I think i am losing all confidence in myself?

Question

I always used to think of myself as a very confident person. I did very well in high sch. but in college I'm not doing as well as I should be. I have a B+ GPA, but I feel that I could be doing so much better. However, it seems that no matter how hard I try, I never do as well as I think I should have. To make things worse I got a C in my gen. bio class (and I am still really disappointed in myself about that), and in my other bio classes I got Bs, but at my school you have to have at least a B average to get in Beta Beta Beta, and my C made me have a B-. I can't really explain it, but right now I just feel so stupid and unintelligent. I'm tired of people telling my how smart I am and bragging about how smart I am, when I dont even feel that way. My mom says that I am putting too much pressure on myself. I know that I can do better, but it just seems like I'm not. I feel so alone at my school. I'm afraid I won't get into my dream medical school Johns Hopkins, sometimes I wish i was dead

i know this isn't a question, but i guess i just needed to write these feelings down and have others respond because i feel so alone at my school, and i don't really have anyone to talk to. any advice would be greatly appreciated

i'm a sophomore

Answer 1

First off, what do you call the person who graduates last in his class in medical school? DOCTOR! I've worked in the medical field (ER) for 25 years, and some of the dopiest people I've met are doctors. What exactly is smart? I think that you are putting too much pressure on yourself. You see these young people coming out of school, so intent on getting good grades. Yeah, they may be technically proficient, but none of them know how to talk to (or treat) people. Give me a real person who had heart, desire and tries their best. Even if you get a "C", you are the kind of student / doctor that I want to work with.

So, stop and smell the roses. Don't drink too much coffee. Set reasonable hours for study and sleep. Don't think that you'll get an "A" in everything. You'll see (when you are a doctor) that the things you are worried about now are not so important later.

Be good to yourself.

Answer 2

You seem to be lacking any kind of question here, so I will address what appear to be concerns you are having with your results at school.
The fact is, college/university is a lot different than High School, and the fact that you were very strong in one, does not necessarily mean you will remain so in the other.
First, there is the new pile of expectations placed upon you by yourself, instructors, parents, and peers to be better than you are, to imporve, and to "make them proud".
Second, this is an entirely different atmosphere than High School, so your social interaction will be different, which can, in turn, affect your grades.
Third, you have, indeed, piled a lot of pressure upon yourself, which is possibly not necessary. The fact that you are trying to try harder, is only making matters worse for you. You will now second guess everything, and not be satisfied with assignments, answers, or homework because you will think it can be better. This kind of pressure is unhealthy, and is often what leads to students with addictions, health problems, or, in some cases, suicidal thoughts.
I would strongly recomend that you take a step back from what you are doing right now, this second, and check your priorities. Is it more important to you to be the best you can be, and succeed, or to get into Beta Beta Beta (which I presume is a fraternity/sorority of some sort) where you may end up doing worse overall because the focus will change for you.
As for getting into Johns Hopkins, I can't say for sure there, but so long as you focus on what you are doing, stop second guessing it by looking at ways to make it "better", and do the level of work that you are comfortable with, then everything will come up roses for you.
Now, I would not suggest that you take everything I have written here as a precise bit of advice, nor do I expect you to change your way of doing things based upon what I have said, but I only put this here as a bit of information from someone who has been in your position now, and lived to regret what I became during my time in school because of it.

Answer 3

College is hard, no doubt about it.

Are you a freshman? Your loss of confidence may be tied to the fact that you have had such a big change in your life. OR, the stress of college may be having an effect on your hormones, which can make you feel depressed and unhappy.

The best thing you can do is to find someone you can talk to about your feelings - most colleges have a counseling center where you can get help adjusting to college. They have these because SO MANY people experience the same things you have described. Please see them. If this mind set is not normal for you, they can help you get back to you. Sometimes just having someone to talk to can take the pressure off and help us get our confidence back. Sometimes, a chemical imbalance is the cause of this, and they can help with that, too.

There is no shame in seeking help. The only thing you should be ashamed of is knowing there is help available, but not asking for it.

PLEASE talk to someone, anyone. Sharing your problems helps put them into perspective, and makes the burden lighter.

Blessed be,

Gypsy

Answer 4

It sounds to me like you are a bit depressed. Life is mostly about learning, that doesn't mean you should be studying day and night it means you will continue learning until the day you die. It doesn't matter how old people get scientists and professors are always coming up with new theories and inventions. I love watching documentaries, I just can't get enough new information. I didn't finish high school (something I regret) but I have realised life is one giant school.

You are being way too hard on yourself, you are only young and you have the next 10 years to mature and go to Uni to become a doctor. Who said it has to be straight from high school into university. YOU might need to take time out, say go on a good holiday (in-between going to uni to free your mind of worry) then you can return to study a little fresher and wiser.

It's strange how we see ourselves compared to how others see us. You are probably very capable person who is under too much stress. I suggest you take a break and practice yoga or swimming for fun.

Answer 5

Close your eyes, take a deep breath and relax.

Having a B+ is nothing to sneeze at, you obviously work very hard and it shows. One C is not going to kill your average. As for Johns Hopkins, just go for it, your GPA is one of several factors that colleges look at when deciding who to admit. If you dont, its for a reason, I believe nothing in life is an accident.

Answer 6

i'll be your penpal [e-mail]. i know how it feels. in my college some of these kids are busy. you're doing cool with the Bs. plese alot would wish those grades on them. so relax. treat yourself. i guess i should be saying the same for me. i get lonesome wishing for a woman every 2 second. so i guess we need to take chill pills.

Answer 7

Oooh. Deja vu.

Answer 8

you were a big fish in a little pond. now you're a little fish in a big pond. that's quite a shock to go through.

Answer 9

Oh please take it from a who always did their best and only managed a C GPA you are doing D*MN GOOD!!

Answer 10

dont do that