Where will I go if I commit suicide?

Question

I was born into meth addicted parents who didn't care what happened to me and hardly recognized my existance. I kept pushin' through the years, kept asking for help from above, living my life cleaner than most, no help ever came.

Because of the bad neiborhood I grew up in I was bullied both emotionally and physically all throughout my childhood, I still kept asking for help, even the strength to move on, never ever came.

When I was 15 I developed extremely severe acne that could not be cured by medicine (stage IV, roughly 1 in 10,000 during their adolencense). 80% of my face was hard crest for 3 years.

At 17, after years of clinical depression, I thought my mom might have some trace of human emotion, I looked for help on my suicidal thoughts, she told me to go away.

When I began to clear I found I had severe acne scarring over much of my face. No help will come my way, I've experience more pain than any of you can imagine, and continued to live my life clearn.

What do you think?

No, there are very few people who have experience the pain and sadness I have. I have become to mentally ill I would never be able to make a full recover in my lifetime.

I don't have acne anymore, just severe scarring, it was not from sensitive skin, but a liver that could not detox itself. (1 in 10,000) get the condition.

Thanks stephanie, but I suffered physical, emotional, and psychological abuse from both my parents all throughout my childhood. Seperate from the bullying at school,

Most of you saying I'd go to hell would be already be gone. I don't know how I developed a spiritual sense, obviously it did not come from my parents. If there is a God, and after everything that has happened to me and how sick I have become he would send me to hell, maybe, just maybe, hell is a better place.

I left my parents at 17, I'm 20 now.

And I have been treated for clinical depression for two years for very cheap because of my income, I have been told with the level on mental illness I have I will most likely never be well.

Praise Jesus.

Answer 1

Don't ever commit suicide, my young boy...Commit suicide is not a good thing to do. It brings you to hell, preached by GOD. there's many thing that you need to carry on with your life. Not only you are suffering in this world, there're many other who have suffered the same pain as you as well. Don' think you are the only one who suffered in this world. You have spiritual sense, and that's good. Meaning you have come across the darkness of your sufferings, and attain the lightness of your path by avoiding all these negative thoughts that come into your mind and bring benefits to your soul. I have experienced that before. Hope peace comes to you after all these enduring sufferings. Wish you finding your own way of survival, find JOB! Don't ever let suicidal or negative thoughts control you. You will never know when the happiness of your life will start.
Better seek fo your trusted friends or counseller who can help you with great advice. I'm sure you have at least one.
That was a great pain I have ever felt. Well, please do take care of yourself. Try seeking for plastic surgery if you have that great sum of money.
Smile there alwayz. :)

Answer 2

You should get over the fact that your parents do not care. I came from a horribly abusive family also addicted to drugs and alcohol. fortunately I was not bullied, I was the bully...having learned from my fathers hand. That is not me..it was not me then I was young and couldn't cope with all the trauma screaming towards my soul. I now live with a boyfriend and I have never been depressed with my life, I've always known that I was better and I would some day get what I deserve. I am now at 20 years of age I am finally getting what I deserve.
Do not let your mothers feelings set you back from the life you deserve, think of it as a minor inconvenience. Not a major event to be remembered for years to come. My advice may not help you and I am sorry for that..I have become cold from the life I had, not many people are allowed into my life. I have never let much bother me, I just didn't seem to care and I would move on.

I do not know how bad the scarring is but I hope for the best for it to minimize, scarring is hardly a reason for suicide. I do not believe in anything "above" or a God..I am an Atheist. I believe that your body will decompose and your energy will be let out into the ground. Good luck, Email or IM me if you like, [e-mail] Stephy3663.

Answer 3

I think that by you listing all of your experiences that have led you to where you are, you show that there is indeed hope. You know why you are where you are and why you feel the way you do. Now you tackle these issues. You say your mother doesn't care, so don't go to her. Have you tried church? I know many will disagree, but since I have started going to church I have such a different outlook on things. If you are opposed to church, at least seek out a couselor. Talking to someone trained in helping people with years of pain may help you a great deal. You seem very intelligent in knowing what is wrong. Now just work on attacking the issues, not yourself. For your question, where would you go if you commit suicide, there will be many opinions. My advice would be the commandment "Thou shall not kill" . In other words, Hell.

Answer 4

Psychology when you're depressed your able to recall more sad memories easier than happier memories. Now try really hard and you can find some. Look at life from a new perspective.

Now to the theological view point of suicide.
If you kill your self you'll go to the seventh level of hell. Wikipedia says "
In this ring are the suicides, who are transformed into gnarled thorny bushes and trees that are only able to speak when a branch is broken. They are torn at by the Harpies. Unique among the dead, the suicides will not be bodily resurrected after the final judgment. Instead they will maintain their bushy form, with their own corpses hanging from the limbs. Dante breaks a twig off of one of the bushes and hears the tale of Pier delle Vigne, who committed suicide after falling out of favor with Emperor Frederick II. The profligate wasters, the other residents of this ring, are chased by ferocious dogs through the thorny undergrowth. " I would assume Catholics still believe in this.
Other Christian groups just believe you go to hell and I'm pretty sure Islam does too.
I forgot which religion it was but it believed that your soul is extinguished, if i recall correctly I think it was Judaism.

In Taoism you're soul stays longer in purgatory before reincarnation. In Buddhism I think you're just automatically reincarnated.

But in general almost all religions frown upon killing yourself.

Answer 5

If you need to talk to a Suicide Prevention Center please call them RIGHT NOW! But Justin please know there are others out here who have experienced pain as bad as yours. Due to two mentally ill and addicted parents ( now deceased) I DO KNOW where you are coming from. They were unable to love or care for themselves, and too sick and damaged to give me anything except abuse of various kinds. With a lot of help somehow I was able to survive and overcome much of my background. It has taken plenty of work to face the pain, but it has been worth it. If you take your life, you will not be punished. However if you do so you will be "solving" what is a temporary problem by a permanent means. There is still much good in the world, and there are others you could help in the future by your own overcoming. As for the scarring, there ARE resources to help you. I don't know where you live, but I would seriously suggest contacting shows like Oprah, Montel, Dr Phil, etc. Let your story out. You have a life that is WORTH saving and a story that others need to hear. Also, Justin, check with your local mental health center or look in your phone book or on the Internet to see If there is a Good Samaritan Ministries counseling center in your area. They are completely non profit and won't try to steer you into any direction religiously. Most of all they will not shame you because the counselors have been where you have, trust me on that. You can reach me on Yahoo 360 if you like--I would be glad to communicate with you. Good luck to you and know that someone does care. Please keep in touch!

Answer 6

I'm gonna answer your question, because no one else seems to be. In my opinion, you'd go nowhere. Blackness. Nothing. You'd just stop existing. Except in memories, and in the energy in your body which would break down and become part of the earth. It's not worth it honey.

Your mother sounds awful, but please remember that drugs do wierd things to you, and make you ignorant of things. I'm sure she does love you underneath - is she getting any help?

Anyway, back to you - please just try and keep your chin up. At least until you have the opportunity to live away from home and take control of your life - the problem here seems to be that your life is too controlled by parents, bullies etc. Maybe when you take life into your own hands itll be easier.

Otherwise I reccommend: music, hot baths, volunteer work, prayer (if religion is for you) and setting goals. Maybe keeping a diary too. And reminding yourself of what you do have.

Hope youre ok.

Answer 7

Please don't commite suicide, I ve had those thoughts for years well on Halloween my consin hung himself, I only know him five days, He had a meth issuse. I'm still wondering if he is condemed to the same hell after death, that he was trying to get away form in life. Ive been searching for that answer for two weeks.
The pain you feel will heal give it to the lord. You might not know who will find strength though your own words. You've reach more people than you know. Don't give up keep on trying the strenght you need will come. Youve made it this far god bless you

Answer 8

This side of death no one came be 100% sure of anything on the other side of death. you may have your faith about certain areas of spiritual existence (to you beyond reasonable doubt).
Acne is no reason to find out. You sound as though you are on a spiritual search. You have not addressed your reasons for suicide.

Your spirituality is quite apart from your any physical harm you may do to your self. The Bible says "For God so loved the world (you can put your name in there), that he sent His only begotten Son into it. That whoso ever believes in Him, would not perish but Have eternal life.
This is not fire insurance but a genuine reaching out from a father to His children.
God has made it as difficult as possible to go to Hell, and as easy as possible to get into heaven.
The choice is yours, But God wants you to have life, and not death.

Answer 9

why suicide? just think... 5-10 yrs. from now you could be married to someone you care about and that someone cares for you too. depending on the soap you use it could be bad for your skin. you have sensitive skin and shouldnt use deordarant soap. the acne WILL go away it takes time. I once knew someone like that before, and now their skin is beautiful. be patient, suicide will lead a person to hell. get all negative thoughts out of your head it will only make you more depressed about the situation. love YOU for who you are we all will face something in life that we dont want. keep your head up please.

Answer 10

I think help from above has come,
Please stay here in this life. once you see that total strangers are begging you to seek further help- we can feel your cry for help, we want you to live. NEVER GIVE UP HOPE.
I'm not sure where people go if they commit suicide, please don't even try. I do believe in God, the devil and the suicide is the devils work.
I've been in the devils grasp before- I refused to let him win. I went two places for help a hospital and the hospitals chapel, now i look to my God for my answers. He is your God too- ONE GOD and he does hear your cry and WE are HEARING it. Life is special.
and I care, lilly