Am I depressed!?

Question

I do not like doing anything.. l do not like being around people-- don't want to get back in contact with "friends" the only reason I made those friends were because it was easier to practice sports I played in middleschool and highschool.. I don't want to make new friends.. I hate my family for no reason.. I have been like this since I was 5 years old..
Since I have been like this for 15 years is it just the way I am?? If not am I depressed CAN I be depressed for this long?
I am only 20 I live a pretty good life.. I am a pretty girl.. I have modeled for 5 years.. Hell guys come up to me all of the time.. Have 2 great kids (the only people i love.. or well even the only people i like for that matter).. I work 4 days a week.. get every fri, sat and sunday to do whatever i want.. i go to school and same story fri, sat, and sun i have nothing to do.. hang out with the kids.. so im not like stressed out..
HELLLLP! What do i do!?

Oh.. & I am never happy.. EVER.. I think about killing myself a lot but I don't think I would seriously do it because my husband (daughters daddy) killed himelf..

Answer 1

Hi there,
You sound depressed to me but all you need to do is seek medical help,as deppession is a breakdown of fluids that run through our brains,and there are medications that will solve your problem.If you decide to take them,do it for at least 6months if not longer,dont be ashamed for seeking help,and dont be put off by taking medication,and if you decide to take medication,DONT STOP once you are feeling better this is a big mistake.Remember 6months at least if not more,and if you do stop,and feel those old feelings creeping back up,go straight to your medication.
Believe me I wouldnt be here today without my medication,and ive been on it for two years,I quite often up the dose when I cant cope with life but I dont plan on coming off it untill life quietens down for me. Dont suffer theres no need.

Answer 2

You don't sound depressed. You sound like a person who just doesn't want to be bothered with anyone except your children.
Sounds like you grew up as an only child, not sheltered, but just never had anyone to talk to. If you are not an only child, I believe "something" happened to you between the age of 3 to 5 that you have suppressed. It was then that you decided to not think about it again, nor trust.
You "like" your children because you "like" yourself. You model and in order to model, your confidence and self-awareness says "Look at Me!".
Your "memory of your life" starts when you were 5. Find 15-30 minutes of quiet time, close your eyes and seek what was going on in your life between the age of 3 and 5. It's going to take some time, but I believe you will find out why you feel the way you do. And if it doesn't change you, just know that it's OK if you don't want to be around people. That's your choice.

Answer 3

No you are not depressed, you are just self absorbed, with nothing to get the focus off of you and you are checking your own "temperature" too much. Stop worrying what you think is normal or happy or if you are "hot" or what men or anyone does for that matter. You will soon find if you stop being so worried about yourself and begin doing things for others, donate your time to terminally ill children, by reading them stories, or go to the animal shelter and walk some puppies or play with the cats, take all of your fashion magazines over to the nearest nursing home, donate all of the clothes you dont wear anymore to a womens shelter (where battered women are hiding from the men that beat the heck out of them) read some books on the current civil wars in Africa and how families survive on nothing, and then send a hundred dollars to a charity in the name of your "future happiness" then clean out your car, then clean up your house and when you are exhausted, go to sleep then get up and go get a bunch of small plants and shrubs and fix up your yard, make your back yard really pretty, bake something nice and take it over to your family. Take the spotlight off of "you", that will allow joy into your life. In twenty years you will be forty years old, your kids will be off living their own lives and you will not look like you do now, so it is very important to become something you can be proud of, inside beauty lasts forever, even the best surgeon can not keep exterior beauty up for ever....think of the millions, yes millions of children that were orphaned by the tsunami, AIDS and see if you can do something to help them find something in life to be a little tiny bit happy about. A nice letter from a pretty lady? Think about it, you will come up with the right answer.

Answer 4

I have a brother with clinical depression and according to everything I have read if your symptoms last longer that two week you should seek professional help. Mental health issues are so much more accepted today then when my brother was diagnosed, so don't be scared or embarassed.

Answer 5

If you feel tha you are depressedknow that by seeking professiona help you may be able to ease you suffering and feel a little more comfortable.

Answer 6

could be, have you ever thought about seeing a therapist to talk about whats going on in life? if you have no friends, sometimes having a therapist helps even if it's once a month, it could help. if you don't want to be near anyone it sounds like a symtom of depression.

Answer 7

check and see if you are bi polar