An end in sight?

Question

OK, I am still trying to hang on. Meds should kick in within a week and I hope they will give me enough relief so I can start looking at my situation. Pills aren't the answer but I hope they will help.The psychologist says the depression is still distorting my thought process. (Nothing organic going on, it is all situational or episodic.) She doesn't feel I am safe to be alone but I have lost everything and it is still next to impossible to reach out to friends although I am forcing myself to try. I do all the "right" things but I am isolating a lot and I just can't picture a life like this. The worse time is from 3am on when I feel extremely anxious and desperate. I'm losing it. I feel worse than I did 6 weeks ago. I don't see a sliver of light. I'm falling and I don't want to help myself! Ugh.
Comments anyone?

Answer 1

Hang in there!! I felt quite similar when I began taking meds three years ago. I felt like there was NO end in sight for the helpless, hopeless feeling. It was unbearable!

But after awhile on meds, I began to be able to eat again... Then I was able to sleep again... Then, after 2 weeks, I realized I could go about my day again without the crippling anxiety. I could hold my head up high again. I regained PERSPECTIVE.

And since then, I've had a handful of 'depressive episodes' a year, but all have been short-lived and manageable, thanks to two things: the meds, and talking informally with therapists or counselors, or even other sufferers of depression.

So my advice to you, while you wait through the horrible period for your meds to kick in, is to talk more to your psychologist, or a counsellor or therapist, or even just an online forum of people who have depression. It's all about perspective, and when you're depressed, you lack that. So please, talk it over with people (posting this question was a smart move)!

Good luck, and know that It Will Get Better. Please take care (and feel free to email me if you like).

Answer 2

Don't despair, if you have asked this question you obviously want to pull through it, and you can. I felt like that before when I was 14 (I'm 20 now), and I came within an inch of ending everything, but gradually I started to feel a bit more hopeful. I especially felt bad at night like you described, because I was alone. I think you should keep company with others as much as possible to keep your mind off your unhappiness. Hold on and always keep positive. I've been unhappy for years but only recently started seeing a counsellor and taking anti-depressants, I'm still waiting for them to kick in, so we're in the same boat. just hold on, 7 days is hardly any time, just think what you're outlook on life could be next week. If you feel like you are going to harm yourself in any way, you should call an ambulance immediately.

Answer 3

For many people the worst time is just as depression is starting to get a little better from the meds. That's the most common time for a person to consider harming themselves too. Believe it or not, that means that you are starting to get a little better even though it doesn't seem like it.

For now, take it one step at a time. Deal with today and the problems of today and don't worry too much about it. Tomorrow will be another and better day. If you get anxious in the middle of the night get up and do sometihng. You can exercise, watch Tv or read. The idea is to take your mind of your anxiety and it will pass. Please don't let it get you down, it will pass in a little while abd you'll feel better.

Answer 4

Only you can help you! If you really didn't want to help yourself then you wouldn't have asked the question on here. This shows you do want help and your asking for it. That's a positive sign. I'm not sure why your going thru a phase of depression but what ever it is know that it is only a phase and you will come out of it. Hang on and find someone you can talk to. I see a therapist once a month now but I was seeing him once a week. Things will get better. Life is all about phases. It's how we choose to walk thru them. A quote I really like I found in a waiting room once. I wrote it on my date book and read it all the time.
We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same! Take the energy and make yourself strong, You Can Do It! I wish you all the best and good luck you can IM me if you need to chat.

Answer 5

I really feel for you but know your not alone. I have been through depression many times in my life and each time I have felt like I wasn't going to make it. I have isolated alot during these times also. Don't be so hard on yourself about doing the "right" things, just do the best you can. If you believe in God, now is the time to reach out to him. If you don't believe in Him think really hard about starting to. He will never let you down!

Answer 6

If you don't have any friends that are close enough to understand, try finding a support group instead. Also don't be ashamed to reach out to family members.
If it really is all situational, keep focused on what you can do to change the situation.
Most important, if you really are considering killing/hurting yourself, you need to tell someone (therapist, etc) before it's too late. There's always hope to change a bad situation, but not if you aren't around anymore to change it.