I tink I might end it all soon... I'm not finding happiness in anything/one I do... and I feel so weird and

Question

freaky and different from anyone else I know... should I check myself into an institution or od on painkillers? I need help ASAP!

Answer 1

Freaky and different is a good thing. You don't want
to be some repetitive robot that will do whatever
everyone else is doing.

If you want to talk about anything, just message me on Yahoo! IM at kevin04.

We can talked about how Bush is a f*cking idiot.
or How Rosie O'Donnell is the fattest lesbian in the world
or How Paris Hilton and Britney Spears are the two most famous diseased whores.

Or we can talk about all three. I guarantee I can get you into a better mood.

Answer 2

Yes. It wasn't until I was about 25 that I started to realize that things were actually getting worse, rather than just perceptions. Now I truly think they are heading downhill fast. If not in some eschatalogical sense, I at least think we are witnessing the demise of western civilization. We have finally created a society with so much entertainment and distractions from reality to consume that the very structure and backbone of the culture may collapse from apathy (or hostility). I think the only reason we may still be chuffing along now is sheer momentum. Though I'm not a Christian, I found this Bible quote particularly prescient of our current age, so much that it's hard to imagine it applying to any time before now with such relevance: "For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, truce breakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;" (2 Tim 3:2-4) What's worse than a Biblical-style end of days? How about an end of civilization with no parousia forthcoming! Everything falling to pieces not out of pre-destiny but merely because we humans were too stupid to get it right. Chaos, death, and ruin (and zombies, maybe), and no judgment day to look forward to. How cheerful. At least in the religious version there's some sense to it all. Too bad I'm not a child anymore ... the fairy tales have worn off.

Answer 3

I'm not a professional, but I do think you need to go to a hospital or institution - don't do the painkillers! I have gone through depression, as a matter of fact, I am on Welbutrin now. Through all of my issues in life, I've realized that I am never going to "find" happiness. My happiness comes from God. I made up in my mind one day that I was going to take control of my life. As far as being "weird", a lot of people feel that way, you aren't alone.

Answer 4

Call one of the suicide prevention lines and they will really listen and help. They can refer you to a good therapist, and it is on a sliding scale .Even if you are broke at the moment, because sometimes there is no charge. Talking it out with a pro is a smart move.
My sister did therapy when she was really down a couple years ago and now she is happy again. It is worth it.

Answer 5

If you honestly feel you might hurt yourself,check into the hospital please, you have so much to live for, life is way to short to be thinking this way,you only have one life here on earth, you need to take care of yourself,spend time with the people you love and your family, and look into a Church, check out Joyce Meyers web page, or Joel Osteens page, they have very inspirational words for you, and will help you seek the Lord. Put all your trust into him and he can and will pull you through everything!! Nothing is impossible with Jesus!!!

Answer 6

Been there.....and glad I did not off myself. I just got engaged to the love of my life at 47 years old. I would have never been this happy if I had given up!