When I was 16 years old I was visited with mental illness. I was hosptialized and diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. If It were not for God and people that loved me I would ahve died a long time ago.
But I feel angry and hurt because part of WHY I got sick was people in school were very mean to me and picked on me and because I take medicine I cannot have children and I feel that these kids get to walk away scott free and get away with this
and I am left "holding the bag".
I was a good girl very complaint and very obedient I wanted to go to college and learn about music because I sing but because I was so mentally ill in high school it took all my energy just to pass my courses and get good grades.
I often wonder why I have bi-polar and I have wondered what have I dont to deserve this? I did not have a qulity of life as a teenager ings are better now and I thank God How have yuo dealt with having mental illness?
This is a heavy cross at times and people do judge wrongly.
2006-11-17 11:52:45 · 8 answers · asked by encourager4God 5 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Hang in there, my wife in a mental health therapist. I find it so amazing and I'm so proud of her for doing her job. Life is tough sometimes, but will get better. I think the world is full of "those" people who make fun of everybody. You know as well as i do that those people are hiding something or have a problem too. Keep your head up and take a deep breath. You're gonna be OK.
2006-11-17 12:05:22 · answer #1 · answered by kyle b 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
It must be so difficult to be you. Wow, I thought abused kids, grieving parents and those living in famine ravaged countries had it tough. They do, but not as hard as you, huh? Many people put on a brave face every day to go to work / uni. How dare you assume that everything`s rosy in their lives? You only know what you see. To be honest, you`re quite unusual that you are so able to list the personality traits you see as positive (courage, honour and integrity). You can choose to question the assumtions you make about people. You can choose to apply for an Open University course. You can choose to stay locked up in your flat forever. You can choose to face your demons or not. I have no doubt that bad things have happened in your life. You are an adult. I don`t doubt that you will post another, similar post soon. You probably won`t take on board any of the advice you have been offered. Why? Because the only person who can change you is you, and you don`t appear to feel the need or inclination to. It`s sad, and I hope I`m wrong (I`m sure you`ll let me know if I am).
2016-05-21 23:52:01 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I see that God is encouraging you to find help tonight. Only god can help you because there is totally know one in your life that you can now trust. Follow your heart and rely on only the most tested facts. Be safe in a safe place and get well. God will not let you down but the second you can think better you must try to help another outcast like yourself. You both will learn faster than alone. You were wrongly treated at sixteen in fact all your life you had really been alone. Get praying but start the prayer that uses only questions. God can't help you if you keep telling him what to do.
2006-11-17 12:15:35 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
I'm a graduate psychology major in college, and I have BiPolar disorder. But I must say your question is very confusing. First, you say that part of why you got sick (I assume you meant with BiPolar) was because people in school were mean to you? That makes NO sense. One does NOT contract Bipolar from stress or dperession. It is inherited genetically! Then you say becaue of how bad you felt and the meds you took that you couldn't go to college? Hey, I've been on lithium since I was 17 and I am now going for my Master's degree in psychology at the University of Texas. And THEN you wonder what you have done to deserve the disease. Deserve has nothing to do with it; it's all genetic, just like being short, or blue-eyed, or having diabetes, whatever. But it really sounds to me like you were mid-diagnosed. You do NOT sound like a bipolar. Tell me what medication you take for it? What dosage?
2006-11-17 12:08:00 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
People , especially children, can be very cruel. Alot of times they ridicule others because they are either jealous or want to cover up their own defects. Just remember, you were getting the help that you needed while they went on to become full grown a**holes. Do not let their ignorance occupy space in your head that you could be devoting to God. Those bad thoughts and feelings are just demons trying to reserve a space in HELL for you. Keep your faith! Once a day you could try writing 5 things that you have to be grateful for. Each day, you can add 1 more thing and watch the list grow! It helped me.
2006-11-17 12:04:19 · answer #5 · answered by Tammy D 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋
i really feel bad 4 you
well you know it doesn't really matter what they say if know in your heart that it is not true!!
you are old enough to realize that some people don't even know what they are saying so just ignore them i mean you are young and have a long way to go and some thing like this shouldn't stop you so come on if not for me do it for your self
i hope i some how helped you in a way !!
bye
2006-11-17 12:46:35 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
i'm mentally ill. I can relate. I want to help my friend. dogmicjoe@yahoo.com. Dreams can still be reached. Try to sing. I love music. I play my guitar. You can do it. try to hold on . God loves you
2006-11-17 12:16:32 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
i am feeling the same way right now, but its not for the same reason.
2006-11-17 12:01:05 · answer #8 · answered by xlittlexmacx 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋