I liked this guy and I'm pretty sure he was into me. We were the best of friends and saw a lot of each other since he was in almost all of my classes. When my friends told me that he was going to ask me to a dance, I kind of said 'psh, yeah right!' and they got word back to him, although I secretly wanted to go with him. I'm the type that will pretend to be the girl who doesn't have a crush on anyone and hates mushy-gushy stuff. But anyways, I think I might have hurt him, because after that we sort of kept our distances... and I still like him a lot. It's been a year since the dance incident, and we occasionally exchange a conversation together once a day, but not as often as we used to. I still feel the connection and chemistry, but I can't tell if he still does for me? Sometimes, I feel like he's moved on to another girl, who is my friend (plus I think she likes him, too, but she doesn't know that I do). I can't tell. I don't know if I'm ready for a boyfriend either.. but still.
2006-11-02
10:27:34
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And I'm afraid that if we do go out, something will go wrong and awkward, and we'll break up and never speak to each other again, or maybe feel awkward about each other, and I'd hate that.
I don't know, I feel like he's my perfect match sometimes, and sometimes I don't. He's on my mind constantly, and I still hope he'll forgive me for pushing him away. But, I don't want to hurt him again like I did that one time...
And like I said before, I don't know if I'm ready for a relationship. Would it make my life more complicated? Would it affect my school work? Would I become one of those girls who gets constantly jealous of their boyfriend talking to another girl? Plus, I don't have as many classes with him this year...
Half of me doesn't want me to like him anymore, and the other half does. I'm so messed up.
2006-11-02
10:32:33 ·
update #1
So, I guess what I'm asking is, if he ever comes to me again, should I turn him down again or give in? Or should I go to him and expose the myself, who really does have a crush and doesn't hate mushy gushy stuff, to all of my friends? Or should I just leave it be, and let it just be a crush, and hope it goes away and that I'll move on... even though I think that won't happen for at least another year?
2006-11-02
10:34:58 ·
update #2