what happened ?

Question

i lost my will to live ... as a matter of fact i think i never had it i feel like i lived a thousand lives ... i fell that there is nothing that could motivate me ... i dont care about nothing anymore ... i even have doubts about god ...is this a punishment ? ...im losing all my friends ... im always alone and belive me this is NOT A DEPRESSION ...

Answer 1

Although you deny it, these are classic symptoms of depression. If you and anything like me, these feelings will come and go. You can see a doctor or therapist about them, as you know. Otherwise you may find that changing your lifestyle a little will cheer you up. Vary what you do from day to day. Start exercising or do something you love every day, whether it's taking a walk in the park with your dogs, having breakfast a a coffee shop, going shopping, taking a drive, whatever. While you participate in this, it will stave off your unhappy feelings. Also, keep busy, busy, busy. Get a job or a hobby, and this will help, too. Also, if you feel alone, you are bound to meet people through your new job or hobby:)

Answer 2

You say you lost your will to live...what is your life so lacking...you feel like you lived a thousand years, be thankful for the life God has given you...why are you so ready to give up, you feel that there is nothing to live for, nothing motivates you, why are you so ready to lay down and die when you do have so much to live for, stop burying your head in the sand and develop a backbone...you have doubts about God..trust me he knows your every thought, he hears you, and knows your pain...and he most certainly does love you, have some faith in him...you think this is a punishment, the only person who is punishing you...is you, and you're losing your friends because you have lost your spirit, your spark, and will to live, pray to God about the way you feel he will undoubtedly hear your prayer, and one thing i have learnt, and that is prayer changes things...everyday is a new day, and everyday is not the same, but i guarantee you God never changes talk to him, he will divide the spoils of your life, come out of the dark into the light. Good luck.

Answer 3

Your question is good and worth investigating. What did happen? If you can never remember having the will to live it's possible you had a VERY traumatic early childhood experience that you are unaware of. How's your relationship with your parents? Can you ask them about what their lives were like when you were in you mother's womb? What were your mom's and dad's lives like after you were born? Try not to look for another person to blame, but rather an experience that might have caused your young soul to pull away from everybody ... to not trust.

Once you find the root experience, then, with every last ounce of energy you have left, work to resolve every hurtful issue in a frank and loving way. My guess is you may have MANY unresolved, hurtful issues. What have you got to lose?

This process may take a while so, in the meantime, evaluate your gifts and talents (every human has some) and find a way to use them to serve humanity. This act will help you get through the next second, then the next minute, then the next hour and eventually day by day. If you find a way to do this you will never be bored and the heavy weight you are carrying right now may be lifted, if only temporarily, but long enough for you to regenerate and gain strength for the struggle ahead of you.

This is NOT a punishment!!!!! It's simply 'cause and effect'. You're feelings (or lack thereof) and actions today are the effect of a 'cause' (traumatic event) that you experienced sometime in your past. The earilier the trauma, the more devastating the effect.

I understand your doubts about God, but know of a certainty that it is He who is carrying you right now. Sort of like Footprints - have you read it?

I pain for you. I was married to a man with a similar problem. He couldn't feel anything. It was like being dead in a living body.

I'd like to share two Baha'i prayers with you that I hope bring you some comfort throughout your struggle. When you just can't take it anymore, recite one or both of these prayers over and over again (especially the Remover of Difficulties):

"Is there any Remover of difficulties save God? Say: Praised be God! He is God! All are His servants, and all abide by His bidding!" -The Bab

"Thy Name is my healing, O my God, and remembrance of Thee is my remedy. Nearness to Thee is my hope, and love for Thee is my companion. Thy mercy to me is my healing and my succor in both this world and the world to come. Thou, verily, art the All-Bountiful, the All-Knowing, the All-Wise." -Baha'u'llah

God be with you,
Linell

Answer 4

Honey, all of us feel this way from time to time.....you just have to find something you're passionate about and that makes you feel good. For some people, it's something artistic to express themselves, for others it can be something else like going for long drives and thinking (I used to do that a lot when I was down). Good luck and feel better soon!

P.S. I know you don't think you are depressed but it really does sound like you are. If you have sucicidal thoughts please talk to someone ok?

Answer 5

Well God and Jesus is real and when you have lost all hope then look to them. Jesus will lift you out of that and clean you off and can make you white as snow if you will only believe and ask him to save you. Jesus is the only friend you need.

Answer 6

I felt that way all my life until I finally seen Jesus for real,,I seen Him so many times but until He showed me how much He truly loved me was when I have never suffered depression again..

Answer 7

Alone & friendless you think you have hit bottom, keep typing that will save you. YOU will live to feel you've lived a thousand lives again, and again, and again:)

Answer 8

Happens to all of us man, There's lots of good advice in many of these answers, take a small step and do one cool thing at a time

Answer 9

i feel the same way we can talk if you want im me @ mastaystrapped@aim
my name is ASH