I want to kill myself?

Question

I have no guy or girl friends that I hang out with.

I live alone I just recently moved out of my parents'. I miss my dog josie who is at their house who I have had for 6 years. I miss them, I never see them anymore I am just too busy and i don't live there.

My girlfriend is out at a party without me.

I honestly think if I died, or got lost in the wilderness, that only Josie and my mom and dad would look for me.

I might as well be dead.

I'm afraid that if I talk to my girlfriend about it, who I think might be cheating anyway, that she will freak out and dump me.

I feel like a shell of a person

I didn't go to the party because we broke up about 4 months ago and just got back together over Thanksgiving. She hasn't told her friends yet, and they are all there, so that would be weird if I went.

Answer 1

Maybe u should find some hobbies, get out and see what life has to offer u, but if u kill urself u will never be able to explore what could be out there for you. Remember life is precious and u only get one of them so enjoy it while u can. God Bless u ,and u have my prayers.

Answer 2

I am sorry you feel that way. This feeling will pass. If you haven't been on your own long, you need to think about how you want things to be in your life as time goes on. Once you have a direction to go, then you can make some progress.

Take some time and visit your folks and Josie. Can Josie come for an overnight some day or you could take her for a walk?

Why didn't you go to the party? Maybe you could have met someone interesting, a possible friend.

Answer 3

Please don't do it. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You don't get to come back and start again. I've come so close as to plan it so it doesn't look like suicide. If you're so busy, you must have outside interests that involve others. Invite 'em over and have a pizza. Make yourself accessible and knock off the pity party. If you were able to get a girlfriend once, you can do it again. Shine on the one you think is going out on you. You deserve better. Don't think that your demise will "show them". People that care for you will be devastated and what about Josie?
Please try to adjust to your new life. Listen to "Hold On" by Good Charlotte. It saved my life.

Answer 4

Plese don't do that. You would leave a hole in the universe. really--your young, don't give up yet. Like a few of us have said, you'll miss out on all the fun & think about it, you never know how you might have or will impact someones life. Have a good rest & things will look better in the morning. If this felling persists you might consider counseling, but really, get out & about 7 make eye contact with passers by, smile if you catch therir eye, most will smile back (I would hope) . This might give you a lift & make you feel less detached from the world. I hope you feel better soon.

Answer 5

Well, if you just moved out and you're on your own, that might be causing the depression you feel as well - sort of like a latent homesickness, if you will. But no one should ever be thinking something like that - the best advice I can give you is talk to someone about it, and maybe go to a therapist. But keeping it up inside is the worst possible thing to do - I speak from experiance with depression and feelings of suicide.

Answer 6

No, just go spend time with your parents and your dog. Women are good for sex but there is no companion like a dog that is always happy to see you and isn't trying to read your mind or make unreasonable demands. You aren't better off dead, but you'd be better off making your life the way you want it to be, time is the most precious thing we have and not to be wasted feeling miserable or wishing we were somewhere else. Make your dog happy, and you'll be happy.

Answer 7

u need a doctor and killing urself wont get u anywhere .sure its a bad day right now but just think theres going to be great days ahead of u ..And when u kill urself ur hurting eveyone u love ur puttin them in sooo much pain and heartache is that what u want?> to hurt the ones that love u ? i dont think so.. and in a few months u'll just be a memory.And u'll be burnin in hell for the rest of ur life..dont kill urself cus ur having a bad day..live to see a better day..be strong u can do it! take care. and dont hurt the ones that love u the most..

Answer 8

Killing yourself is a very cowardly thing to do. Think of all the people you will hurt. Your parents, the ones that raised you to be who you are today. Most religions believe that suicide is a ticket to hell! I wouldn't want to go there.

God never gives us more than we can handle. Go see your mom and dad and tell them how you are feeling. You have only begun to live - don't you want to see the full circle? You always have God to talk to. You are one of his angels.

Answer 9

Don't do that...I was like that too...when I thought people didn;t care about me... but ur girlfriend is out at a party...ok...throw your own party...its her loss for not being with you...and scedule a time for your parents to come and see you... if ya wanna talk email me at [e-mail] or myspace www.myspace.com/bottledupinsidelife Good Luck!
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Answer 10

Okay, you just went through a huge change in your life... you moved out, and now everything's different. That's a huge amount of stress right there--no wonder you're dealing with depression. Your life just changed enormously, and you're not sure how to deal with things--on top of that, you've lost most of your support structure, the people you go to when you feel sad.

You know what, though? You probably don't want, specifically, to kill yourself. People who think that want to get out of whatever situation they're in, or even away from their own minds (getting stuck in a rut, like depression, really sucks). The reason they say "I want to kill myself" is that they see death as the only way out of that situation. However, if there were another way, they would probably take it. So, technically, they want to get OUT of whatever they're stuck in--not, actually, to die.

So what you need to do is find your OUT. You feel very lonely; and it sounds like you're a socially-oriented person, so that's one of your needs, and it's not being fulfiled. So you'll want to find people to be social with. There are some possibilities here: Your job, for example, might have interesting people you could befriend. You could go to church, and find friends there. You could find a hang-out spot like a fitness center, a coffee shop, or whatever, and just talk to people. (I don't recommend bars--people who are depressed will just magnify those depressed feelings if they drink. But if you know you can keep it to a beer or two, and you're old enough...)

Can you attend college? Great social opportunities there. If you're already attending college, try student organizations or student hang-out spots (lounges, cafeteria, etc.). If you're not, you could consider going... There are community colleges where the work is pretty easy and the degrees can get you a decent job; you could even go to school at night. Going to school, if you enjoy learning, enjoy being with other students, or just like having something to do instead of sitting and moping, can be a good way to get yourself a goal in life.

You can probably think of other places to go find people... You know your own town, after all.

If you're too depressed (lack of motivation, tiredness, etc.) to go find people on your own, you may need some professional help. This is actually quite common--half of all people (including me) have experienced or will experience depression at some point in their lives.

A good place to start getting help is asking your family doctor for an appointment. Tell him your symptoms (sadness, lack of motivation, thoughts of suicide, et cetera--whatever is bothering you and you can't seem to shake). He can refer you to a psychologist, where you can get counseling (and don't hesitate to shop around for those; if you don't get along with one, you won't get much done). He can prescribe medication himself or refer you to a psychiatrist for medication (Caution: Don't let them overmedicate you. If you feel like a zombie, you need a new doctor.)

Oh, regarding your dog, Josie--No wonder you miss her. Pets are wonderful for the emotions, and your Josie sounds like a good friend.

You can't replace her; but maybe you could get your own dog, now that Josie is staying with your mom for the forseeable future? If you can't get a dog, maybe a cat would fit better into an apartment; or, if you can't do that, even a small pet like a guinea pig, gerbil, rat, etc. could help a little.

And insist on your mom giving you regular updates on how Josie's doing. That way you stay in touch with your mom, too.

Good luck--and don't kill yourself, please. It's way too permanent, and there are just too many enjoyable things about life to give up on it now.