Tonite I am depressed..i have sucide on my mind..what should i do??

Question

Sucide,.sucide is what i have on my mind...if i may or if i mite kill myself tonite...Im tired of havin the feelins i Feel like i am not loved...well tonite its hittin me hard..and really i feel like ending it all.. i feel like my family doesnt care.. i mean i dont hear from them at all. i live with my mother and i dont hear from my older sisters and brothers my aunts and uncles my father in Years..Im 19 i have not heard from them since i was 11 i call but they dont/,,i want to kill myself to make them suffer killin myself will be no problem just pull the trigger..//... really im not worried about what happens to me im want them to hurt like me and worst....

Answer 1

Please don't kill yourself tonight. Remember that suicide is something you can always do later. Why do it tonight, when things might surprise you and actually get better tomorrow?

You sound like you need an anti-depressant, or if you are on one, then you need a change in your medication. I've felt suicidal before and getting on the right anti-depressant changed my whole life. It made me want to live again, and I am happy that I did not kill myself. I know it's hard for you to see it that way right now, because depression clouds our view of reality. I've been there. You have to trust those of us who've been there and are not there anymore, that things will get better. You'll find ways to cope, and not only that, but ways to turn your hardships into blessings. You'll be amazed at how everything can turn around. I said to God one time, "God, you made man out of dust -- what can you make of these things I entrust?" And I gave it all to God. He really helped me through it, and turned the bad stuff into good stuff!

Please call a suicide hotline, and get some help tonight. They can direct you to counselling or a doctor in your area, and help you not be so depressed so that you can get through this night.

I'll be praying for you. I love you because I know how bad it feels, and I feel sorry for you that you have to endure such pain. There are people who do love you, even if you have not met them yet. Please hang in there!

(((Hugs)))

Answer 2

Think of it this way; you are in a tunnel, and you cannot see the light at the end. Right now you feel like the pain will never end; so you want to make it end forever. DON'T DO IT...the only person you are going to hurt is your mother.

I lived in that "tunnel" for 3 years. I was obsessed with trying to kill myself because I could not deal with life any more. I could not see the light at the end, and I lost hope. I am living proof that THERE IS HOPE...the light is there. Once you do get out, you will feel so wonderful; and grateful to be alive! I AM LIVING PROOF...

The people that you want to hurt will never understand your pain; and they will never feel the sadness that you will bring to your mother. As soon as you can, tell someone how you are feeling. Then go to a doctor TODAY. You need meds. There is nothing wrong with that, and they will help.

If you are religious, pray. If you aren't, I left a couple of links for you that you should check out. Nothing heavy; just maybe some answers to questions that you might have.

How about giving us an update? We are all concerned about you. HANG IN THERE

God bless

Answer 3

feeling unloved can suck -
but here's the thing - you can love yourself.
even if you're having a bad night - it will pass.
at 19 there is still lots of time to find love with your family & friends now and also with new friends and new family.
and if someone doesn't care about you the way you want them to - well, they say living well is the best revenge.
change your life so that you start to have fun and you won't care what your brothers and sister and the rest of them think.
you don't have to be popular to have fun either - you can get into good books or meditation or exercise or music or ceramics or dancing or sports or whatever turns you on.
focus on that instead of what you are missing. as you move your focus to what you enjoy and like - the pain will dissipate.
and make sure you breathe deeply.
and yes, some counseling could help too.
there is still so much for you to discover and enjoy in this life.
don't throw it away over someone else's feedback or lack of it.

Answer 4

Suicide is the answer to nothing.It will only take away your opportunity to better yourself,and hurt the ones who really do love you.And what would you really be dying for?I'm 52,when I was 20 I held a gun in my mouth with the same thought.I didn't realize it at the time because I knew nothing of God,but His mercy spoke to my heart.I have been through some very hard times since then but it's been worth the fight.I have a very beautiful wife who loves me and our eight children,with fourteen grandchildren.Six years ago we gave our hearts over to Christ and our family is being blessed by that decision.Stand up,go wash your face and hands and remind yourself that God is going to see you through all of this.By the way,I love you and I'm praying for you.

Answer 5

I was going to close down when I happened by chance to see your cry for help, I have to be somewhat mean to help, if I can.You haven't heard from your siblings for 8 years THATS THEIR PROBLEM NOT YOURS. If God forbid you do this drastic act do you really thin k they will care. They'll say what a jerk or something like that. Life is like a pendulam on a clock it swings back and forth so now it is bad for you IT WILL TURN to something good, I promise you. Call a suicide prevention hotline or Call THe Crystal Cathedral in Garden Grove California they have a wonderful hotline with people your age to help. DO IT NOW

Answer 6

Suicide is a permanent end to a temporary problem. It's the easy way out...I know. I think about it often. My mom's dead and my dad has a new family that he married into. I'm pissed, mad, sad and all of the above...I know. Just stop and think about about it. It will only make you stronger if you can just ignore them like I do and live your life for yourself. It's lonely, but you can do what you want without anyone's judgement. It's fun. Discover yourself alone and give yourself a chance.

Answer 7

if you kill yourself you will regret it
i know this because death isnt the end
i died when i was six by falling a very long distance

my advice to you is dont take these problems so seriously, or so personally

all of this
your feelings, thoughts, experiences, body, mind
it isnt you

it exists within you, within the awareness you are

i suggest you go out and buy this book -"the power of now" by a dude called eckhart tolle, its a new york times bestseller
you can read a bit about him here if you want
www.eckharttolle.com

Answer 8

Honey, Suicide is not worth it. I tried it several times and all it did was make me hurt. Life is well worth living. Please call a suicide prevention line or e-mail me. I have another person that is in depression that I met thru here that is e-mailing me. Please, I want to try and help you, because I do care. You are so young, honey, you have a wonderful life ahead of you. You will meet someone that will treat you like the precious rose that you are.
Please e-mail me.
I will be praying for you to find peace in your life.
God bless you and be with you always.
Love, Juanita

Answer 9

PLEASE DON'T KILL YOUR SELF.

My daughter tried that when she was 19
over a guy. it was not GOD'S time for her to die, so he saved her life, she is happy in her life now,thanks GOD every day.
because she is happily married with 5 children, she realizes what she would have missed if she died. so please don't kill yourself, you are a very special person, and the world needs you.
please call a crisis help line,so they can talk to you.
also go to a DR so they can help with your depression.
I know how lonely it can get, I lost my husband Feb 10, 06
to cancer. also I didn't meet my Dad till I was 25 left when I was
17mo. so don't worry about others, just take care of yourself.
I never hear from sisters, when I call they don't call back.
I look at it this way, it is their loss not mine.
Just live your life to the fullest.
everyone of us here care about you. so please don't kill yourself.
I am so glad you reached out for our help.
LIVE FOR YOURSELF NOT FOR OTHERS
LIVE IS A GIFT FROM GOD
TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME.
GOD LOVES YOU AND WE LOVE YOU.
AND I PRAY THIS HELPS.

Answer 10

i've been depressed many of night since i was 14 and i have thought about suicide but couldnt bring myself to do it because my life is worth living regardless of what heartless people think say or treat me. your life is worth it not for them but for you. you have a lot ahead of you and you will make it. if they dont care about you now then they probably wont care once your dead either. people are cruel especially family try talking about it and try telling them how you feel. my dad's family hasnt never called me and they didnt come to my graduation and they dont call me or talk to me no christmas presents or birthday from them either and i'm 18. i just say f you too then. dont end your life for their lame selves.