I think i might need and possibly want help..?

Question

so.. over a half a year ago i was a mess..cutting, pills, no self-esteem, wishing for a truck to hit me..and this summer i was pretty sure that i had gotten over it..that i had changed..i even starting working on how to boost my self-esteem..its working a little i guess...i have changed..but i am still a mess
about 20 minutes ago i almost shoved a knife through my stomach..and would have taken my step moms pain meds..but i couldnt find them..
i cut my leg with the knife..i dont want to start cuttinng again..i hate the scars..such a horrible reminder
and i want to get better..i dont know what my problem is
and..i have no one..i know people say that but..seriously..my step mom and dad hate me..i havent seen my mom in 4 months..my sister destinee thinks im just overdramatic..she doesnt take me seriously at all..
and i want to ask people for help..to give me a hand in getting better..getting somewhat normal atleast..my boyfriend or my sister..but i dont want to scare my b/f off either

Answer 1

I'm really sorry you feel like this and wish i could say something, but all i can say is that you need to see a doctor, people on here can't help you, get some help before you hurt yourself to much.

Answer 2

I haven't had an easy life but I've held up fine and i thinks its because i notice and appreciate how breath taking and wonderful the world is. Just to be here and witnessing life is a huge privilege. There are lots of things to bring you down and focusing just on the bad instead of having a balance between good and bad will make things worse. Just by noticing your thought patterns (e.g Realizing you have been thinking negatively all day) can be a big step to being happy. Just try and get a balance and ask for help. Everyone needs help. I wasn't always happy until i found the right outlook in life through a friend that i was lucky to have met.

Answer 3

Please ask your boyfriend or your sister to go with you to see a professional about the way you are feeling. Of course it will be scary for all of you, but babe, life is scary and I am sure if they were in the place you are in now you would be there for them. In the area were I live there are several places to go for help. If you are in school go to your school counselor, if not call your doctor or go to the local mental health center and set up an appt. most places will work with you on cost.
The people there truly do care or they would not be in that profession. If it seems they don't at times it is only because they are overloaded.
If things get too bad and you feel you cannot handle it PLEASE just go straight to the emergency room and tell them how you are feeling. There is hope for you and there are people who care. Hang in there hon - people do care. ((((hug))))))

Answer 4

Please honey, talk to a trusted adult. There must be one somewhere......in your family or in your school.. You need a professional to help you with this. Kids don't understand, and they can be terribly cruel to each other. Please talk to a trusted adult. I can promise you that nothing is bad enough to do yourself permanent harm over. And you don't need a body full of scars to remind you constantly (& forever) of your every insecurity. But you WILL need a professional to help you see that.

Answer 5

You can tell a counselor at school, or someone at work if that applies to you. Do get help asap! Good luck girl!