i am so sad and angry i want to die. I am 19 and cant take life what am i to do?

Question

i was in a residental home and reciving counsling till i turned 18. i was on meds bc i was majorily depressed and was cutting. counsling and meds helped. but now i cant afford counsling or the meds i need and i know i am going back to my old ways. i have started cutting again. i just dont know waht to do. on top of all that i think i have a alcohol problem. there is so much going on i have no wher to turn.

Answer 1

I want you to remember something okay? suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. no matter what the situation, it is not worth ending your life over. and alcohol is only going to make things worse because it's a depressant. so it's going to make you more depressed. please leave it alone. and please don't cut. I know you feel like it helps, but in the long run it only hurts you. you are worth so much more than you think you are. and you matter. sweetheart, God loves you, and He will give you the strength you need to get through whatever problems that you may face in your life. and He will get you through this difficult time in your life now. you say that you have no where to turn, and you can't get your medication. the thing that you need to do right now is to go to the emergency room at the nearest hospital and tell someone that you need help and why you need it. you won't be turned away in your condition. they will get you the help that you need getting your medications and everything. they will also appoint you a social worker who will help you and give you support. your social worker can also help you by checking into places for you to live, getting your medications for you, and getting you into support groups where you can discuss your issues with others who are going through what you are going through.
please go to the hospital now, and ask for help. just don't worry about anything, it will all be taken care of. you just concentrate on getting better.
and remember what I said, God loves you, and He has a purpose for your life even though you may not be able to see it right now. you are loved. and I will keep you in my prayers.

Answer 2

Confidence can get you from the streets and into a job, but not everyone has had the privilege of being born into a stable, comfortable and understanding home. These are the people who suffer most in the world. It's nothing to do with intelligence or beauty, but an inner sense of belonging. The only One you can really belong to, because He never gives up on you, is God.

I don't know if its a good idea me telling you to pray, but if I felt totally lost I like to think that is what I would do.

You know, just to have a little picture of Holy Jesus on your person and to know He is there and that He will bring you though the storm, however prolonged. I mean suffering is often a joy, because when you come through it you feel a sense of elevation that can't be attained via the self alone.

It's like you go into a battle and when you find victory it is so hard to comprehend the knowledge is only felt. Falling down happens, mistakes are made, people may come down on you like a ton of bricks. You could be misunderstood in a thousand ways. But He always turns up unexpectedly.

Don't sow your hopes in this world, focus on the next world.

If you are afraid of the Word due to sinful memory's, go Medieval. Go to Latin Mass, study the Bible in Illustrations. He's still there; the Word is received in a different way.

Answer 3

Every County has a Mental Health Dept. and they have to help you and also give medication-all you need i proof of residency in that county-a utility bill and Id either Drivers License or ID Card.You need to get a phone book and find the BLUE Pages-its located at the end of the Business Section. Call and tell your problem and they will make a appointment for a Assessment and then a appointment with a Psychiatrist-to the Assessment bring any past records you may have, and the NAME,PHONE NUMBER of the previous Therapist(s) that you've been to. As soon as you have a appointment for th Asessment you'll receive a name of the peson that will see you-get the fax number and write the namea down then have your therapists fax medical records-you may have to fax permission to release to the last therapist.Also when you call state you have a Alcohol Probnlem for will help get you a quicker appointment. Al;so you can if really feel desparate go to Emergency-call the Pharmacy any Pharmacy for there are programs where meds are just about free for people with hardly any income or do not have prescription insurance - There is always help you have to seek it. Also call The Vincent De Paul Society-a Organzation of the Catholic Church -need to look in phone book or call Catholic Church near you- for we(am a member) help people with bill,rent,food,Medication any required need-as long as they need the help and if funds are low will collaborate with other social service agencies.In order to get this help you will be required to do whats necesary to rceive and do not give up call until you get somebody for I KNOW THE HELP IS THERE-be Persistent.

Answer 4

You know what the problem is, that's good, now get with it and fix it. If you understand that cutting is bad then don't do it, I know it's hard, believe me I know, but you don't need someone else to tell you not to do it, you're all grown up. You don't need meds, I got through depression with out meds, and I was pretty bad. You need to look at life in a brighter way, see the big picture. You need better ways to cope then drinking. Get into art or music or writing, turn your pain into something beautiful.
I'll be here if you want to talk, feel free to contact me.

Answer 5

You must be able to turn to yourself. You know what makes you happy so do that more often. While your depression cannot be cured in one answer, you may find some insight after considering why you "want to die". I used to want to die; I still don't see the point in living, but life can be good if you choose to make it good. I thought about suicide, and never could I cut deep enough to take my life away. If I wanted death that bad, I would be dead, and so would you if that's what you really wanted. You just need to keep living and search for answers to questions that have them. Take care of yourself, you can do it without meds. There are several places you can phone to talk to somebody if you need to... organizations and family/friends. Imagine the happiness that awaits you if you are willing to overcome the negativity towards life that adolescence scars you with and put in effort. Surely you don't expect everything to be handed over to you; and something abstract like happiness can definitely not be provided for you. Cheer up, there's too much time left in your life to just give up, and imagine how long you have to sit there and decompose, soulless and thus emotionless. Be glad you are able to feel, whether it be sadness or whatever...

Answer 6

You Are Not Alone. You must hear that and take the first bus or cab, whatever to the hospital. Go now. They will help you with the charges. The hospital social worker's job is to do just that, set you up with services. You know the signs, and are feeling the pressure. Go on now, get help before it is too late. Keep trying to break the cycle of depression. There are new meds now, just out to help with the symptoms left by the anti-depressants. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself. Go on. Leave now and quit playing on the computer. Nana

Answer 7

Learn to love yourself,and be strong in anything you're facing.Nobody can help you accept yourself.Pray to god and ask for his mercy.You're a grown up now.Help yourself and start thinking positive.If you're asking for an answer or advise,do listen to it.Stop your drinking habit and turn a new leaf.I don't know where in the world are you to be able to give you a good advice and to tell you my story as a lesson.You're young and sweet,do not let anything destroy your youth.

Answer 8

There has to be a local gov program to help. Call the health dept and ask where to go next. Also a good church. They are NOT all good. Find one that speaks to you. Say a prayer, I will too. And hang in there. I'm sure you'll be alright. You're asking for help so that right there says you're a survivor....

Answer 9

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