i have been an on and off heroin addict for many many years. i mostly do it recreationally but when i have?

Question

been addicted it has been entirely purposefully, as if i need a time out from life, and i have quit when i really wanted to. not to say it hasnt been very physically and psychologically painful, for it does cause permanent mood problems. i have recreationally smoked crack for many years, it has only been recent that i had become a crackhead. i didnt know i was a crackhead at the time, i thought it was the same as heroin, that i was in control, and i was, kind of. anyway, after a year i kicked, and quite easily at that, and it has been several months since i've done it, but i keep getting these images of smoking crack that cause extreme physical urges. the truth is, crack isnt even fun. it causes me to become crazy and paranoid, but the desire is so strong anyway. . apparently lab rats will desire crack to their deaths. why do i desire a drug thats not fun? as opposed to heroin, which is physically more addictive more enjoyable, but doesnt cause me such immediate desire?

Answer 1

You are addicted to both crack and heroin. I am so glad that you recognise this and have not used crack for the past few months. I hope you have not been using other chemicals either. One of the principles of recovery from addiction is called, "cross addiction". An addict of any "mood altering substance" must stop taking all mood altering substances. This does not apply to antidepressants.

You need to get some professional help with this. By this I mean a chemical dependency counselor. All good chem. dep. programs have out patient treatment programs. The other thing you need to do is start going to Narcotics Anonymous meetings on a regular basis.

At the meetings you can talk to other addicts that are staying or want to stay straight and give each other mutual support for this problem.

Crack is a more addictive substance than heroin, that may be why you are having stronger and more frequent urges to use that. I am sorry for the critical remaks some have made to you. They may mean well but are ignorant.

Chemical dependency or addiction is an illness and not a character defect or personality defect. Some of the brightest and nicest people have become addicted to a chemical. I am proud of you for desiring to be chemical free and making the difficult efforts that you are making.

My best wishes for your recovery and God bless you.

Answer 2

Why don't you desire foremost to be sober and in reality other than high on anything??

Crack is very chemically addicting, your body wants it more than you.The longer you stay away from it the easier it will get and it will leave you alone when you fill your mind with positive thoughts and basically don't think about it anymore. You have to control your thoughts and ignore the craving. Your not a rat, you have a human brain. I lost someone young and dear to me on heroin so quit please. Life is different sober too, try it.

Answer 3

You need to get some professional help for your addictions. Without proper help and medication to curb the urges and flashbacks as well as any other problems you may have you may not win the battle of quiting drugs. In the end the drugs might just end up killing you even after you quit using them so get help while you can. My brother in law quit taking his meds to control his flashback etc and wound up committing suicide so please get some help before this ends up causing more damage.

Answer 4

Sounds like you need to detox your body. Detox services are for people wishing to withdraw from opiates, heroin, psychotropics, alcohol, or benzodiazepines. You don't need a rehab, but you need to clean out your system.

Answer 5

u no just hearing you talk about these drugs is killen me BRO U NEED A LIFE cause drugs are ruining the one u have now i swear if only i could slap some sence into u