I'm really tired and don't want to fight anymore...?

Question

I'm tired of constantly living for nothing, I'm tired of beeng alone, i'm tired of not knowing where and why I'm going, I'm broken - i don't want to help myself anymore, I cannot enjoy talking to people anymore, I've lost interested in everyhing I was ever interested in. My dreams are brocken and not real. Everything I ever lived for, all the inspirations all the dreams all the values are gone. I wanted to do it right, but everything I did, turned out on me, just another mistake. I've been creating problems for myself, because I wasn't ever sure of anything. I never new how to do it exatly. I rebeled from what i thought was wrong but I got myself nowhere. I am sitting here and doing what I'm doing but my soul is dying day, by day. I have noone to talk to, except academic counselor, who hopefully I'll talk to next week. I'm done........i cannot stop crying.........i feel like i'm dying....from inside...

Thanks so much, I'm kind of happy that i'm not alone, and some people can actually relate to my problems, I'm really happy that I got all this feedback and hearing from people that learned and found new goals and ways. I'm still re-reading your responces. I'm 20 and I was probly sensitive person through out my life, but I always had faith I was looking forward to life, I would fall, but than get up, but at one point I lost it completely and I've been trying to deal with it ever since, but I can't. I’m already going on autopilot, and I know drugs are gonna do the same. My memory has worsened, and it’s really hard for me to study. Feeling of numness and inevetibility is what’s with me when I’m better. The thing I’m afraid the most is that I’m gonna stay like this……and that scares me more than death.
But I will put every effort into change during next month, so wish me luck.

Answer 1

How old are you?
Do you have activities you still enjoy?
It sounds like you are too young to just give up!
I went through what you are feeling too, but I have two kids I needed to be strong for.
You should see a councilor who can help you. Perhaps some medication.
Another thing I would recommend is to get out an volunteer with a group that helps disabled kids. Helping others will in turn help yourself.
Kids with Downs Syndrome are the best because they will love you just because you are there.
Maybe go into a church and just ask to talk to someone.
You need to decide that you are going to make a change... otherwise, things won't change.
Good luck and remember, you aren't alone if you look!

Answer 2

There are different ways to look at thing; most of the time only one is correct.

This could be a blessing; we have to leave life and if we love it, it will hurt us to loose it.

Most people's purpose is unclear; some suffer from the Sin Upon Me syndrome. That is that they were born to be sinned upon. It's also know as having an invisible kick me sign on you. In turn, those who choose to sin upon you are condemned.

This comes with other factors such as; since you're always attacked by other you can't keep a job, friends or relationships. But the curse comes with a benefit; it seems you can't be destroyed, you can only be held back because that's where you need to be to fulfill your task.

The solution is to accept it. Go with it. Leave it take you where it must. Then the crying and fears will be tolerable and even fade away. But you must not give up or give in. You should make the necessary efforts; but only what feels right at the time with no excessive stress. It's a gift; you're not suppose to do the things that others do that prevent them from enjoying certain things, I'm sure you do; true feelings.

Learn to live it; then you can appreciate and enjoy it.

Answer 3

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Answer 4

I think many people have felt like this at some point. I myself have gone through a phase where I felt hopeless, but you just keep pressing on and eventually things get better. You do need to speak with someone. Do they have a counseling center at your school? I would check on that. Just remember, sometimes things get worse before they get better but don't let that get you down. Sometimes life is hard but the hard stuff is what makes us stronger.

Answer 5

Wow reading what you have wrote just sounds like one of my journal entries. I really can relate to how you are feeling, but guess what, I am coming out of that mind state and so will you, it just takes time. Life is really worth living when you get to the other side. You just need to hold on and try your hardest to get past all of this. Remember when you feel like giving up just think if you give you are just going to continue to feel this pain, you are going to remain broken. and more than likely you want more than anything is to be able to laugh again, to be happy. Thats what you are fighting for. I gave up a few times and my situation ended up worse with each time. I became agoraphobic, I was anorexic a lot moer things went wrong just from giving in to your mind. Hopefully this is just a bad day and they are not ALL like this, of course you are going to have days that feel like there is nothing left in this world that is of any interest to you, but the rare day that you do have tells you otherwise and you need to remember that day, keep it with you always and remember that is what you are fighting for. Be strong and if you ever want to talk please feel free to email me. my email is [e-mail].

Answer 6

I hear you. You aren't alone, not by a long shot. I know, last thing you want to hear is that some other guy on Yahoo Answers has more or less the same kind of utter crap going on in his "life", but there it is....some 90% of what you said applies to me too.

Email me, the contact link in my profile *should* work, but if it doesn't....in a spam-free format, my address is bpoe[atmark] prairienet[dot] org

Don't do anything to harm yourself or others, please.....drop me a line, we can always compare horror stories, or talk about new and nifty ways to kill that Vile Karateeeeh Hamster on Yahoo Answers, something....

Give yourself a chance, reach out to people, keep talking even if it hurts....and take it easy on yourself. Don't beat yourself up over feeling this bad, it happens to the best of us (Abraham Lincoln, Winston Churchhill, Oscar Wilde, countless others who went on to do great and wonderous things with their lives...).

Come on....I am not asking much here, just put one foot in front of the other, one word with another to make a sentence or two....

Write me. Talk. Get out of your own head at least a little bit. I might not be able to reply today because I have my own mess to take care of but I *will* get back to you ASAP.

Hold on. That is not a request. It is out of your hands, do what you have to do, but remember, one foot in front of the other, one word after another, hold on and live. If I have to do it, you do too.

Answer 7

I know how you feel. I tried to commit suiced when I was 14. I was abused and no one would liste when I tried to tell them what was going on. I had all the same feelings you are describing. I ended up in a hospital for 2 months. They taught me in there to love myself. Maybe you should talk to a minister. Everything you tell them should be confidential. I know things will get better for you. They did for me. Talk to your counselor, ask him/her to help you get help. I think you need to talk to someone before this goes any farther. I think about if what I did would have worked, I would not be here right now. I wouldn't be successful in my career. I wouldn't be happily married. You need to take one day at a time. You are a wonderful person for asking for help. I admire you for that. Please remember things will get better.

Answer 8

We all get down in the dumps trust me i have been there ,but life is worth living just remember ther are other people out ther that are feeling the same way.We are poor and won't be having a x-mas this year ,but we all have to look forward to something !!Good luck & if you believe in GOD just keep praying & I will pray for you!!!!!!!!!

Answer 9

I'm only 16 but i know how you feel

I have been through all of this before

hating myself not knowing the point to continue

but it doesn't last

you will get over it

just stick with your concealing and do activities that you enjoy

physical exercise always helps

Good luck

God bless

Answer 10

I have felt what you have described, and even now at times I feel it. very strongly.

The only advice I can give you, is what i give myself.

Meditate every day.

Focus on good things, even if its somthing as small as a nice blue sky, or the colour of the grass in the park.

A person's focus determines there reality.

If we focus on the feeling of dying inside, we will want to die, and then bring death to us.

But if one focus's on life, then they will live.