feeling suicidal?

Question

i wrote a while back [few days] about someone who may be follwoing me.i dnt think they were or maybe its coincidences that they happen to be wherever i was....thats not the problem the problem is the letter they wrtoe about my whereabouts with a boy [who i want to marry] my dad never got it.cos my mum didnt want to show it to him in case he was in shock or something happened to him.well i got a funny feeling someone may alredy have told him or he will find out sooner or later anyway someone is bound to tell him eventaully that they wrote the letter.
and if thats true i dnt know what my dad will do....hes the kind who wont talk to anyone if somethings wrong he will bottle it insdie and i dnt know the consquences of that hes alreayd quite ill...
my mum is telling me that this boy will never marry me and that all guys just want one thing and they just like to mess up about with girls and then go and marry a `clean` girl....im sure you know what imsaying....we are not that strcit a family but when it comes to going out with guys its a major issue...plus its also the reputation if someone else sees you with a guy....
i really do not know what to do...i feel like honestly dieng as i know my dads slience will kill him or me....and my mums just being all negative that shes 100 percent sure he wont mary me[even though he said he will]the thing my mum is lawyas right even about anything and everything and most guys out there have said they dont wana marry the girl they go out cos she may have gone out with god knows how many guys as well.....
someone is definalty being a prick[sorry] and informing my parents about me through a letter and im geting very scared as well as fed up and angry why is it anyone esle business.....
please i do not know what to do.....my mum thinks i should let go of who im with, but i love him.....what should i do....please

Additional Details

2 minutes ago
Im nearly 22....so not that young...and hes 24
sorry my spelling is awful but i wa writing in a hurry as usual

Answer 1

Hey,-let me just say,
Take it easy.Take a breather.Or,two.

Now,-your Mom is merely expressing her views.Her opinions.
Cool.

The guy you wanna marry.
Now,-if he really was in it for the long haul,-he ought to be there for you no matter what.Or,rather,-no matter how long it may be.

You say you're afraid for your Dad.
My dad's like that too,you know.
I completey understand.

I would suggest stepping back for a sec.,(I know it's hard),-but just "survey" the area,-as in what qualities does this guy you wanna marry provide?
He may have some negatives(no one is perfect),-but you deserve the Best,Hun.
I may not know you,but I DO know you deserve the Best.

So,-here.
Take your time.
Don't rush things with this guy,

Be warm,understanding with/for your Dad.
; )
Chitchats between him & you may bridge any slight gap you may have had in the past.

Love can be hard.
But,hey,-it can ALSO be easy.

Be the best person you can be,-Family IS first,too.
They will forever love you no matter how many times you screw-up,no matter.
That's the greatest thing about having a family.

When it comes to choosing a potential soul mate for the rest of your life,-take your time.
I mean that.

I once almost ended-up with the biggest mistake of my life.
I am happy now I didn't.

Live strong.Live happy.Take control,'cos yeah,-YOU control the course of how you live,with whom.

Not anyone else.
You love him.
If its true,-you ought to be able to wait it out.
Time will tell.

The longer the time span,-then the clearer things become.
You,will see it for YOURself whether it honestly IS TRUE love or,merely was just a "faze" or "lust".

No hurry,Gurl!! xx

Answer 2

There's no such thing as a life "ruined" by age 17. Sometimes life takes us in directions we didn't expect; sometimes that's temporarily hard to cope with; but everything has a way of working itself out in the end, and you will find a life you're happy with, where you're successful at things that really matter to you. There's really not much you can do about your mom's alcoholism, except understand that you can't rely on her. You have to be a little stronger than the average person, for that reason - and that's unfair, and it sucks, but in the end it will only make you a better person. As for your intrusive homosexual urges - well, there's two possibilities. The first is that you have a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder that makes you think crazy things you know deep down aren't true (for example, some obsessive-compulsives cannot believe their hands are clean even when they're looking at clean hands, or cannot believe they didn't run a pedestrian over on the road even though they have no memory of doing so). The second possibility is that you're bisexual or gay, and that you're in the closet, and your sexuality is trying to break through. And if that's the case, well, eventually you'll just have to accept that your life isn't going to be exactly what you thought it was. Certainly you can still have a family and kids - lots of gay and bisexual men do. You have as many options as you want; your sexuality doesn't force you to assume any particular lifestyle. In a couple years, you'll be out of the house and on your own, your mother's alcoholism won't be as pressing a problem, and you can start constructing your adult life. That's an exciting time, and most people describe their early 20s as a time they loved and treasured and (honestly) miss. You would be an absolute fool to kill yourself and miss out on those incredible years.

Answer 3

Since you're legal age, tell the boyfriend you want to see the ring on the finger. Then your parents have nothing to worry about.

Answer 4

girlfriend you are a grown woman and you can see and do what you want. i really think that your family needs to grow up!!!!!!
and let you live your own life. my god...i love my 6 children and would never do to them what your parents are doing to you .GOD BLESS AND GOOD LUCK WITH (YOUR)LIFE.

Answer 5

worry about yourself that happen to me to you need to dinstant yourslef from them good luck

Answer 6

listen to your mother, you say she has always been right, what would make this any different.

Answer 7

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