so what should i do?

Question

everyday has been draggin. my life is full of emptiness. i dont mean to complain. i got noone to talk to. so i think about killin my self EVERYDAY, im sick of all this. my bf is not helpin at all. i cant even count on him. but i cant be without him. and i havent slept in 4 nights. i dont like anything about my self.. and i hate when people compliment me.. cuz it dont feel right. no one knows how i am. i might act happy at school but there is nothing inside of me.

Answer 1

plz go get help and yeah at school friends sees me as a happy person but inside of me i feel depress and yeah wanting to be die but i have help so yeah so talk to someone that understands good luck and take care

Answer 2

Wow, we have got to talk!
I just finished asking a similar question. I was there Many times. I know Exactly how you feel. It really does feel like its over right now, but you should know that the change in how you are feeling doesnt come from your circumstances changing. It means that you have to change the way you are looking at your circumstances. And I hate to say it, but you cant depend on your bf of anyone else to do this either.
What to do depends on what is causing this depression. If it is all a result of some particular incident or is it just clinical depression (which is for no apparent reason and is based on brain hormones.) I thought that mine was caused by my circumstances: didnt feel attractive, got no attention, couldnt leave relationship cuz I didnt know who I was without him ect...
Then I found that other people have it worse than me and they were doing better than I was! That showed me that it was up to me to have a different outlook on life. Shift your focus. Stay away from thoughts of "how you are" because chances are youll only end up labeling yourself and feeling even worse about yourself. Anytime your in this mood, never analyze yourself. Because when you have depression you have a tendancy to disqualify anything positive about your life. I remember when people said anything good about me, I would think it was only cuz they either felt sorry for me or they must have thought I was something that I was not. Like it was only a matter of time they would realize I was NOBODY. Please dont kill yourself bcuz I am living proof that you can change. First you should go to a psychologist ( I know its hard) but antidepressants really worked for a while. But you still must work through your thougts, they just help you feel well enough to do so. I know that acting happy makes it worse because it only isolates you more as if your real feelings dont exist, doesnt it?
Girl, what helped the most was to know people who had every reason to commit suicide and see how they "invent" happiness out of nowhere! Then it hit me- maybe that is what were supposed to be doing all along. People have limb amputations, AIDS, deaths of loved ones, disfiguring injuries and they can still find everything ELSE to be happy about, and here I was angry cuz I wanted to be popular, or have money, my boyfriend, ect.
First, give yourself time to recognize everything that is upsetting you and mourn it...Then say "F*** it!"and also make time to enjoy all that you have ever been happy about!
Tell yourself that just because you dont like anything about yourself doesnt mean theres nothing there. I feel empty too. Its just the illness. Theres only one way to find out whats there and that is to spend time alone doing what you enjoy. That way youre sure that is what's inside of you and youre not losing touch with who u are just to feel normal. Once you learn to enjoy yourself others can enjoy "you" . We feel empty when we conform ourselves to other's ways instead of developing a Self. Not even your bf can help u with this. But if he cant be supportive of you now, then he wont be worth it when you do find yourself.
In short, youll find meaning in your life when you stop focusing on all thats "wrong" and just flow along with life as if It couldnt get any better. Focus on enjoying yourself. you deserve it. Contact me if you need me.
Sorry for writing a novel. I wish u the best!

Answer 3

Please find someone to talk to. I understand exactly what you're saying, as I have (and still do sometimes) felt the same way. Is your school counselor someone you feel like you can talk to? Find a friend, a sister... or ask your parents to help you see a psychologist.

What you're feeling is not unusual, but you do need some help to break the mindset that you're in. It can get better, and it will if you seek out some help. It's hard to take that first step, but please do, for your own sake.

Answer 4

I am going to pray for you right now. God will work a miracle in your life if you will just open your heart to him and receive his love.

God loves you, You are his child, his creation. Please know that this moment of despair will pass.

Please read John 3:16.

You may also try contacting a doctor to give you some antidepressant medication. When my Father died ( I was 25 yrs. old) it really helped my depression.

Best of luck to you! Always remember you are a precious child of God!!!

Answer 5

you know what .. don't feel bad about yourself. life is good. do something you are interesting to and you can make it without your bf. girls always have a fighting spirit than men. you just need to be you and need some time to do something much more interesting and new.

Answer 6

You need to talk to a dr, honey. There is medicine available to stop these feelings. Email me, you can talk to me.

Jennifer

Answer 7

WE GUYS GIVE OUR MESSENGERS ADDYS TO YOU GIRLS AND THEN YOU NEVER COME ON AND TALK . SO WHATS THE USE??? DONT CRY CAUSE YOU HAVE MANY CHANCES AND WE ARE NO SICK PERVS HERE OK????

Answer 8

First of all and most importantly, if you are suicidal please seek professional help. They can help. Best of luck.