How do I receive healing from bi-polar and its effects?

Question

I have had bi-polar manic depression for 21 years and it is hard to deal with. I was told my docotr that if I think postive that I will be reduced in a year from even more medicine. I feel so ashamed that I ahve this disorder I am always hungry I cannot stop eating I am over weight, I am always tired and my memory is not what is used to be. I am in my 30s. My thoughts are always rambled and even when things are going good I have toruble being still In God.
I do have a lot of love and suport and am so thankful for that, However I was nota ble to have children, My docotr knows all about this and I am under a tremendous amount of stress because my husband and I are moving cross cojtnry from wehre I we live now.

Those of you who have this condtion how do you deal with this and what are good godly ways to start to heal.

I am crying right now as I write this in 21 years of having ths problem I never allowed myself to feel. Thank you and God bless you for you answers you will give.

Answer 1

I have treatment resistant depression and possible bipolar disorder. The first thing to realize is that bipolar disorder is an illness, not a personality defect, result of sin or personal weakness.

"Healing" can come in many ways; medication is vital, as bipolar is a disruption in the chemical and possibly structural set up of the brain, just like diabetes is a disruption in the chemical and structural set up of the pancreas.

Counselling, both secular and Christian, can give you a safe outlet to express the emotions that come with having an illness like this-anger, fear, sadness and so on.

If you've not allowed yourself to feel, then I'm guessing you've also not grieved the illness and what it has taken away from you and the problems it's caused? It is okay to cry and to grieve-and even to get angry at God and tell Him as much. He knows how you're feeling and wants you to open up and let Him know.

There is a good book called, "Grieving Mental Illness", by Virgina Lafond. It walks you through the grieving process as it relates to having to live with a life-long mental illness.

You can ask for prayers from friends, loved ones, pastors and so on-but remember we are to pray, "Thy will be done" and sometimes God's answer is, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" (2Cor.12:9)

I have created a good helping team who have enabled me to see improvement in my illness that we thought would be impossible. This team includes my doctors (family doc, psychiatrist, and endocrinologist), a mental health worker/counsellor, my pastors, friends and family. Each one has their own way to help me or care for me and very rarely do these team members overlap-each has their own special way to help.

Good luck and God's blessings to you.

Answer 2

I suffer from the same problem and I can feel your pain. I always ask the question "Why me?" "Why not the murderers and rapists and child molesters?" It is very difficult to appreciate some of the smallest things and at times it seems like I may be better off dead. I have been trying to find the right medication to help me maintain just a halfway normal life. I find that talking to others who suffer from the same disorder is the best medicine. I am blessed enough to have a best friend who suffers from the same exact problem. When I feel hopeless and depressed, like I do right now, I call her and she makes me feel better just by telling me that she understands my pain. If you feel like you don't know anyone who relates, you can write me at [e-mail]...I am more than willing to help you because the pain is intense and I understand what you are going through. I too am in my 30's but I took many wrong roads and made many bad decisions because of this illness. I hope that what I have shared with you helps. I am crying also..today was bad for me.

Answer 3

I am almost afraid to tell you how recovery takes place . Depression is all about friends and family. If you proceed you will have to part from these people and find a new life with new friends who were raised as outcasts as you were. Depression is a feeling made by your own brain when you force it to accept false expectations for love and life. When you form new expectations and beliefs the road to recovery will begin. Many have used medication so much that they can't think well enough to travel that road.

Answer 4

Hello - Isn't it great that we live in a time when someone suffering from a problem such as yours can go on line and communicate with other people who may be dealing with the same or similiar problems as yourself?

I do feel for you and understand the difficulty which you struggle with. ... There are a couple of things I want to share with you which I suspect you may find to be very valuable pieces of information to help you on your journey of healing. .... The first is a book which I am pretty sure is no longer in print and yet can still be acquired on Amazon.com. .. This book was written by a manic depressive who went on a very serious journey to find healing and to understand the causes of his illness. .. He learned alot and has alot of good information to share. Here is a link to his book on amazon.com: http://www.amazon.com/Manic-Depression-Awakening-Robert-E-Kelly/dp/0963945149

I also want to recommend that you check out a service offered by an organisation located in Canada called; "True Hope". .. They offer prescribed vitamin mineral supplements which are tailored for the individual suffering from any form of psychiatric illness. .. I have known several individuals who were helped tremendously by these folks. .. Some individuals who have worked with truehope are able to greatly lower the amount of medication they need, and others are able to become completely free of a need for medication. Here is their web site address: www.truehope.com

I hope you find this helpful.

Answer 5

Unfortunately there is no cure for bipolar disorder. Take your medicine as prescribed and keep positive. Go to counseling as often as you need to and just try to get up each day like its new. A disease like that is not your fault it is genetic. Because of that, it is not curable.

Answer 6

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Answer 7

try walking and music. sing sing sing

Answer 8

AWW ...."GOD BLESS YOU"