What is wrong with me?

Question

I am a very sensitive person sometimes. If someone makes a joke, I take it seriously a lot of times if it is about me. I get angry and it takes me a long time to get over it. I have periods everyday when I am hyper and happy. I then turn calm, depressed almost. I like to go hard on myself if I don't achieve something, and sometimes, I go too easy on myself. I like being alone and I have no intention of getting married, and I don't know why. I'm not gay, but I just have never been attached to anyone in my life. I get mad for no reasons on occasions too and I don't know why. I could be laying in bed and get angered. I am power hungry and wish I could be a dictator almost sometimes and then I get mad at myself for thinking that later on. I like to take my anger out on other people. I have a good family and friends. I have had nothing bad happen in my life, so I don't know why I'm like this.

Answer 1

I don't think there's anything "wrong" with you in terms of like being crazy or something like that.

The rapid changing of your mood suggests that there is something chemical going on, for sure. To go from something called "mania" (which can feel like happiness, or too much energy, or anger/rage, can't sleep, or can't stop moving) to something called "depression" (which can feel like sadness, but not always - can be low energy, loss of appetite, irritable) is definitely chemical - like your serotonin levels are off or keep cycling low to high. People who have bipolar disease have this happen but their cycles are usually days or weeks or even months long. If it's happening in the course of a day for you, it is probably something else. But this is very treatable, usually with a medication. Your regular doctor will probably be able to help you with it.

Answer 2

Some people are just more sensistive than others. I've found the best way to deal with my sensitivity is to try to use cognitive behavior therapy to break down why you feel as you do then use techniques like meditation, art, sports and journal writing to put the energy of the emotions into something positive. Honestly, I don't think that anything is necessarily wrong with you from your description, though I'm sure a psychologist could come up with a diagnosis of bipolar I for you if you'd like and prescribe you some medication to level out your emotions. Unless you are suicidal or homicidal or really think drugs will help, I would avoid medications and look into the cognitive behavior therapy first. It's a good system for determining where exactly your emotions are coming from and then how to start channeling them into something positive. Learning some coping skills now for your stronger than normal emotions can save you a lot of grief later on.

Allow yourself to be imperfect and try to have a sense of humour. We all have our faults, and get hacked off when people make jokes at our expense. If the worst thing you do is stress out in bed at night you should be fine. Not everyone has to be the same and get married and have kids. If it's not for you, that's your choice and it that should be that.

As far as being a power hungry dictator, well everyone wants to rule the world, I suppose. Maybe you have some control issues and feelings of powerlessness. Maybe you shouldn't feel so guilty about it all and work on developing your ethics and compassion so when you do succeed in taking over the world, your minions will thank you. I hope that made you smile and not get pissed, by the way.

Take care and good luck.

Answer 3

Sounds like Bi Polar or manic depressive as it used to be called. There are different levels of this disorder. If the highs last for a few days coupled with intense lows it is a sure sign. But saying that you wish you could be a "dictator" is a common symptom. I did a lot of research on this subject but by no means am I an authority. It is also very misdiagnosed because everybody has moods. There is a wealth of info online and at bookstores. Good luck.

Answer 4

Hey Man- it's ok. You are you, and that's awesome. We are all different, and we all deal with stuff differently. And you know what I bet that you are actually a really awesome guy you just don't seem to look at all the things you have to give. Maybe some experiances in your past influenced you to act in some of the ways you do. But just maybe take some time so see what you're gifts are and than use them. Sometimes we act kind of crazy when we don't really know who we are, or we feel like we lack purpose. But get this, you definatly are here for a reason, and so live your life and have a blast, and don't let things discourage you. The biggest waste of these years would be if you ignored who you truly are and continued to live so unhappily.

Answer 5

Sounds like you are holding back alot of frusturation and maybe resentment about somethings. You say you can be a sensitive person so you may not realise that you take on board alot more stuff than you think... which can be cured with a good old session with a punch bag... and maybe talk to someone, usually better if its not with someone you know as it is easier to talk to someone you dont know sometimes, go and see your doctor.
Perhaps you are suffering with a problem with your Testosterone levels..assuming that you are not taking any kind of medication or steroids...Testosterone is a funny old chemical and can make you feel angry and very head strong which can makey you agressive. It is also responsible with your sex drive which inturn effects if you find people attractive.. and perhaps you are feeling little down as the levels drop again.

Have a chat with your Doctor they can give you a blood test to check for any imbalances.and rule out any problems with the family jewels that produce testosterone... perhaps if you are feeling frustrated about something then they could advise someone who you could chat to... so you are not keeping things bottled up... you may not even realise when someone or something is effecting you, until you sit down and your mind gets achance to think about it.

good luck

Answer 6

I bet you grind youre teeth also. First get a blood sugar test from your doctor. Second remind yourself that your only here for around 65 years and your dead for ever. Or build yourself some padding and beat the sh-te out of it for an hour every evening. Or join a qualified Tai Chi club (i suggest you use one connected to Earl Montague who now resides in Britain and is probably one of the best coaches in the world) as Tai Chi is not only a silly dance done in parks, but a leathel martial art. Also try and find the reason for your anger e.g. is it that you worry to much about yourself being single, or other worries. Best of all keep talking buddy, because the answer is out there somewhere.

Answer 7

I'm not a doctor, but it sounds like you may be suffering from depression. I would check in with your doctor and see they could get you on some meds. Counselling of some kind sounds appropriate too.

I have suffered from depression myself, and a number of the things you are talking about sound like what was happening to me...getting angry for no reason, sudden mood swings, being alone.

Don't think this is the way it is supposed to be...it's not. Been there, done that. Do yourself a favour and get some help

Answer 8

Dang we are identical man. I get the exact same way. It's like I argue with myself, and want to be alone, but then get mad for wanting to be alone, cause I need someone to get me through at some times, then I get mad cause nothing is going wrong, and nothing is going right, so I get confused. Yea I've been there, I am there actually. Don't feel bad. I don't know what it is, but I'm thinking that everyone needs a soul mate to get by, even if you don't want one, try to find a friend you can at least hang out with cause that helps a lot, even if its not a "close" friend.

Answer 9

You have named many symptoms of being bi-polar. You need to make an appointment with a good psychiatrist and therapist and get treatment. You do not need to have had something bad happened to you in your life. There is no known reason why a person has bi-polar. With treatment and good family support you can learn to deal with this and have a happier life. Do not quit taking your meds when you feel better, because you will not be cured, but better because of your meds. I had a step son and foster son that is bi-polar. God bless you and good luck.

Answer 10

I am no expert, but you may need to express your anger in a more positive maybe a passionate expression :: Like writing , Art, exercise/ sport etc. etc.

You may also want to ask yourself why or what makes you so angry and try seeking the definition... I think the little "jokes" are nothing but somehow are striking a sore nerve somewhere, and has to do with the "inner-self" that you aren't happy with.....