i read a book recently about a schizophrenic,and i have alot of the same problems as the girl in the book had?

Question

ok so for 2 years i have had a slight problem hearing voices that weren't there. not constantly, but usually at least once every other day. and sometimes i see things out of the corner of my eye that once again aren't there. or i'll be freaking out thinking that there is a bug on me, when there's not. and whenever i am home alone, i get all freaked out and hate being by doors because i am scared that someone is going to grab me and kill me.
i am scared of the dark.
alot of times i will be thinking about something, and i force myself to think about something else, because i don't want someone to read my mind. same with my dreams.
and a few times i have been convinced that i was pregnant. but what's unusual about that is, i am a virgin. but i think oh what if a guy drugged me and got me pregnant and made me forget.
and i have no social life or social skills. i lose friends easily, and i have to have a routine. if my routine gets messed up, i can't think. i get distracted easily.

alot of the time i think that people are talking about me behind my back. or that they are friends with me because they feel sorry for me.

schizophrenia runs in my family. my brother is schizo-effective.
i am 17. please tell me what you think.
i can't tell my parents. they would think that i was making it up.
and they never make doctor's appointments for me.

i always delete my history online, because i think my parents like to track what i am doing.
i hide everything that is important to me, because i think my parents will go through my stuff and read my poetry and diaries and stuff.

Answer 1

I am so sorry that you're feeling alone, and that you're having these scary experiences. I really think it would be a good idea for you to talk to a professional about it. You don't necessarily have a schizophrenia-spectrum disorder, but it could be really helpful for you to talk to someone outside of your family about your experiences. You deserve to feel better, and it doesn't sound from your message as though you're being helped right now.

I think that it would be a great idea for you to talk to your brother's doctor, as suggested by another poster. Why not give it a try?

Answer 2

You are 17 you can make your own doctors appointment it a hippa law out now that anyone 14 and old can make their own doctors appointment or be seen by a doctor without you parents permisson( i know because i work in a hospital) out of the group of friends you have at least one from them is truly your friend and not your friend because they feel sorry for (not trying to said rude) people are going to talk about you behind your back rather its some wrong with you or not. make yourself a doctors appointment and see whats going on with you and i hope everything turns out for the best.

Answer 3

Have you tried calling your brother's doctor to ask about your symptoms?
This may be a good place to start since they know your family. At your age, you can advocate for yourself for treatment. Sometimes when a person is mentally ill but they keep to themselves and don't cause the family a lot of trouble, they don't recieve treatment. You deserve treatment for your problems. You could call the nurse at your family doctor's office and ask for her help. Some school nurses are good advocates but on the other hand a lot of them don't have much training to screen for a major mental illness like schizophrenia. Contact your community mental health center and ask to speak to the admissions person. Tell them your symptoms and that you need to be seen. You don't have to keep suffering but you will have to take some steps for yourself it sounds like. Best of luck to you!

Answer 4

This is a very good blog, a beginner’s guide to abnormal psychology.
Short, clear and simple; and you can even post your question and contact the author regarding particular subject you are interested in

http://sensitive-psychoworld.blogspot.com/

Answer 5

We're the same. Go crazy.