WHAT IS the POINT?

Question

Sorry for being so dramatic in my question. But I'm a little confused. I hope you don't mind reading this.
For the past five years I've been hearing "voices" and cut. I finally told people last year. Lets go ahead and tell you I am 15 and since I'm still a minor I guess they feel the need to take over my life when they se the slightest instability. So then I was hospitalized in January this year... which hurt more than it helped. And while we're at it, let me ask you another question: Is it right to five-point restrain and give minors THORAZINE when they get out of hand? Come on. How is getting high going to punish a teenager? But anyways. Consequently, I've been put on several different medications. Also counseling and therapy. Although I didn't always take my pills and I sometimes lied to the therapist, things got better for awhile. But now its back to how it was. So what do you think is fate's reason for all this? To learn from these mistakes? Or to show me this is who I really am?

The voices are kind of difficult to explain... I've tried many times over the past year but I can never get it exactly right. Most are auditory, the most common is a woman. She's not anyone I'm familiar with. It sometimes feels like she can control me even though I know that sounds impossible. You don't have to believe me though. No one else does.

The current diagnosis is major depression with psychotic symptoms. Thanks for all your answers so far :) I know it was probably annoying and a waste of time to read it all.

Answer 1

Dear girl,
I know what are you talking about. Regretfully, the society we live in has problems with accepting people who are a bit different from the norms approved, regretfully again, by them.
There doesn't exist such thing like a mental disorder.
You are not at all ill no matter what those stupid shrinks and your so-called family says. If they really cared about you they would accept you the way you are. You are a person having exactly the same rights as anyone else.
All they have done to you is completely wrong. Neither heavy medications nor keeping you in restrain would help you stop hearing voices. And shrinks know that.
Many great persons from the history have heard voices too.The voices you hear - this is just one of the voices of your inner intelligence.
I really think that the way most psychiatrists work today, has to be banned by law. Health is a delicate thing, and one should look after it with love. And even a more delicate thing is mental health -no frightening pseudo-therapies should be allowed; instead of them try psychoanalysis and just love yourself the way you are. Psychoanalysis is very good for the mental health, so is improving your overall health. This paragraph by the way is my answer to all the questions in the Mental Health section.
And finally, my advice to you is: Keep the voices you hear for you only and for the persons that you feel will understand your imagination. Don't tell the misundestanding and low educated shrinks about them because they would never understand. There are some really well-educated psychiatrists that would understand your fantasy and help you socialise without the use of heavy drugs or restrains. If you succeed in findind one of them - that would be good. If not - you are strong enough to deal with your life no matter what happens; try then to analyse your life by yourself. The best time to do that is at night, when you are in bed. Close your eyes. Try to relax completely - for a deep relaxation you may use the music you like, aromas and candles. Remember the things you love and like. Highlight any positive thought that comes into your mind. If any negative thought or memory comes to your mind - express all the feelings you have about it and then DESTROY it - either burn it, or erase it. Now concentrate on all the good things you have in your life - you are young, beautiful, smart, you have family and friends who love you. They might sometimes misunderstand you and make mistakes about you because of their lack of proper education and true enlightenment but they still love you and are by your side. You have the beautiful sunrises and sunsets, the dawn, the wonders of nature to admire. You have anything you choose to love. And that is not too little. Finally, you have me as a friend, sending you now all my love and support. So DO LOVE YOURSELF and ENJOY your life! Best wishes, and I know a wonderful future is ahead for you! :)

Answer 2

No one was trying to punish you with Thorazine or restraints. Mental health treatment is still more of an art than a science. It's all about trial and error and statistics. There is no blood test, no physical thing that can be detected and treated. It'll take a while before the doctors get it right, but in order for that to happen you must be honest with them.

Answer 3

The answer is to this requries more space than is available here. Feel free to write to me if you want to continue this exchange. To get started though, there's a lot of nonsense talked about things like 'fate' and 'karma', and whilst I have great faith in the law of Cause and Effect, just because you're being treated like this doesn't mean it was pre-arranged or planned by some invisible power. The first question I have to ask you is 'what do the voices tell you, and who do they say they are?' ..

Answer 4

thats the problem with being your age, your not given a choice as to what is best for you, everyone else likes to make those decisions for you, i would advice you to keep taking your medication as ordered by the doctor..as much as it is a bother, it will help..even tho they all seem like the enemy to you, lying to them is not going to help, if you say "yes i am taking my medication" and they see no results, then your going to end up with stronger medication you probably do not need...what is your diagnosis?
you have to want to help yourself...get a balance in your life and leearn to fuction with this problem...but you have to listen to the doctor, when your 18 then the choice will be yours as to how to deal with this...the good thing is your understand that there just voices, maybe take meditation classes..this helps you find your inner self, relaxation courses..15 is a hard age, your body is changing, and you have alot of other peer issues to deal with, i hope some of what i said helps. good luck...

Answer 5

They aren't trying to punish you; they're trying to help. Your hearing voices and cutting yourself is not acting out. They are signs of serious problems that need professional help. It's cool; lots of people have problems that they need to get help for. You need to keep taking your meds and to talk to your doctors honestly. Do it for yourself, because you deserve to be healthy. Fate has nothing to do with this; sometimes sh!t just happens. However, if you don't follow your doctors' advice and you aren't honest with them, you can't get better.

Answer 6

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