i am 19 living on my own i am so sad and angry i just want to die. what am i to do?

Question

i was in aresidental treatment center untill i turned 18. was reciving counsling and on meds bc i was deppressed and cutting. the meds worked. but now i cant afford them and without them things arent good i am going back to the way i used to be i have started cutting again and i think i have a problem with alcohol. i know i need help but i dont have any money i am just barely making it. i am at the end of my ropes please help

Answer 1

Please call a hotline right now. There are mental health hot lines. There are suicide hot lines. There are abuse hotlines. Open your telephone book right now and look in the front. There are listings there for help and you need to call one of the numbers now. I don't know where you live but I know in Florida that if you have a mental problem and you cannot afford the medications, then some of the mental clinics and hospitals will give you the medications at little or no cost. My daughter has had mental problems all her life and the times when I could not afford her medications or blood tests, they provided them to me for as little as $3.00 per month.

If you were in a residential treatment facility, then whay aren't you on medicaide? You could be on S.S.I disability and that would automatically get you the medicade.

But the important thing is to call and get help now. In Florida there is a baker act law, it just means that if the courts or doctors or a family memb er ar friend, thinks that you are a danger to yourself or anyone else, then you are put in a facility until they can evaluate you and get you back on your medications. My daughter has been baker acted 9 times and only once by me and my husband.

If you can't find a mental health place tonight that will help you, then you should find out which hospital in your area has a psych unit and go to their emergancy room tonight. You are asking for help and here it is. Now GO.

Answer 2

Go visit that residential treatment center and tell them you NEED HELP. One of the managers/owners should be able to direct you to an adult treatment center; they must know centers or resources or people that can help you. You may be eligible for state or federal assistance to pay for the meds you need. Whoever runs that treatment center should know of these things or at least how to get to these things. It's your best resource at this point.

You could also go to a hospital and ask to speak with a Case Manager. Explain that you aren't a patient, but you need help and state what you need. Ask them to point you in a direction.

Don't give up on yourself or life. You have no guarantee that death won't be worse; nobody really knows for sure. So, resolve to help yourself; it's obvious you want to just by the way you've expressed yourself, and likewise, it's obvious you're intelligent and thoughtful. You can make it. You might even like it!

Answer 3

Well, obviously taking your meds probably ranks right up there with having food and shelter, so you probably need to take whatever measures you need to take to try to obtain your meds. If you have to work a little extra to be able to afford your meds, you just might have to. Check with your local government offices for mental health. You say that you are barely making it financially, so this might be an advantage in case your help is dependant upon your income.

Other suggestions are reading positive self help books, volunteering somewhere, and to talk to a counselor that dosen't charge anything; sometimes churches have counselors that are willing to volunteer their services for free. Good Luck!!

SOCCER COACH, I don't think your insinuations for this participant to jump off an apartment building is funny at all! People that are depressed are already irrational and vulnerable in their thinking without as*es like you added to their demise.

Answer 4

Find an agency in your city for people in your situation. Go to the local hospital and ask for info on someplace to get help getting your meds. If you are already with a psychiathist go to him and explain your situation. He may be able to get you samples of some or all of your meds. or he may know programs through the drug companies that you can get reduced meds. If there is a Wal mart near you, you can get generic drugs for $4--but only certain drugs. what ever you do don't give up!! don't dtart cutting. if you feel like everything is hopeless go to the er for help. whatever you do, get back on your meds. you will go down fast if you don't. Good luck.

peace&hope

Answer 5

Hello friend. First, it is good that you realize you need help. It is also good that you are looking for help. I strongly recommend that you call a crisis hotline. Here is one Youth Crisis Hotline. [phone]. At the very least, they can provide you with options for community resources in your area that you can get involved with and some of them are probably free. Please seek out these kind of community resources. There are some places that may be able to allow you to work for them as a volunteer in exchange for the services they offer. Free support group meetings may also be something to help.
I really do wish the best for you and hope you find some resources that can help you afford your meds and get you some support. You can do it!

Answer 6

Take yourself very seriously and reach out right away. Call the suicide prevention hotline if you need to - they should also be able to refer you to your community mental health facilities, which will be free if you have no money. 1-800-273-TALK (8255) toll free. Even if you don't feel you will hurt yourself, call and they can give you good professional advice as to what to do next to get yourself on the road to wellness.

I know, I take meds, I've been to the community mental health centers, and they were great. I feel better than I ever thought I would when I was your age and in your situation. Hang in there, and CALL for help!

Good luck.

Answer 7

I have 3 siblings who are or were depressed. My younger sister who is 16 is severly depressed. She tried to commit suicide more times than I can count, and almost succeded twice. She cuts now and still is having problems. She can't take meds because she'll overdose on them. She did it with Naproxine.... this is what stopped her. It ruined her intestines and her liver. She couldn't eat right for about 8 months and would vomit the smallest bit of food. She finally got to the point where she had to talk to someone. So she confided in me her intermost thoughts. She told me what was bugging her, what she was feeling and how she felt neglected and she thought she was worthless and everything she did was wrong and never good enough. I suggest you talk to someone. It could be anyone. All you really need is someone to listen and understand. I may not know how it feels to fall apart or feel like I don't want to live, but I know how it feels to watch your loved one, friend, try and end their life or tell you that they don't want to live. Just try and talk to anyone. Please try... You can get through it. If you ever need someone to talk to just e-mail me. I would be happy to listen.

Answer 8

Wherever you are there has to be somewhere that they can help you with meds...like a free clinic or something...start by asking the people at the treatment center where you lived...they'll know where you can go or maybe they can help...im older than you, but, i used to cut...you're hurting...find someone to talk to...someone professional...there are places out there that you don't have to pay

Answer 9

Find a phone book. In the front of the white pages it should list the county offices. There should be a county office of mental health. They can see you most likely for FREE.

Do see if they can help you with your meds. you might qualify for medical.

I need my pills and if I didn't have a way to pay for them it would be horrible. I feel for you, man.

Answer 10

Can u get back to the residental center. They may be able to assist u with drug companys to pay 4 your drugs. Please try something u r only 19.