What do you do when you don't feel like you can go on anymore?

Question

Everything is so messed up. I'm seventeen years old and I'm sitting here thinking about ending my own life. I can't see any hope for me and as I try to just make it through everyday that one thought comes back to me and keeps repeating over again in my mind. My family would be so much better off without me. I'll never be anything. Nothing I do is right. How can I go on. My own mother couldn't even love me so that proves that there is something wrong with me. Please isn't there anyone out there who can help me. I don't want to die. I want to find a way to live. I don't feel like I can hold on much longer.

Answer 1

I've been where you are right now, and I am so glad that I didn't end my own life. The best thing that you can do for yourself is to get some professional help right away. With therapy and medication, you will be able to enjoy life and be content with who you are.

You are a valuable person who is worthy of being loved and of being happy. Your mother's problem is just that -- HER problem. You didn't do anything wrong or bad. . .she just didn't have the capacity to love.

Please, PLEASE get some help as soon as you can. Talk to your family doctor, a counselor at school, a minister -- someone you trust and who can get you the help that you need. You have a good life ahead of you, so please don't throw it away.

I'm never more than an email away, and I'll do whatever I can to listen or to help.

Answer 2

Suicide is not the answer dear. I don't know if anything I say will matter. You can't have a negative attitude like that such as nothing you do is ever right or you will never be anything. Because if you put your mind to it you can do anything you want to. And If you fail you just move on to something else. There is something for everyone. I don't know your family situation at all. But I have also had a screwed up life. But no ones life is perfect. You just have to look at the good things. Maybe you need to talk to someone a friend just someone you are close to. But suicide is not the answer. You can do anything you want to do and be anything you want to be don't let anyone tell you any different. Email me if you like.

Answer 3

Let me start off by saying I completely understand what you mean. When I was about 15, in grade 10 things started to get really ****** up for me, both emotionally and physically.
I used to run with all the preppy popular crowd, you know the type, makes fun of people and all that ****.
Anyways, long story short, I parted ways with them. I am not over exagerating when I say this, but they made my life hell.
I got to the point where I didn't even want to leave my house. People I didn't even know wanted to kick the snot outta me, people just did stuff teenagers do.
The only thing that got me through those years was music and my mind. I knew that no body liked me, both people and family, I knew that people actually enjoyed doing this to me.
I would get so mentally ****** up, I thought I wanted to die too.
I always loved just chillin and thinkin about nothing, just letting my mind wander and think of crazy ****.
Those intense feelings that all those people gave me and the feeling that I gave myself stuck to me and I couldn't get away from them.
Anyways, the point is. 7 years after high school, Im 25 with a 3 month old baby girl with my wife, and I am so happy that I got through those years.
Everything that's going on around you is effecting your view of yourself. Instead of thinking that you wish you were dead, just imagine everyone else not being there. Just completely ignore everything negative, and don't take ANYTHING to heart that anyone says or does about or to you.
Once you're out of high school and away from everyone that was affecting you, you'll realise that things get a lot easier.
There is life after high school. All those bithces that prey on people like me make me sick.
Just ignore everyone, everything that doesn't make you feel good. If that means getting your own place somewhere across town, then so be it. As long as you know that you yourself are a decent person, then you can literally lose all that crap that built up through the years.
Just chill for now. I promise things will be better one day.
LAter,
Mike.
PS - There are a lot of people like us out there. We are super sensitive to the feelings of others over our own.

Answer 4

The fact is, it's a crazy messed up world we live in, and we can't find hope and happiness on our own. You need to give all your cares over to God and ask Him for the strength and guidance to go on. He loves you, His child, right where you are, right now. His arms are open wide, waiting to embrace you and give you peace and hope. He wants you to have a great life. Visit the web site below, and find a Christian church or fellowship near you to get connected to other believers. Your life won't be perfect, but you will have the joy and peace in your heart to deal with whatever life throws at you. I know - I was just like you in my teens, about 30 years ago. It hurts me to hear of anyone else going through the same agony. Please see the site below and call the free number if you would like to talk to someone. There is hope.

Answer 5

Please don't feel like your mother could never love you, sometimes medical issues, drug addiction, or other mental problems make people do or say things they don't mean to say.
You obviously have access to a computer, hopefully you have someplace safe to live, by your posting, you seem to be a very bright person...get some help NOW!!
Call someone you know, tell them how depressed you are, and ask an ADULT to help you...a school counselor, teachers are a good start!
Or else take a bus, or get to the nearest hospital, tell them how you feel ..you may need medication to get you through this...DON"T GIVE UP>>you are worth it!!
Your Mom may have problems you don't know about..she may need help! My dad had un-diagnosed manic depression..it is genetic!! I needed help for it as well!! Let us know how you are doing! Hang in there it isn't always this bad!

Answer 6

If you think your mother doesnt love you im sorry but everyone that doesnt have a problem cares about you !Talk to a family member or a friend you will be on your own soon its a hard age I was there once ..Your mother may want you to be mature to prepare you to be on your own or she doesnt know how to show love if she grew up without love.Just hang in there and know you have a purpose in life.What would you accomplice by killing yourself .And dont cut yourself either .Going to a church is an option for you .

Answer 7

http://suicidehotlines.com/
here is a suicide link with phone numbers. CALL!
If you are having feelings of dying and feeling worthless you need to contact someone to help you through this.
Just know that you aren't alone. And you are worthy of happiness no matter what has happened to you.
There is something inside you that wants to live. That wants to become what you were meant to become. Don't ever believe you aren't lovable. You are surrounded by it. Take a look in the mirror. That is all the love you need. All of these words mean nothing if you don't believe them to be true. Get the help you need.
You are valuable. You are worth it. You are loved.
Be strong enough to just ask for help. It will be hard...but it can happen and its worth it...you are worth it!

Answer 8

Call a crisis line. Go to an inpatient psych facility. Go to the ER. Call a therapist or psychiatrist. I understand. I have been in your exact same position, I am 32 now. You have alot to look forward to for you. Don't do something tonight that will change all those good things that will be happening to you. You are way too young to go now.

Answer 9

How long has this been going on? If you are under stress and thing aren't going right for you right now in your life I can understand....it is a lot to take all at once. What is this one thought that keeps coming back to you? If you want someone to talk to I'm here. [e-mail]

Answer 10

Candace-

Share your thoughts and issues with your school social worker or psychologist tommorrow. If you don't think you will make it until then, contact a suicide hotline ASAP.

Think about the things that have kept you going so far... things that give you hope. Like writing your book and getting it published.

Hang in there girl. There is hope.