I will ask 1 more time to come here please! this is serious and i need help! Thank you?

Question

Having faith and deeply believing?
Im still young {15} but i have no faith although i believe. Im coufused about life { its not because im a teen} I think that part of the reason is i feel i have nothing to live for. Im not suicidal but i dont see a point in living. I have had so much tragety in my 15 years that i have lost all faith. I have went to 2 diffrent churches. One i was at till i was 9 but the pastors wife accidently burnt me with a hot glue gun and she refused to let me call my mom and let me cry in front of at least 30 pepole. So a few years ago i went back but to a diffrent church and they seperated whites from blacks and that ment that i had to be seperated from my cousion because they thought that i was white. We sat through a 5 hour service { it was easter} and it was the worst exepreince in my life. So, i dont go to church. When i was 8 i saw my great grandma dead on our couch. It was terrifying. And ever since then i have had nightmares about her. Countinued

My world shatered into peices last June when my best friend, which was my world, got hit by a semi. I feel like i have been through hell and back. I have 1 friend and thats it! I babysit my sister 24/7.. How can i put all my worrys into God's hands when for some reason i cant trust him after he took my world away? PLEASE HELP

Answer 1

Go to your school counselor's office and ask to talk to a social worker, your school should have one on call. You need help, at home and with handling personal problems. This is too much for you to handle alone. Good luck.

Answer 2

Well, your possibility of being an average Christian has been pretty much shot to ****. This does not mean life is pointless.

You may find Buddhism attractive, or the Unitarian Universalists, and their websites do a better job of explaining it than I:

http://www.thebigview.com/buddhism/eightfoldpath.html
http://www.uua.org/aboutuua/principles.html

My personal worldview is called secular humanism.

Your main problem seems to be lack of security, not lack of purpose. Purpose for an atheist/agnostic like me is simple: what do you want out of life? What do you want to do or see the most? What sort of world do you want to live in? What sort of world do you want your kids to live in? You will also be faced with several important choices, like do you enjoy money more than charity or do you wish to be feared or loved. My moral system is not for everybody, but its a good alternative to nothing at all.

As for security, all I can say is that tomorrow is a new day. You have been hurt in the past, but there is always tomorrow and the potential for a brighter tomorrow. Life is difficult sometimes, but it is good sometimes too. You will choose a new path, and walk on into the rest of your life.

Mostly you need a free digital hug. Here. There, now you either think I'm a sentimental weirdo or you feel slightly better. Or both. It doesn't really matter.

Answer 3

Sweetie God didn't take your life away Things just happen people make poor choices older people die its apart of life.
People make wrong choices even at Churches .If it doesn't work don't blame God, change your church if you can.
It's OK if you question religion right now.

You should read a great Book called Embraced by the light.
Even though death looks terrifying at times when a person dies there is no more pain no more sorrow they advocate for us in heaven. They are whole again. Love is an eternal thing Grandma did not stop loving you because she died she loves you more because she watches out for you.

My husband died and came back to life when they stopped his heart and restarted it. He did not believe in God at the time.
He remembered going towards a bright light seeing his body lying below with the nurses and Dr Working on him seeing there uniforms what they said .Then a voice said from the light you must go back. He remembered falling back into his body seeing the Dr and nurses as he fell back in to the body. What they said .My husband related this to the Dr and nurses and they were stunned.
I have had so many personal tragedies that I have gone though starting out with dads death at age 3 growing up poor having to work at a very young age just to have the basics of life Having things happen to me as a teen having an abusive 1 husband .Losing several homes to flood earthquake and now eminent domain Do I blame God. Nope!
You should write your feelings down and realize when you look back that our life is like the tide going in and out down and under its just that way.

Answer 4

I am very very sorry for all the tragedy in your life, but Please do not blame God for all the things that go wrong in life. We have a thing called free will that allows people to do things that are not right, like the Pastors wife, and the segregation. This is not how God intends for His people to treat others, I would like to apologize on behalf of Christians for the way you were treated. I am also sorry you had to witness your Great Grandmother like that, also your friend who was killed by a semi-driver.
We live in a world that has fallen from what God intended it to be. God gave Dominion over the Earth to man, and when Adam and Eve sinned they gave it to Satan. Satan is the author and perfecter of sin, and it is rampant all over this world, even in the Church.
Please give God another chance by finding a church that follows His Word, like an Assemblies of God Church. But remember that people will always let you down, because of our fallen nature, but GOD will never let you down. God loves you so much that HE sent His only begotten Son to live a sinless life, and die so that you may have eternal life with Him.

God bless, and I pray that I have been a help. Email me if you need anything further.

Pastor Bill

Answer 5

God WILL COMFORT YOU! HE IS REAL. I know exactly what you mean about crazy churches. There are lots of crazy churches out there. I am so sorry that you have been hurt by their craziness. This is what's up. God forgives ALL of us. Even the crazy people at those crazy churches. Just forgive them and don't ever go back there. Ask God to HELP you trust HIM again. Many people have gone through terrible times and God is ALWAYS faithful. He is not looking for you to 'do something for Him'. He is looking for ways to DO SOMETHING FOR YOU. But, you have to ask Him to help you, have the faith of a little child, and believe that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. He just wants you to believe. If you can't, ask God to help you believe. He will do that first! Faith comes by hearing the Word of God. You can begin reading the Psalms to yourself. You are the apple of God's eye and He loves you! Psalm 17
P.S. Also, I will pray that God will send you some good Christian friends who attend a church that is not 'crazy'. Then you can go to church again and have Christian fellowship in a safe place. I personally had to leave one church when a Youth leader left and was replaced by someone who started doing 'crazy' stuff. My whole family served in the Youth Ministry-including my children with puppets and bus ministry. The new Youth Leader ended up cancelling the bus ministry, destroying half the youth ministry and it had to be nixed within a year after he took over. The church God led us to love kids and have an awesome youth ministry. They even built a gymnasium for the kids and Friday night Youth Rallys.

Answer 6

Babygurl, You have been through a lot more than some twice your age, and you are still alive, so you must understand you are a very strong girl! It's natural to focus on all of the negativity when so much of it is around you, but you must take your attention away from the sad things that have happened in your life and try to focus on the future. Think of the positive things in your life, because I know there *must* be positives. You have your health, right? Mental and physical. What if you didn't have those?? You don't live in poverty ... think of the "third world" countries ... think of the the people who cannot see, speak, hear, walk. All of those things you possess are blessings in your life, and you must take what you have been given and work with it to make your life something meaningful.

I have much more to say to you, but don't want to take up too much space here. Please email if you would like to talk about it more.

Blessings

Answer 7

Mr. M is an idiot don't listen to him. There is no magic wand that will make your hurt go away. God never promised that the life of a believer would be easy but as much pain as you are feeling Christ has felt more. Read the book of Job his life was not easy either but if you bless God and endure you will be rewarded. Some times the best way to help your self is to help others.

Answer 8

Well. You need some faith and uplifting. You have been through Hell, but there is a reason for all of this in the end. You NEED to live. I would see a counselor. They help big time.. and dont give up on churches

Answer 9

Ok I am going to hope that you are serious.

I grew up in a family that never really talked about God and only went to church in occaisional spurts. My mom runs our home. She is the BOSS. My parents marriage is rocky because of this and so that made growing up in that house like a roller coaster ride. You never knew what would set it off. My Dad is distant and my mom is tall, thin, and athletic. So is my younger brother, the baby of 5. The older kids are WAY older and from my Dads first marriage. Then there is me, short, chubby, smart to the point of just shy of geeky, and a total clutz. I stink at EVERY sport. So I always felt alone. When I was 18 I went to church with a friend and her boyfriends family. For me at that time it was like coming home. I accepted Christ as my savior and was baptised, but I still lived at home. No one in my family knew where I was coming from. And all of the sudden there were things to do as a family on Sunday. I skipped more and more and then got embarassed and quit going.

A few years later I married a man who grew up going somewhat to church as a kid, but quit as an adult. He never got it and whenever I would suggest going to church it was like I was asking him to get a root canal he didn't need. For 10 years I would try off and on. He would go hate it and I would give up to stop an arguement.

Last year things at work went down hill for him. A few months later a neighbor invited us to church. He went and enjoyed it. Things got worse at work, he listened more at church. He lost his job the last week in July. He accepted Christ in August

So here is my point. Sometimes God lets bad things happen to get us to need him. If you feel lost and alone, try church again. It might awaken something in you. If you are uncomfortable there try another. This time of year in our area churches are having pageants and festivals. Check your paper or call local churches to see if they are doing anything. Try going to something like that. It will let you get the feel of a church without any pressure.

Once you find some place you feel comfortable, go. Go to church, Sunday school, youth activities, get plugged in. Make friends.

Also just my opinion, but any church that seperates people by color is not of God. Turn around and leave. Don't even bother with the service.

Hope this helps.

Answer 10

Well, I'm sorry, but I don't quite understand the question. I'm sorry you've been through all of that. One thing you said that I did notice was about your friend being your life. If you made Christ your entire life - the one who will never leave you or forsake you - you might not be so completely shattered and broken. It's not too late though, if you put your entire life into His hands, and trust that He's got the best plan for your life, you will have a purpose in life...to serve Him and do what He asks...and you will find great peace and joy in it. It might not always be easy, but it is by far the best decision you could make. I will pray that you understand..and find your joy in Christ.

Answer 11

Good.You must thank God for giving you opportunities in your early age.Plz treat these things as if were designed to strengthen your courage & moral to face any challenges ahead of your life.Now that you are matured enough to recall those incidents & trying to analyze the same.Itself is a good beginning.Imagine a child of your age who only enjoys only finer aspects of life so far.And you will agree with me that only YOU are equipped well to face any problems you may encounter ahead in a beetr way than that other child.In that sense, I would sy that you are a ' blessed one '. And need not worry.
Go & conquer the World, Baby...........