How do you fight crazy?

Question

I'm lost, confused, and completely discusted with the world I live in. I'm suffering from post traumatic stress, anxiety, depression, and and OCD. I know what has caused all of this, now how do I fight the crazy thoughts in my own mind. I watched a 10 yr old girl drown, without being able to save her while she was in my care, I was chased down by a mad woman who wanted me to sleep with her married lover, I dealt with the death of the most amazing person in my life, and now am going through a domestic violence situation. I know that I had made thes wrong decisions in my life and my personal mantra has always been : " Get over it." But blocking all of this out is not doing me any good. I'm 24 yrs old, I have three kids, am a single mom. I'm getting my GED with the hopes of going to college next spring, while dealing with a crazy man, who os stalking me. I hate world I live in and I hate myself for bringing my kids into this world, but I know that with out them I wouldn't be here.

Answer 1

ohh, sweet heart I feel so terrible for you. I am 32 mother of three (at home) and two step (weekends). About ten years ago I was diagnosed with dissoative idenity disorder (mutiple personalities). I also suffer from manic depression and anxiety. I was just recently put on zanax because my anxiety was getting so bad. The things that you have see and the things you have been through are awful. So I really understand and feel for you. Maintainig my sanity is a 24/7/ 365 job. It is always a stuggle. I feel that I have to fight everyday just to stay alive when other people are able to go to the grocery, school, work, maintain a household with no more on their mind then the chores that they have left yet for the day. I feel as I am in constant argument with myself and just getting out of bed some days is a struggle let alone washing dishes cooking supper and helping with homework. My best advice is to find a really really good therapist that can help you. It took me awhile but I finally found one that taught me behavior modification. I am proud to say that I have not been hospitalized in the last three years, and i have been clean and sober for almost as long (I self medicated for a long time). Finally I was able to find a combination of meds that worked for me. That seemed to clear up the static at least. And then I found a few freiends that I could be completely honest with and could talk to on my bad days. Most people shy away from me or don't understand me. My parents have tried but bless there souls they do not have a clue. So most of the time I hide it, I think even from myself sometimes. Find a network, a support group. Talking can really help. The next thing is to learn to forgive yourself for whatever you might feel guilty for. (This step was really hard for me). But the biggest help for me has been God. He has given me the strenght to fight. And to fight this disease you must do. Don't ever give up. Do not let it win. You can do it...if I can do it anybody can.
If you need someone to talk to more click my picture and send me an email. I am not judgemental at all. I am a good listener. And I would be happy to help you through this if i can. Just hang in there kiddo.

Answer 2

Are you in therapy right now? If not, find out where you can go and go because that can really help you with alot of the issues that you have talked about here. Also you have made some excellent progress here by working on getting your GED and raising your 3 children as a single mom, bravo and you are going to college that is wonder full. I want you to know that no one can just get over what you have been through but you can face it and live with it and put it in the past and know that it will always be there but it is not who you are now. Dealing with it is how you can make the changes you need to make. As far as the domestic situation you have to decided when enough is enough and what and how is the best way to get out of that situation safely for yourself and your children. Has he been physically violent or is he just stalking you? Have you called the police? Can you go to a safe house? Is there help in your community? Look for any and all help for you and your family. Above all stay safe and stay strong and all my best to you and I hope and pray that everything works out for you and your family. Peace be with you.

Answer 3

Seek profession help.

I will say that depression is a very ugly thing. I have suffered with it most of my life.

1) you must want to change
2) you must seek "positive psychology"
3) you must get off your pity pit
4) make a "gratitude list" everyday...write down 5 things that you are grateful for (EVERY day when you get up)
5) stop eating sugar and junk food (makes depression worse)
6) get out in the direct sun for at least 15 minutes a day and take a multivitamin daily with COMPLEX B (know to be low in depressed folk) and exercise
7) remember..life can be so much worse! Go to the V. A. Hospital and volunteer! You will see how wonderful YOUR life really is! Volunteer at a soup kitchen! See how the homeless, jobless, penniless live! You will receive a blessing that words can not describe!

Answer 4

get out of the relationship. conentrate on your GED, see a therapist and sort through issues, and if you have to get on some antidepressents just temporarily and you can get things together. lifes hard i know, but each challenge in your life is there for you to overcome no matter how hard it is.

Answer 5

Talk with someone that you trust about this...a friend, neighbor, parent, pastor....someone. Hopefully they can help lead you in the right direction to get you some help and self-esteem. :)

Answer 6

Are you really serious? Shouldn't you have been seeing a psychiatrist? well, if you don't, I think you have to do that now.