I'm thinking about killing myself... What should I do?

Question

You dont know how hard this is for me
I'm seriously thinking about killing myself and I dont know where to turn.. I'm 20 years old and I just cant take it anymore

Here are my problems:

-I have a few acne scars on my face, it makes me look ugly, if i didnt have them id look really cute
-I have a little acne on my back which really sucks, I'm too embarrased to even go swimming
-I'm skinny, I'm like 140 pounds and I tried everything to gain weight and simply cant
-I have yellow teeth, good condition, just yellow from all the smoking
-I don't have much cash and my family is living from paycheck
-I'm always depressed, no matter what... I can watch an entire comedy stand up and not laugh once
-I used to smoke marijuana a few times a day, I've been sober for a couple months now and I cannot stand it
-I have no job
-I lost many of my friends due to quitting drugs
-I havent had a girlfriend in a couple years now

What should I do? For the first time I'm thinking about suicide.

Answer 1

you should join a support group. click on my picture and email me. ive gone through things where i felt the same way and ive learned how to deal.

Answer 2

Probably pretty hard. When it came right down to it though I couldn't jump off the chair when the rope was around my neck.
Turn to a councellor or a doctor.
-I had acne before, all over my face, I got a little older it went away. the scars heal up in time as well.
- I used to be skinny, now I'm fat 6' and 230lbs.
- I have false teeth.
- Your only as miserable as you choose to be. Do something good for someone else. It will make you feel better.
- I'm not going to tell you to smoke pot, I've been clean and sober for 2 1/2 years. and still have days I think about using it. I can say it took a while to be OK with being clean and sober but life will get better and you can be happy and have fun without using.
- Jobs are easy to get, all you have to DO is keep asking all the people you meet if they know about any jobs available? If you still can't get one Manpower centres or Temp Staff places hire day labourers. Keeping busy will give you something else to think about. These thoughts should get less and go away in the future.
They've gone from me, and life today is pretty good.
- If the people were around when you had drugs and are not around when you don't have drugs, it would tell me, they were there for the drugs and not to see you. Find some friends who will hang out sober.
- Enjoy your freedom, if you want a girl, you'll someday get one, get married and her prego and you'll be attached to her for your whole life. Have some fun now, Ski, Swim, Draw, Sing, Play, skateboard, there must be lots of things you liked to do as a kid.
You can still do some ro all of them if you choose to.
Find some sober friends, Alano clubs can be good places for friends in recovery. Meetings help too. Stick your hand out and say "Hi, My name is ______ , How are you doing today" and someone will shake it. You will be talking and making new friends if you choose to. It can happen pretty quickly if you let it.

What should you do?
Be as honest with yourself as you can be. Then If you really do want to comit suicide call and ask for help. Police, ambulance, etc... If you don't really want to and are just feeling depressed or sad then seek councelling so you can learn to express and deal with your feelings in a positive way, and DO your best look at the positive side of every situation. In even the worst event, you can usually find something good or a lesson that can be good for you.
If you are unable to be honest with yourself and don't know what you want then you should call the ambulance or go to a hospital and see a doctor.

Answer 3

First off: You ought to be proud of yourself for quitting drugs! That's an amazing accomplishment! Why would you want to kill yourself after beating such a strong enemy? You must talk to someone that you TRUST and makes you FEEL SAFE. This is number 1. --2. You lost all your friends after you got clean? These people weren't your friends. Friends are people who help you when your down, and stand by you no matter what. 3. You're skinny? You're only 20 years old. Most 20-somethings are skinny. As you get older, you will put on some healthy weight. 4. Go out and get a job. This will occupy your brain, and it will also stimulate it. 5. Wash your face with the ProActive products out there. The key to preventing acne is to keep your hands away from your face. 6. A girlfriend would be nice to have, but she can't make you love you. Only you can do that. I believe in you!!

Answer 4

Ok, first off....
The acne...well I too have dealt with it...and they have a GREAT medicine called "acutane" that will clear it all up. You'd have to see a dermotologist to get it. As for the weight, have you tried the weight lifters body builder formula? They have a couple really good ones you might want to try. Being skinny though, isn't a bad thing!! And don't worry, with age, you will put on weight. As for the teeth, well they make several over the counter products to help with that, but QUIT SMOKING!!

You may also, try to find, even a simple job, as it will not only pass the time, but you will meet some great new people, and bring in some extra cash. And with insurance, you can see that dermitologist. As well as getting some meds for your depression. Depression isn't an abnormal thing & can be controlled much easier these days. It's amazing how much they can help you. Now, if you feel like you just can't take it anymore...PLEASE...call one of the intervention lines and talk to them. So many of them are there & just willing to help you out. And you don't have to give them your real name if you don't want to. They can be quite helpful. And hey, smile.....even through the internet, your never alone!!

hugs for ya!!

Answer 5

-You can use Dermatix for the scars, it works really well
-I have acne on my back too, try using Benza-Clin or something
-Skinny isn't bad, just as long as you're healthy
-Try using Crest White Strips or whitening listerine for your teeth
-Stores like Target have cheaper clothes and other things
-I know a lot of people have probably told you this, but see a counselor. It really helped with my friends depression.
-Maybe a nicotine patch will help? You can put it under your shirt and no one will know. Good job for quitting drugs by the way. That should make you really proud, its really hard.
-Apply for a job. You could get new friends and earn some more money
-Try hanging out at the mall and meeting people. Or you could start doing a sports team and meet people that way. Your old friends didn't deserve to be your friends if you lost them by quitting.
-Ask a girl out. Most girls will say yes to anyone if they don't already have a boyfriend.

Try to think of things that would make you happy, and attempt to do all of them. Most people can barely notice things like acne scars and yellow teeth unless they are really close to your face.


one last thing........killing yourself is never the right answer. Your family would be really sad and they might blame themselves. Try joining a support group or something.

Good Luck!!

Answer 6

You should go talk to your doctor about this,or go to the nearest emergency ward. You are only 20, Apply for every job available. any job will do for a start, even if its washing dishes in a greasy spoon, and just having a steady income will help make you feel better, and will help out your family. Having a steady income will also help most of your other problems, because then you can afford a dentist to clean the teeth, an dermatologist to get rid of thescars and acne, and your self esteem will go way up which will attract friends and girls.
By the way, acne is nothing to hold you back from life. i know a guy who has smallpox scars all over his face, and he is really popular and has had dozens of girlfriends

Answer 7

Yes get Couseling! There is always someone out there who cares or will miss you. You are lucky you can change as I know other's who will not change. My brother lost the use of his back and legs and he is happy now. You are lucky to be alive!!!!I have yellow teeth! Acne is places you do not want to know! But I am at peace with myself and the world.
Depression is tough, but be like a sponge surround yourself with good people friends, you will learn to appreciate life, and the little things.
MJ sucks ... I rather spend money on good music and imagine myself nice and relxed!
Get any O job ,delivery, physical as it will help you become healthier and also will help with better moods!
Loose the looser friends. Friends who spends money and make me smoke will make me poor and go downhill from there!
Know yourself become more confident , then get a nice GF. I had my first GF wife at the age of 21. No point in not knowing what makes you happy and getting into a bad relationship..

...sorry I type very slow and that is all I can do for now...Never forget you only live for a short time and die for a very long time...

Answer 8

- I'd like to adopt you (but you'd have to help me clean the kitty litter box every evening).
- Acne scars are no biggie if you can make the other person feel special by, like, listening with full attention when they talk.
- You'll be glad you are skinny when you hit 60.
- Yellow teeth can be whitened, even just with baking soda.
- Get a job shelving books at a public library. That's where girls hang out. (I know. I've worked at libraries for over 100 years....really, about 25 years.)
- You're a skillful writer with good grammar and spelling. The world needs people like you!
- The very fact that you posted this means you want to live.
- Make one change during the next few days - like, put in your application at the public or a college library if close enough to where you live.
- Post again soon and update us. I'll watch for your post.

Answer 9

Hi Jak--Call your doctor before you do anything else. Tell him about your negative list and ask him what would he do. Let him know you are thinking about suicide. It may be too hard now, but most of us have been down this road, maybe with a different list of negatives, but we all have wondered at one time or another, if life is worth living.

Yes, to murder yourself is an option, and a choice that will not leave you with another.

We all need someone to lift us up from time to time and I'm so glad you have reached out to ask, "What should I do"?

Let's go over your problems and see if we can find solutions.

Acne scars on your face and acne on your back:
Solution: Open the yellow pages in your telephone book. Go down the list and call every Dermatoligist in town. Ask to speak with the doctor. Tell him you are without the means to have your skin looked at and would they be willing to look at you in exchange for a car wash or raking the parking lot. Most doctors would be willing to help out someone who really needs it. The doctor can do a sanding of your scars that will remove or greatly reduce them.

You are skinny and need to gain weight:
Buy Ensure and drink it along with your normal meals, 4 times a day. See a Dietician for help.

Yellow teeth:
Brush your teeth often. After some time, baking soda and salt can whiten teeth. Ask if there is anyone (dentist) who would treat your teeth in exchange for work.

You don't have much cash and live from paycheck to paycheck:
Look for work. Get a second job on the weekends for extra cash.
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See an Internal Specialist or Neuro specialist for depression.

Many of your friends are lost because of your drug days. Yes, most parents will not wish you to come to the house because of what you have done to break the law taking drugs.

You have lost many friends, but I think you can exchange them for new ones.

You haven't had a girlfriend in a while:

As your doctor for a Social Worker to help you make a change in life styles, Attend, as much as possible invitations from those who surround you. Go to church. Its a wonderful place to meet new friends and find a girl friend. Join a church that has a lot to offer you in inward support.

As you work through every problem, pray, pray pray that God will bless you.

I I hope tonight will be the last time you think about suicide

Make a list of the above problems and write down how they can be changed. Do one act of kindness daily to someone.

I and a whole lot of people are rooting for you.

Blessings,
Lindakflowers

Answer 10

Sounds like you're in a bad place, man. I'm not going to offer a bunch of cliche's about being yourself and looking on the bright side- when you get in a funk like that, its hard to dig yourself out with B.S.

All I can say is... remember this: you're not alone. No matter how shitty you think you have it... every one of us feels or has felt that way. Even the pretty, even the rich, all of us. Part of being human is feeling pain, is feeling inadequate, is feeling alone. Try not to take it personally, that is, as though you are being isolated and victimized by the universe. Realize instead that everyone else, even those who never show it, goes through that same **** at some point or another.

By the way... glad to hear your off the pot. For every high, there must be a low, maybe you just owe a few. You'll snap out of it eventually, I promise.

Answer 11

I get that you have a lot of problems, but what I have read you can solve them if you try. For your scars use Vaseline it works if you give it time. You don't have a job then get one, start surging tomorrow. For that acne on your on your back go to a doctor and he will tell you what to do. Your old friends aren't a good influence, because they can get you to go on the wrong path again. So go out and make new ones, it won't go 1, 2, 3 but it will happen give it time. The reason why you are depressed I think is because you are not happy were your live is at, that is also why you want to do drugs again. You want to escape the reality of your live, but that is why you need to change it make it better. For your teeth you have stop smoking and if you already have, then start taking care of them. Go to the dentist, brush on time.Try what I advised you I think it will work, and get a productive hobby it will help your depression as well. All of this will help. Get out of your house and try to help your family, it will make you feel better about yourself.