I'm 25 and have been self harming for 10 years. I want to stop, but the more I try, the more I end up doing it...
I went to Mental Health at the hospital 1 month ago, but they sent me home as a low threat to myself and the community. Since then I have over 150 new scars!!
My gf hates it and looks at my cuts and scars with such disappointment (she does not know I see her look at me like this). I know she loves me and says she will stick around through thick and thin, but I have always pushed people away when I get this bad.
I am cutting with anything...glass I find on the ground, aluminium cans, rocks and cement, blades, scissors, forks!
I am medicated for clinical depression (since I was 17) and am also taking valium..What else can I do?!?!
2006-11-06 06:24:23 · 4 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
You need to get to the root cause of your cutting... What specific thought, situation, smell, emotion triggers the urge? What event may you be trying to relive or bury from your thoughts again and again? You aren't cutting yourself for no reason. I recommend you find a therapist to help you get to the bottom of why you are harming yourself. Don't give up if you don't like the first therapist you find or he/she isn't able to help - It may take several before you find one that's really able to help you.
2006-11-06 07:07:46 · answer #1 · answered by sovereign_carrie 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Get into some regular counseling sessions. You have to look at this as an addiction similar to drinking. You probably use cutting as a crutch or a way to cope/deal with emotions and turmoil. It's a behavior pattern that is very difficult to change and you need support. If not a counselor than you may look for support groups in your area. Most states have community mental health agencies that will charge you based on income (if you have no insurance). Try not to fault the hospital from their point of view you are low risk (as compared to a raging psychotic) but for your own well being and future you have to learn to deal with this. Remember baby steps, going from 20 cuts to 15 is a big deal. Good Luck!
2006-11-06 14:53:45 · answer #2 · answered by stargirl 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Go back to the hospital and be honest with them. They can't help you if you don't tell them exactly what you are doing to yourself. 150 scars since you left there IS dangerous to you. Forget about your GF for a while. That's part of why you do this to yourself. You worry too much about what other people think of you and you look for validation in them, instead of yourself. That's what you need to work on, my dear. Loving yourself. You can't love anyone else until you do. It will never work out. Your self-esteem is in the toilet. But you can get better if you want to---for yourself. Good luck.
2006-11-06 14:32:01 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
right now you just need to think about you go to counselor get through what your feeling believe me i know its hard Ive been doing it on and off for fifteen i know how hard it is ive been fighting it meself the last couple days
2006-11-06 21:32:04 · answer #4 · answered by ace 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋