What do i do now?

Question

......that i'm just a low person and taking me off pills coz 4 lots of pills have not worked nor has counselling.so that to me means i have to live with this. i can't live with this its pushing me down. i could kill myself and people will think "oh that was ok she was just a low person" i'm sick of fighting with docs i'm just............it's hopeless AHHHHHHH i can't sleep will not give me sleeping pills. just one more slash getting deeper its ok if i slip i'm just a low person. take pills take them all its ok i'm just a low person. can't sleep, sad, numb, crying and cutting all the time, low, depressed and panic but no need to worry I'M JUST A LOW PERSON. So now i have no reasonto even try and get out of bed in the morning to face this **** no thanks.

my doc thinks i'm a just a low person

i'm in the uk we can't just walk in to nut house

Answer 1

You are not a low person. You have a mental disability. It happens to many people. I have suffered from severe depression most of my life.

Have you thought about changing doctors (I know you are sick of doctors)? The right doctor will make sure you have something to help you sleep. You can never get well without getting good sleep. When I was given something for sleep that helped me as much as the antidepressant I was given. It supposedly took two weeks minimum for the antidepressants to start working but I started to feel better almost right away. It is amazing what a few nights of having good sleep can do for your outlook.

You didn't say how old you are, but do you have someone who can help you? Maybe by going to the doctor with you. When you are feeling down, it is not a good time to to tr to argue with doctors to get the treatment you need.

Best of luck to you. I am sure there is something that will help you. Don't lose hope.

Answer 2

I used to be where you are. I am fine now, by the way. I started asking myself, if I am willing to throw my life away, what could I do instead? Why not, instead of doing physical harm to myself, why not jump in the car and visit a new place that no one would expect me to go? Why not plan a trip that I can't afford? Why not try something new that might be scary and exciting and wouldn't hurt anybody but I might feel stupid? Anything is better than nothing. You have to give yourself another out. Look for the blue sky above the rim of the hole you are in. Do something good that you might be afraid to try or that someone told you you weren't good enough to do. Or give your life some meaning by helping someone who is a little worse than you. Volunteering is a great way to escape from your misery for awhile. You really have nothing to lose.

Answer 3

Do you have Fibromyalgia or Chronic Fatigue. These symptoms sound like the same as Dr.Strand's wife. She was low and depressed not wanting or able to even want help. Her husband, the DR, could not help with ALL the drugs at his disposal. She now is better and lives a fully active life. E-mail me at [e-mail] and i will forward you her story in their words. You can be helped and obviously want it or you would not be searching in all these places. If you want some more info on this Dr b4 you e-mail me here are some of his sites below.

Answer 4

Ask your doctor about Xanax (pronounced Zanex) Hold your head high because you have every right to. You deserve all the the world has to offer. Take a deep cleansing breathe, make yourself a cup of hot tea or coco. Snuggle up with a good book, or take a long bath. Anything to relax......and take it a day at a time. Search your soul, there is a great person in you. Belive that.! Need to chat? Email me

Answer 5

I like your doctor's use of medical terminology by calling you a low person. You know what? Your writing is almost poetic. Some of the most powerful poetry and songs were written by people who felt emotions as strongly as you do. If I were you, I would dive into myself and begin writing. I believe that you have the potential to shake the heavens with what you have inside. You have the opportunity to take people to places they have never seen. Places you have been to, dark places they could not handle. Good luck. You are not alone.

Answer 6

I read your question a few minutes ago, and my heart goes out to you. I realize that the "help-process" of doctoring and medications is not always the most fun or quickly rewarding way to deal with things...however, I don't think that you should stop. It can literally take years to find the right combinations of medications. If you are unhappy with who you are talking with...please contact help at this number 24 hrs a day.
tel: [phone].

I'm in the US...but, I did have this number in some paperwork of mine...they will at least be able to assist you in finding someone in your area to speak with. You are able to call annonymously....but most importantly....you need to find help.

Also, I understand the release of cutting and self-harm...but try to hold back...or do "safe cutting" (realize no cutting is really safe cutting however.) But please if it is a must, please use clean instruments to do it and think this way....3 shallow cuts are more healthy than 1 deep cut.

http://www.selfharm.org.uk .....maybe you could take a bit of time to read through this web-site to take your mind off of things for a while.

We all have problems...but please hun...get some help. I promise you...you Absolutely DO NOT have to feel like this forever!

*elizabeth

Answer 7

Hi, one of the first things to do is realise that by talking to us you are facing your feelings. Some of us do take things badly in life, none of us know why and we may feel suicidal at times. Nothing ever feels positive out there but most of us have one thing that stops us from ending it all. Have you spoken to your friends about this or are you like me and don't want to burden them. Try to find one thing that is worth living for, maybe your kids, a good friend, or pets. I can't comment on you cutting yourself as I don't know how that feels. When I am down I hide away in bed but the feelings usually go. The thought of my daughter living her life knowing I killed myself stops all thoughts of suicide. Maybe your doctor's right to take the pills away, maybe they want you to figure things out yourself and find a reason for living. Only you can really do it unfortunately. Keep on using this forum and start to answer some questions maybe that will bring your spirits up and keep your mind off things.
They say find 50 things that you like about yourself, that seems plain stupid at times when you low, if you can't find things about yourself find them about others and maybe it will make you realise that others make you happy.

Answer 8

the first step is to admit how ur feeling and you go girl you just done that in such a public way then what you have to do is take the advise youve asked for. everyone here as you see wishes you well and and wants you better so dont let us down go get that help n come back here wont ya when ur feelin better n let us all know how ur doing goodluck kid safe journey

Answer 9

I went through the phase of, 'I don't care if I'm alive. They don't care if I'm alive. Why am I alive?' My family had no clue I was depressed, I was acting my normal self and then, long story short, I got on anti-depressants, "happy pills" I called them. And I saw this annoying guy who I wanted to kill instead of myself, and I was like I don't want to get better, I don't want to be happy, I don't want to live!! And I thought no one would notice if I died, no one would care. I would care. Pills and talking to someone does not always help, you have to want to get better. It's all up to you. However, family support will help some.

Answer 10

You call a family member or a friend and have them take you either to an er or mental health hospital RIGHT NOW!! You see no hope of anything getting any better, but it will, I promise. You willl be okay, but get yourself to somebody FAST!! Please. You are in my prayers.