Is it normal to really think about suicide and to even start planning it out?

Question

I think about suicide almost everyday now and have even planned on how to do it. In someways I want the pain to just stop I am sick of this life. The only thing that has stopped me is the ones I would hurt. I feel like nothing is left for me here. I lost my parents and now my husband and I just want to be with him.

I see a psychitrist and counselor and don't want to tell them for fear of going back in the hospital.

Answer 1

Life changes but it's a great opportunity to find out who you are

Answer 2

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Since you're at a breaking point - I'm sure NO answer is going to be the right one unless God plans it to be. All I want to say is you ARE worthy and worthy to be loved. I don't mean 'someone else'. I know you must really MISS your husband. Probably with losing your parents first then him - the pain was renewed. I lost my parents and a son within a 3 year period. It felt like a few MONTHS period. I had anti-depressants and a pschologist to help me through it too. I'm wondering if you could tell your pschologist that this therapy isn't doing its' job and you still feel lifeless. You don't have to tell them you want to commit suicide. Because you're right - they will send you back for YOUR safety. So use different adjectives that mean the same thing. You're still depressed. The medicene isn't good enough. You need some OTHER types of therapy like groups of people that have lost loved ones before that can honestly say "I know how you feel and this is how I made it through!" My major pet peeve is when people told me at the time, "If there is anything I can do" or "I know how you feel" and they really didn't!! They never lost ANYONE and they were no where around if you started talking about suicide or depression!! May you let God talk to your heart and realize you are STILL loved by HIM and I'm SURE others in your circle. I love your soul and would NOT want to see it burned! God speed in your healing!!!

Answer 3

Planning a suicide is not normal. Get help now, please. You gave the key in your question - You are sick of this life & you want the pain to stop. Sounds to me you really do not want to die. I am sorry to hear about your parents and your husband dying.The pain of grieving is extremely difficult. That pain is also normal.
It cannot last forever & will get better over time. You need to give yourself that time.

It is a good thing you thought of the pain you would leave with the people you love. It shows you have a great deal of love and compassion for them. And talking about what you are feeling here was a good move for you. By getting help, you will learn to have the same compassion for yourself. The pain will become less when give yourself the time you need.

Please do what you need to do for yourself and those you love before it is too late. Your future will be much brighter if you do.

And a second thought. If it meant saving all I love of a much worse grief and guilt, I would sign myself into a hospital. Did it once, years ago myself. The doctors won't do it ifr they don't believe you need it

Answer 4

Hi I would say that because you have thought about planning suicide that this is not normal and is concerning. Although just because you have had thoughts about suicide dosent mean you will actually go about it. I no its easy for me to say but suicide is a long term solution to a temporary problem. I understand loosing loved ones is heartbreaking but suicide is never the amswere no matter how low you feel.
I would say that you need some kind of support whether its councelling or just talking to someone. Sometimes suicide is the easy way out but your life is worth living. Please get support because if you have started to plan suicide then this is worrying.

You wont always feel like this, dont give up be strong .

Answer 5

No that isn't normal. Have you started taking any new prescriptions, or stopped taking some. You should see your doctor. Suicide is never the answer. Death is permanent. Life is only temporary. Just finish living it out, whatever is in store for you, I'm sure there is bound to be a few more moments of happiness with the ones you love. Just take it one day at a time, and enjoy some sunshine. Get some help. Sorry you lost your husband. Life goes on for a reason, you still have to find yours.

Answer 6

Sweetie, maybe going back to the hospital is what you need. I don't even want to imagine what you are going through and my heart is out there for you. Please remember this....Suicide is a permanent solution. Your parents and husband would not want this for you. He is still by your side and in your heart. He hears you and loves you. The best thing you can do is honor him. Live your life the very best you can. It will get easier. People here love you. Don't make them hurt the way you do at this moment. There is so much help out there hun. Support groups can be a huge help. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please go on...go on living for them and their memory.

Answer 7

No its not normal and you WILL hurt many people you plan to leave behind.
Its very sad for you feeling this way but there IS hope and life does go on. Please find some hotline or someone to talk to and remember even though you dont think so you WILL have good moments in your life.
Its not the answer to end your life- you need to get some help because you are alone. There is help out there, please seek it.
You should not hide things becuase there is no point in that. If you need to go to the hospital for a while, do it it will help you.

Answer 8

Nop.. it's not normal.. you should get some help!!! think about what you feel when you have a big lost.. persons or even things.. so imagine what kind pain will sufer people who loves... there are a lot of people that have feelling 4 u... I know life it's not perfect.. not even close.. but we are here to try to do the best that we can.. think about your parents' dreams about what you could do with your life!!!! Take care...and never forget you're a very special person!!!! =)

Answer 9

I have many times
it's normal- if your in the teenage years
Im sorry for your losses, but ending your life is not the answer. It's too selfish, and you really shouldn't
People tell me that playing video games such as EverQuest and Chromehounds can relive stress, it lets you take your anger out on someone/something that isn't yourself.
Try to make it, and don't die.
It only makes the world a worse place, and if you end your life then your friends will feel bad, and might do the same.
You don't want that, right?
So try as hard as you can, and you'll love yourself for it tommorow

Answer 10

You have the support people there to help you in the best way possible. Go to them and tell them what is going on. I can understand what you are saying as I have been there. The hospital is not the only option. Look into support groups, people getting together with a trained professional to talk about loss, grief and life's challenges. Please don't give up on yourself as there are people who need you.

Answer 11

You poor thing.

Thinking in this way is not good, for sure. Have you tried talking with someone you trust about your feelings ? You should, and also maybe get some support from a trained counsellor who will be able to help you better come to terms with your loss.

Please try and get some help, and don't do anything too rash. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you just need help finding it.