'm "unhappy", but then why am i so upset?? i don't eat, and just feel like sleeping...a lot. i know, you're probably thinking "DUH! you're depressed!" but i don't get it. my life is good. my relationships are wonderful. my future is bright. why the random "breakdowns"???

Answer 1

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Answer 2

Sometimes how you feel diesn't always depend on how good the other aspects in your life are. Career, Family and love life are a big part of a persons life. But theres another part your missing to acknowledge in your "pretty normal" life. Yourself. Have you asked yourself if there is anything thats bothering you? Maybe it's a twinge of guilt that only concerns you, not your family, your boyfriend or your career? Is your career that your doing so well on THE one you've always wanted?? Is your boyfriend THE one for the moment? He might be nice and perfect but not perfect for YOU?
As you can notice, all the questions point towards YOU. Ask yourself what could be the problem and be honest to yourself. And since this is a hard thing to do on your own. You might want to see a doctor or therapist for help. Good luck.

Answer 3

How old are you? When I was 17, I began feeling like this too. I used to walk around with my head down and would cry in the bathroom. I would sit outside and put my head in my lap and cry but I would hide it. I used to take sleeping pills just to go to bed so I wouldn't feel this way. I too had a great life but this depression seemed to wear me out and make my life miserable. It still does sometimes too. It might be a chemical imbalance. Your hormones are changing probably due to age.

Answer 4

see a docotr. like you, i have what i veiw as a good life. a job im happy with, the best boyfriend ever, a cute little apartment, great friends...but sometimes i would just get so anxious, and sometimes id just get sad for no reason. my doctor told me i had anxiety problems and gave me meds, after a few visits with her, she gave me a sheet for my meds and it said "for anxiety and depression". when i noticed it at home i burst into tears and called my mother. she gave me some of the best insight ever "honey, if you're getting this upset over it, it probably is depression. depression doesnt mean you have a bad life or theres something wrong with your life, it just means you have a problem you need to deal with" so i take my meds, call my mom when im feeling down, and keep a journal
i think you should really consult your doctor and get an appointment with a psyciatrist for a professional diagnosis. this could be controlled with some medications, a little paitence, and good friends.

Answer 5

Yeah, I know... but guess what? That's the definition of depression. Upset all the time for seemingly no reason. I used to be the same way- great life, exept when I looked in the mirror. Funny thing is, I'm cute! So why was I crying all the time? I went to my doc, she hooked me up. I don't take anything anymore, that was about a year ago. If you want this cycle to stop, you have to make a quick phonecall to your doc.

Answer 6

I know you don't want to hear this, but you can have long periods of being positive and still have a depression problem. The best way to find out is to go to your family Doctor and talk to him/her about it. Some days I'm really happy and then other days I just want to close the bedroom door, climb under the covers and go to sleep. Please get checked out. It could get worse. I have a wonderful family, great supportive sons, good friends, a beautiful condo and a cat for company. I still have bad days.

Answer 7

You should probably have a chat with your doctor. The same thing was happening to me, and just talking about it made me feel better. It doesn't matter that you have everything going for you, you can still feel blue. Are you sure there isn't a deeper reason than the stuff you mentioned ? By that I mean, are you sure you don't feel your life is just that, average, and you want excitement and change, and just something different?

Hope things look up for you...

Answer 8

It could be something as simple as a hormonal upheaval. If your hormones are out of whack this will cause the mood alteration. You could also be depressed and depression is restricted to someone that is have a bad time in life etc. Depression attacks all types of people even if they have the perfect life. Go see your doctor they can prescribe medication that will help you. Good luck to you.

Answer 9

It sounds possibly chemical to me. Are your bouts around say... around PMS time? Or, is there a history of depression in your family? You should talk to your doctor about it -- your sad jags may have something to do with a simple chemical imbalance that can be offset by diet, exercise or a vitamin supplement. They may also be related to say estrogen levels, or some other hormone imbalance. Don't worry yourself into making your bouts worse -- but do try to keep track of when you feel sad (when, what you ate that day, physical activity... anything like that) and the next time you see your doctor, ask them about it.

Answer 10

You have something that you want to accomplish. Is there something that you feel that you've always wanted to do? Perhaps it's something that happened to you during childhood--something that you can't recall? I have breakdowns sometimes, and it's not related to anything recent. Fights with people trigger them, but it's not the fight that gets me. I always realize after that I cry over the death of my father years ago. I normally don't think about him, but I he passed away when I was 12 years old. At that time, I just suppressed all my pain. I hid my wounds from the world, and cried myself to sleep. I never told anyone about how I felt--not even my mother. And at times, the pain just comes back even when I'm perfectly happy.

Answer 11

Trust me, it is depression. I have suffered with this for years. My life is pretty great too, but that does not stop a person from having depression. It is caused by a chemical imbalance in a persond brain. Meds are often needed to correct it. It could also be a hormone problem. See your doctor. Good Luck to you!