this world is to nasty people pick on me being dyslexia i self harm i want to end it all but feel i will?

Question

be leaving my baby and hubby all alone there both in bed and i feel i can't go on my baby will be better with out me i'm really low i don't know what to do i can't tell my family i'm emmbaresed i think about it all the time i don't know what to do

i really can't do this anymore i've had wine now and i'm so messed up

Answer 1

please dont do anything stupid you have a baby and a husband who need you. a baby needs it's mother dont listen to the people who put you down, there are people out there who can help you just dont give up you've had tonnes of positve responses on here and those few that couldn't find anyhting positive to say ARSEHOLES! go to your husband and baby wake them and tell them how much you love the and how much you need them then tell them how much they need you. tell your self each day what a special person you are ,and remember when u feel low and worthless think again your a MUM! wot could be better. please phone someone and talk. stay strong xxxxxx ok i'm back stop drinking and call someone , no one has the right to make you feel like this how old is your baby? could u talk to your health visitor? if you wanna chat go to my profile on 360 and email me i'm also on myspace as madcow. try kasamba to talk online to someone about postnatal depression, thesite.org on self harming, tap in dyslexia in your search engine for tonnes of online help. xxxx

Answer 2

I employed a lad with dyslexia and he was a very hard worker. Dont give up your husband and baby love you and that means a great deal. There are people who can help you, go and see your GP and ask him for help. If not loook on the internet for a society to help you. You could be suffering with some post natal depression. Unless you have been there people dont realise how depressed you are. I went there last year didnt want to wake up again. I was found in time (not what I wanted at the time) but when I saw my grown up childrens faces and how much pain I had caused I felt terrible as they would have suffered for the rest of their lives if I had died. I would never put them through that again and now I am well and as happy as you can be in this world. There are terrible people in this word but you are better than them as you dont judge them. Be strong there are many people out there who care. I do. Take care

Answer 3

It's easy enough for people to say that there's no need to feel that way cos they probably haven't experienced this sort of thing, however I have. I have been recovering from viral encephalitis (swelling of the brain caused by the cold sore virus) for the last seven years and I have recently started university at the age of 21 and it has been a really big adjustment for me, although my condition hasn't affect my intelligence, I find it hard knowing where I need to be and keeping up with work. This has made me a bit of a laughing stock among the class slappers, and n*bheads, due to the fact that it's only these people laughing at me cos I get on really well with everyone else, and generelly I've found all the n*bheads and slappers I've known from high school and college normally end up stuck in sh*tty dead end jobs or on benefits with illegitimate kids so HA HA on them, whereas I'm doing really well now despite my difficulties. So at the end of the day just worry about what's going on in your life, don't give give a sh*t about the negative little gobsh*tes that are getting you down cos it's highly likely that they have rubbish lives and can only feel better by putting others down, the only people you have to be think of are yourself and your family, cheer up hen

Answer 4

Please phone the Samaritans now. They are very understanding people and I know they will be able to help you. You are correct in thinking that the world is full of nasty people, but not everyone. There are a lot of caring people out there as well. You say you have a husband and a baby and they would be better off without you. I doubt your husband and baby would think that way. Just think what you would be missing not seeing your baby grow up. Being dyslexic is nothing to be ashamed about. I used to live in Bristol and the manager of a huge book shop in the Centre of Bristol called Georges Bookshop was dyslexic. That is absolutely the truth. I don't know why you would be embarrassed to talk to your family, only you can know that. I feel so sorry that you are feeling this way, there is help out there, please please seek it. Best of luck to you.

Answer 5

Hey sweets, that's bad when people pick on dyslexia, it's tough to cope with. Concentrate on your baby and your man, they love you and so do all your freinds here (even freinds you have't met yet love you).

Being bad at words don't make you a worse person, I couldn't read until I was 16, and i still struggle. I takes me ages to type these things. I have worked hard to be able to make it so nobody even notices anymore and just says "tying error" and i chuckle at how far i've come.

Tell your family you're getting down about it, ask them for huggles and kisses and they will help you make yourself better.

You can get help to make your dyslexi better, but it's not easy and i only had it not so much.

Answer 6

Hey, I'm dyslexic too. And I also cut myself. I just finished having an assessment done to prove that I should still be allowed extra time when I go to take the GRE (or possibly the MCAT, depending what I decide to do), and the person who did the assessment said it's really come for smart people with learning disabilities to become depressed because it's frustrating not to be able to preform up to potential, and to have people think less of you unfairly. So the point of all that is that you're not alone.

Your baby needs you. Babies are completely dependent on their mothers, and early separation from one's mother can cause all sorts of psychological problems later on, particularly depression. Go look up some studies on mother-child bonding if you don't believe me. Neither your baby or your husband will be better of without you.

Depression is the result of a chemical in the brain. It's an illness just like any other, it's just that it happens to effect your brain instead of, say, your lungs or your liver. It can be treated with medication, and usually responds very well to treatment. It's not because of anything you did wrong, and it doesn't mean that you're generally defective, just that you're sick and need medical attention. You don't need to be embarassed about it. Would you be embarassed to tell your husband if you had the flu?

In the short term, you might want to call one of the hotline numbers listed on the inside front cover of your phonebook, or a national number that you can find by a Google search for your country and "suicide hotline" (since you didn't say what country you're from, I can't list any for you now) or by asking here on Answers and including in the question what country you're from. In the long term, tell your doctor how you're feeling, and talk to him about possible treatments. As I mentioned earlier, depression is very treatable with medication. You don't have to feel like this, but the only way anyone can help you is if you tell them you need it.

Answer 7

I used to feel like this, i was suicidal after a breakdown from 11 years of abuse from my ex husband. You are NOT alone, please talk to someone, 1st thing in the morning make a GP appointment, be honest, cry, whatever, just get help, If you need someone now phone the samartians it is free, just let it all out to someone. Can you talk to your husband ? try, i know it is hard, may be he wont understand, but maybe he will, if not try someone else, you are precious, you are your babies mum, the only one, Get counselling, having someone to talk to that isn't your family is so helpful and such a relief. I have been through this, is does get better, please get help, if you want to you can contact me, just let me know if you would like to in an edit. Just hang in there.

Answer 8

GOING BY WHAT YOU HAVE WRITTEN YOU HAVE NOT GOT MUCH OF A PROBLEM WITH DYSLEXIA. YOU SOUND MORE DEPRESSED THAN ANYTHING ELSE. GO AND HAVE A CHAT WITH YOUR DOCTOR. AND PLEASE DO NOT SAY YOUR BABY WILL BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU. IT WONT, THERE IS NO SUBSTITUTE FOR A MOTHER'S LOVE. SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE A BIT OF TROUBLE WITH YOUR LETTER'S IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. YOUR HUSBAND AND CHILD ARE ALL THAT MATTER'S . JUST IGNORE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY.

Answer 9

You're right, this world is full of nasty people, but think about your family. Your baby needs you. Tell you husband how you feel and try to get you some help. Your family will not be better off without you. They need you and you need them. So please think about your baby and get yourself some help. With some medication you will get through this and flip those nasty people off!

Answer 10

your baby will not be better off without u, he/she needs their mummy. have u told your husband how u feel? you can talk to your doctor they will out u in touch with someone who is trained to help u and u will slowly start to feel better.

How old is your baby? do u think that u maybe feel a bit low due to postnatal depression also?
it is very common for people to feel these things but if you dont talk to someone it will spiral out of control!!

just remember, no matter how bad a situation is there is always someone willing to help u and not judge u!

take care and go give your baby a big cuddle and you will see that your life is worth living