what can i do?

Question

i am so into death now it is all i can thank about when i draw it is graves and bloody bodys everywhere i can,t stop thanking about how i want 2 die in a pool of my own blood were no one will ever find me

Answer 1

You need to talk to someone immediately about this. Everyone has dark thoughts from time to time. But if yours are as frequent as you say and they all end in your death you need to find some help.
Talk to a trusted friend, a religious leader, a sibling or a parent, a councilor, anyone you can trust.
Find help please. Death is not something you want.

Answer 2

Hi Misery, You are depressed. You need to go out with some real close friends', and enjoy yourself. You need to snack out of this depression. This is not healthy,what you have been thinking, and drawing. Stay alway from your drawing for a while, at least until you can get yourself under control. Maybe you should have some of your close friends come, and stay with you,for a couple of days.That way you ,and your friends' came plan out what you guys will do for the day.Do this for a few days,and you will feel alot better about things. Have some fun. Give your mind a rest.Go, and enjoy life with your friends. A Friend.

Clowmy

Answer 3

Why the graves? And the pool of blood? Why?

Take a graphics class instead. Or maybe you could write a gothic novel.

If you are interested in imagining macabre things that's your wish, but I think you are taking it too far with the pool of blood idea.

Life is beautiful -- if you look hard enough :) Try to find the beautiful too sometimes.

Answer 4

I had a dream once that I was walking along the street in the middle of the night, and this guy walks up to me and he puts a gun in my face and he pulls the trigger and on impact, I step out of my body, and I see my own brains disintergrate as they exit my head, and when I woke up I had the worst headache, Then that afternoon, My friend and I were walking home from the store and this guy pulls up beside us in a black car, and pulls and gun out and takes our money and drags my friend and I into the car and took us out to this farm house riught outside of the town where we lived in Texas, and shot my friend right in the face and shot me in the neck, missing my esophagus, and main Jugular artery, but chipped my c3 vertebrae and lodged the bullet next to my spinal cord, leaving me paralysed, and left us out in the middle of nowhere. We were found by a hunter two days later, And by then the smell of my friends dead body had already started filling the room we were in and it is a smell you don't ever forget. Neither ios the fact that I knew I was going to be shot and it ruined my life forever when it actually happened.

At the time of the incident I was 28, I am 31 now, This happened three years ago in Texas. I was a Massage Therapist with my own practice. Married, now divorced, and I was Pregnant when it happened, and now I can't have children at all. I live with a nurse and two cats.

My point is you should try to focus more on your life and what it means to you. Are you really ready to die and area you really willing to experience a horrific death knowing that it will hurt. Do you really want to be in pain when you die? Do you really think you are strong enough to handle death in a Horrifiying manner that will hurt your soul and physical being? Are there things in your life worth living for? And what are they?

Answer 5

Misery you are a cutter and see the distortion everywhere. The pain is real but it is being miss-read by the lower brain and the messages are sent to parts for pleasure. To undo the thinking takes time and an emotional feeling much stronger than your shyness.

Answer 6

Stop listening to sad emo music(If you're listening to it) and start listening to stuff like Hellogoodbye or PlayRadioPlay! =D I listened to My Chemical Romance and it got me depressed cause almost all their songs are about death...but I still listen to them tho..occasionally.

(I think this is the ans cause I listened to MCR and I got obsessed with death.)

Answer 7

Normally, I give smart *** answers, but in your case, I'll make an exception. Go talk to someone you trust, parent, friend, teacher, etc. Tell them and maybe they can help you.

Answer 8

Um...Get an excorcism???