I HATE THE BASTARD IN THE MIRROR???? Every time I look at this loser I want to kill him!!!! I need a pill to go to sleep,a pill to stay awake I sell my Suboxone thats supposed to keep me clean and sober and buy oxys that I snort.. everybody thinks Im clean but I know the real truth..When will I grow up and be a man??? Why cant I be normal like you folks....Almost 50 years old and I still need to get high... My kids needs a father and a man in thier lives,not a junkie..How do I turn it around or am I a lost cause??? Feeling sory for myself(Whoo is me) I have tried religion but that was a joke..Any words of encourgment????
2006-11-08 13:58:42 · 16 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
the only one who can change your life is you! it's sounds to me that you want too!? it's a very hard journey that you must take, and it's hard to do it alone! if this has been a problem for this long i can assume their is no support left from friends & family!? you need to talk to some one and get the help to get throw this! may people fall off the wagon several times before they are clean for ever!! check your self into a rehab please, before it is too late! some can use this type of med that makes the drugs no work if you use them!!! i think this is what you need! most of all don't give up! THERE ARE people in your life who love and need you sober!! i wish you the best of luck!!!!!
2006-11-08 14:08:39 · answer #1 · answered by rblankenship_rblankenship 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Yea, once you have hit rock bottom, the only way out is up. Granted it is not a sturdy or steady climb. Only a climb that you can make a step at a time. Sometimes you will make great lengths, sometimes you will fall. But KNOW THIS, if is in your heart of hearts, for yourself first, then your kids, then your family, (whatever is left), then for the life that you want deep down inside, that has been hidden away for so long because of your problems. Beg someone to help you, go with you, be by your side, anything. You are worth the world. You might not feel it right now, but lie to yourself, tell you that you deserve everything, fight for it! God is not always the answer, sometimes we just have to stand up and say, "I am not sure why I feel this why or why I can't change. I need someone to help me. It is OK to just let go and let it out and SCREAM for help and assistance, and of course ask for and give LOVE, KINDNESS, AND THE THOUGHT OF HAVING A NORMAL LIFE!!!
2006-11-08 14:16:10 · answer #2 · answered by doris_38133 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Alright, You know you have a problem. You know what the problem is. You know exactly what you are doing wrong and continue to do it. You know your children need a father and a dad but that isn't as important to you as your high. You are selling the drugs that help you stay clean and using the money to buy other drugs to snort, meanwhile you are lieing to everyone you know and letting them believe you are clean.
Do I have this all correct?
There is only one thing you can do and that is to stand up and be a man. You know all of your faults and yet you knowingly continue to do them. You are not helping anyone this way. Children are very forgiving and loving individuels but if you continue to act in this manor, then they are going to figure out what is going on and you will lose them. That would be my biggest fear if I were in your shoes. Who cares what the rest of the world thinks? If my children couldn't respect me then I don't care who else can or does.
Pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get ahold of yourself. Get into rehab again and get clean and sobor. We cannot help you and since you are knowingly continueing to do wrong and disappoint everyone you know, there are no words of encoragement that we can give you. Why would we encourage you when you are not willing to help yourself.
All I can think of to say to you is good luck and I hope something opens your eyes before it is too late.
2006-11-08 14:31:17 · answer #3 · answered by nana4dakids 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
first of all define normal. beating yourself up and feeling sorry for yourself is not going to help. I dated a guy when I was a teen that got into the drugs. I had to leave him before we got too serious, that was in 1987. In January this year he died, he was 36 years old. He left behind three beautiful daughters who were the center of his world, but he couldn't stay clean for them, he was a junky. The only hope he had was to get away from everyone and everything he knew to start over again. He did this once or twice but always came back to the same town and would run into the same people and get into the same trouble. This does not mean you don't love you kids, it means you have an illness. Go to the hospital and ask for help, now! I don't want that crap to destroy another family.
2006-11-08 14:19:08 · answer #4 · answered by mati 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
They say the first step, and the biggest step to overcoming a problem is acknowledging that you have a problem. So congrats on the first step. You say you want to be a man, isn't that a great start.
You can't beat yourself up for the bigger picture, all you can do is take things one day at a time, one step at a time. My advice is now that you have acknowledged the problem go to Narcotics Anon; there are people there who know how to work through it, have been through where you are now, and those who are at the same place. They know and understand everything you are feeling.
You say that you want to be normal, but what is normal? We all have problems to deal with, and everyone is trying their best to work through life the best they can. All any of us can truly do, is to learn from our mistakes.
NO ONE IS A LOST CAUSE! Not one single person, remember that. Each and every person on this planet is special and worthwhile, and unique; each person has the right to make wrong decisions, and do something about fixing them.
As I said at the start, CONGRATS on making the hardest and biggest step...it is a bigger step than you think.
2006-11-08 14:30:03 · answer #5 · answered by chelles_insanity 4 · 2⤊ 0⤋
"Normal" is a relative term. Who is really "normal" compared to all the rest. We all have our roadblocks and "crosses to bear" in life.
You still need to get high because you are
a. still addicted and always will be, which needs to be managed, not "cured" and
b. need to find someone who you are accountable to. This person should be from a support group, not anyone in your immediate family.
Keep on going to counseling, DEAL with the childhood issues and family rules that you grew up with, and don't give up. BTW keep shopping around for a religion that works for you.
As far as religion goes, for me, the idea that Jesus has taken and continues to take away the things we do wrong always gives a person a new day each and every day and a chance to break a habit. He says to "cast all your cares on him." That's really not a favor he offers, he kind of is commanding us to do it. He wants to take on his shoulders that which we can't handle. The pressure is then off to "try harder and do it all ourselves."What a relief that is !
( Try a "six pack " for church; go at least six times and then decide if you want to quit. You may find that the words of God start to break through to your inner being.)
Meditation is also good, as well as yoga. Spend time really getting to know your kids. Help them out with homework, even if you don't know all the answers. They will just love having you there and helping.
Finally, any addiction is selfish -- find a way to contribute to others, volunteer on a crisis line, take first aid and CPR classes through the Red Cross.
Make a list of 20 things to do besides take drugs. When you get the craving, do one of the things on the list. Physical activities on the list are a good idea (take a walk, bike ride, rake the yard, mow the lawn, plant grass seed or other plants, run, etc.)
Good luck , I will be praying for you even if you think org. religion is a joke ... ok ? You can make it, bro.
2006-11-08 14:28:15 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
Encouragement? Have you been to a Narcon program or inpatient therapy? Probably not you didn't mention it. If you're 50 years old, you're kids are probably almost grown. Man, you can't give a thing to anyone until you can look in that mirror and know you're clean and sober. So what is it going to take? A trip to the morgue? You just haven't hit bottom yet, Dude....but you will. Godloveya.
2006-11-08 14:36:14 · answer #7 · answered by Sassy OLD Broad 7 · 2⤊ 0⤋
48 yrs old and thrown out of the house AGAIN? Well, drugs will do that kind of stuff for you. And a whole lot worse stuff, too. Your parents threw you out or your wife/girlfriend so that you can get straight. So, get straight. Sounds easy, doesn't it? I know that it is not. But every city and county has a drug abuse program. Go for it and stay with it. Only you can get yourself straight and stay straight. You.
Then you can start working on your life, job, kids. But you can't do anything while you are using. I urge you to get help, then get more help and again, more help. Don't stop. Your life is hanging in the balance. God bless you. Because "luck" won't. It is your decision and up to you. What do you want?
2006-11-08 14:29:30 · answer #8 · answered by Bibi B 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Find a reliable treatment center that specializes in treating addictions, is a sical model, and check yourself in. There are some programs that are long term and if you have been using for a long time, this may be the best option for you. Overcoming addiction is not a matter of will power...it is a matter of treatment. Go.
2006-11-10 12:20:48 · answer #9 · answered by julitasoup 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Every time you go to get high, think of your children, and what it's doing to them. Think of how great life could be, how much you would love it, if you could spend quality time with your kids and not remember being high. Trust me you and your children will appreciate life so much more, even if you don't see it it is affecting your kids. I know you can do it, I have faith in you, and if you really try then I know you'll become clean.
2006-11-08 14:06:22 · answer #10 · answered by lilblondie367 1 · 2⤊ 0⤋