i prefer to be alone, have i really lost control ?

Answer 1

THERE NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING ALONG IF THAT WHAT YOU PREFER THEN THAT FINE, WHEN YOU WANT
TO BE WITH SOMEONE THEN YOU WILL. BUT UNTIL THEN
DONT BEAT YOUR SELF UP ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL. EVERY
ONE FEEL THAT AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER, BUT IT PASS
WHEN YOU WANT TO.

Answer 2

When you are alone, you are completely in control. So maybe you prefer to be alone because you are a control freak.