why do i feel like this?

Question

ok i am diagnosed with depression but i dont understand what i am feeling right now. I broke up with my boyfriend. I didn't really like him but its bringing out a lot of other emotions i have hidden away. I feel like breaking up with someone who was "in love me" makes me a bad person. I do a lot of things that upset people. But i feel sorda justified when i upset them but when they do it to me i get really angry. i feel so confused and somewhat not understood. I miss my best friend who is like my sister and its hard her not being here to give me advice b/c she is states away from me. I can't sleep much anymore and i didn't take my meds yesterday so it has made me dizzy. I took a nap in one of my classes and now i feel like crap. I can't explain what i feel b/c im so lost. I would talk but i don't know if it could come out right. I feel so crazy and i dont fit in. I just want to crawl in a hole and i dont understand....please help.

Answer 1

It only takes one small thing, one small change or stressful event to trigger a depressive episode. That is what you are experiencing right now. See your doctor as soon a possible to discuss what you are feeling, so you can get some help through this hard time.

Answer 2

If you're taking medication for depression, it's important that you maintain your dosage. Anti-depressants have to build up in your bloodstream (that's why they take a little while to start working), and missing a day upsets this balance and can have a big impact on the way that you currently feel. It's not that your body will feel "ill" necessarily, but you'll feel unable to cope, angry, and generally depresssed beyond words, without understanding the reason for the change.

It's also possible that the medication that you're currently taking is not the right one for you, or the dosage is incorrect. How long have you been taking this particular rx? Do you miss doses often?-(and don't do this).

Depression is a serious illness that has to do with brain chemicals. If you suffer from it, the way that you feel is not under your control. Everyday problems that you would normally be able to handle become overwhelming. You feel "lost", and want to "crawl in a hole", and can't explain why you feel so overcome.

The first thing that you need to do is get back on your prescription, and don't miss any dosages. Make an appointment with your Doctor to discuss the medication and your situation.

You're not alone. Millions of people suffer from depression. It's a serious illness, not to be taken lightly. It will make you feel as if there is no hope, no purpose, no way to solve your problems; the irony is that it's happening because of the chemical status of your brain, not because the problems themselves are any worse than others that you've faced.

Make a Doctor's appointment, and stay on the prescription in the meantime.

Answer 3

Sweetheart don't worry! There are so many people out there who are just like you. Don't worry. In depression you feel a number of emotions at once. You can be happy but really be sad too. Mad and glad. Confused and understanding. This is common. Even for people who don't have depression. The fact that you broke up with your boyfriend is not a reason to be sad. Just because he loved you didn't mean you have to love him back. Don't feel bad about it. Yes, he may be hurting...but that is causing you to hurt too. Obviously the relationship was not meant to be. Try to think of the happy times in your life. Puppies and food...might bring you joy. Try not to bring yourself down...thinking about the bad times. Stop thinking about your boyfriend and don't feel bad about him. This is normal. I know many people who feel happy that they are out of the relationship but are sad because they may have hurt the person. You aren't alone. In anything. Remember someone is always out there to help you. Through anything. No matter how hard and difficult it may seem talk to someone. Go to a counselor or someone that you trust that won't make fun of you in anyway. They will try to help you.

Answer 4

I know exactly how you feel and amazing enough so do thousands of other people...I was diagnosed with Major Depresive Disorder 4 years ago...I wonted to off myself however after getting meds and going to a psychologist I eventually came out of it...are you taking a sleeping aid? Its very important that you get good sleep because it helps with the depression as well as exercise.....And make sure that you take your meds everyday! Its important that you do that...Do not just stop taking them either...that can bring disaterous results....discuss at least a little bit what you are going through with people closest to you and around you to give them an idea what you are going through....and please do not be ashamed it happens to the best of us...I wish you great happiness.

Answer 5

I feel for you!!!! I have been is similar situations in the past and have been dealing with depression since I was in my early teens. First of all, I think if a dr has prescribed you medicine....You need to take it. There is no shame in ahving to take drugs for a mental condition. You should also tell your dr that you are having trouble sleeping......this can all be part of the depression.

Sounds to me that you are just dealing with a lot right now and that you feel overwhelmed. Sometimes, Journaling can help with that. Maybe you should consider talking with someone on a regular basis. Sound like you need a someone to vent your frustrations to. Email me if you would like an ear to listen

Answer 6

First of all, it's okay to feel like that. Most people will go through a stage in their lives very similar to yours. Believe me, you will find your way. I have been there before, perhaps lower - and it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it is there, waiting for you.

I think you need to learn to put yourself first. You can only make other people happy if you're happy yourself. Make sure you take your meds as your doctor prescribed. And if you find yourself in need of help, believe me, it's out there!

Hold in there, and you'll get through this tough time. And know that something good will come out of this. It'll make you a stronger person! Good luck :)

Answer 7

Did you ever think that you breaking up with your boyfriend was just another side effect of depression? He may just want to help you. I know how you feel losing your best friend and all. My best friend Lora just moved back with her mother and wont even talk to me when I try and call her. I'm sorry that life is throwing you a hard ball but you just have to deal with it and try to move on.
Try joining a group or club. Maybe some after school actities or a job would help. That way you could meet new people who just cat about you and want to help.
Wishing you best of luck. Let me know how things turn out and e-mail me if you need somebody to talk to. I'm always available.
Sincerally Summer

Answer 8

First of all....even with medications you still need counseling. Meds alone won't fix your depression. You also sound like you have no self-esteem because you feel guilty for nothing and think you do things that upset your family. Sometimes people act out in hopes of getting attention and think even bad attention is better than no attention.

Please see a therapist.

Answer 9

You need to call your therapist. I don't mean to sound cold, far from it. You can get a bunch of answers from people on this yahoo thing who don't know your story and who don't know you. You're in the clutches of a depression and it's not a good place to sit isolated with a computer and a bunch of pat answers - and I'm sure a few smart alecky ones - and try to figure out all of your problems at once.

Call your therapist - the one who diagnosed you with depression should be on call for you. REALLY: CALL YOUR THERAPIST. Reach for the phone now and place the call. If she/he's not there ask for a call back and expect one. You're in a depression. As you get to know yourself better through therapy, you'll get better at dealing with your strong feelings. Now: make that call.

Answer 10

This is a tough one.

You are obviously insecure about yourself. It seems that you found security in your best friend but now that she is gone you have no one to support you.

You shouldn't feel bad about breaking up with your boyfriend. there is no point in a relationship where only one person is happy. He will get over his feelings.

I think that you do things to upset people to cover your insecurity and to hide what you feel by making other people feel bad