What should I do? How should I think of this to make myself feel less depress?

Question

In my family, I never have a chance to say anything. Whenever I want to say something, my parents will talk talk talk and not give me chance to talk. And or they chose to not hear me. When I tried to say something, I just started my sentence "The reason is..X....", i have not finish or even finish a sentence, they will start to talk. I listened to what they said all the way, then I want to say something, but have no chance.

And they said I am impatient. (Who is impatient?)

My parents are so weak, they rather get along with relatives than to protect me from physically and emotionally hurt by my uncle.

My uncle did not just hurt me emotionally ONCE. He did it few times and at those times, my parents let him hurt me emotionally, and 'verbelly' agree him. Their actions spoiled him to esculate his behavior and end up hurting me physically.

I know I cannot change my parents.
The reality is reality.
But I feel very depress, that parents are these ways.
How do I face this reality, and what can I do, or how should think of it, to fee less depress?

No, we don't have much relatives, and no trust worthy relatives.

I tried talked to my parents, they didn't want to hear it.

I was and am not just sit here and complaint, I tried all I can do already.

And i realize that I become 'trying to please poeple'.

I did try to relieve and let out my emotions in proper ways, such as go into my room and cry. However, my parents would not let me. They would go into my room and tell me to stop crying. I ask them to please leave me alone, but they would not leave the room and continue verbally stimulate me.

I went to counselling center, but then after a while, I think they are lack of funds, my counsellor is quitting, then another counselling is quiting. Then I change to another center, seeing 'on training' counsellor. I had economic problems, so I see a training counsellor since the fee is cheaper. Altough she was on training, I think she is fine. But then soon the training is over, she have to leave. I ask if I can continue the counselling with her. She said she have to ask.
-2 result (which I cannot control):
1) I can continue the counselling with her in another center.
2)Stay and see another counsellor, which I REALLY don't want to. Because I have came this far........

.....And also I don't want to relive the drama again, it's as torturing as XXXX victums have to retold their stories again and again.
AND I don't know if I can really retold again. I have weak memory power (may be it's my medication?), like i can three times forget something.

BUT I will still try my best, I mean what choice I have, except keep going, right?

Thank you for understand me.

Answer 1

I sense your feeling of being powerless in this situation having grown up in a similar situation. How frustrating! Depression, I think, is anger turned inward. The message I got from my family pretty much amounted to an understanding that I didn't matter enough to be heard and that any attempts at asserting myself as a worthwhile human in their presence would only result in either indifference or punishment. I grew up and pretty much became one mean, angry paranoid sonofabitch. I'm not that way anymore, but it took a lot of work and help from others. Knowing what I know now, I'm wishing I would've sought help sooner than I did. Acknowledge your anger and seek help learning to process it in ways proper. It's okay to be pissed. Repressing it will only make you sick.

Answer 2

i've been touched with ur story , i think u should put end to this politly and to show them u have ur own personality i mean when they ignore u u can say that that action really bothers u, or tell them if they didn't give u achance u will leave even as a hypothetical threat to give u attention ( i mean express ur feelings politly overall they are ur parents), about ur uncle when he starts to hurt u u have many options u can ignore what he is saying and show him tthat coz i think when he notices that u don't care he will stop that.and at the same time blame ur parents (reasonably and politly to their strange attitude),or tell some relative about that to talk to him, or u show him that what he is saying really don't bother u, or listen to him then when he finishs just leave , the place.
in brief show ur feelings up without being rude coz u have the right.

Answer 3

talk to your school counselor If your parents won't protect you from your uncle, seek other help, no one has the right to hurt or abuse you. you could talk to a trusted teacher ,principle or other adult.I'm sure you have had some lessons at school to teach you what to do if your abused.You learned all that terminology somewhere.Depending on how your uncle is hurting you,you could always call the police.nobody likes a child abuser.

Answer 4

You know what...? I would write down a few sentences about how you feel and POST it to them. Make sure you're out of the way when they read it. See, people cannot interrupt a letter!!

Say in the letter what they do then say how that makes you feel.

Try it...you'll see.

Answer 5

Maybe you should try counseling maybe with a pastor in a church if you are a member.Or perhaps a school counseler if thats available

Answer 6

hey dear, i'm sorry to hear this...

perhaps ur set of parents are stil e conventional conservative consious folks...

dont do anything folly to attract their attention...

time will prove them wrong to treat u like this...

perhaps u can find a relative thats closer to u to help u get to ur folks...

meanwhile look on e bright side, channel ur thoughts to cheerful events...

go go!!