Why am I feeling so sort of lost and mellow right now?

Question

I guess only i can sort of answer this and it's kind of stupid to ask this to other people, but if this is the only place that gives me a forum to vent so be it. I dunno, but lately I have just been feeling sort of dazed, lost, confused, and find myself cotemplating on what the hell i'm doing with myself, what i want, and what i don't have. You could say it's an empty feeling, but it's not exactly like i'm depressed because it's not in the sad sense just more mellow and removed. First off, there's another girl who I really have a thing for etc etc and i want a shot with her etc, but with my track record i have sort of come to expect the worst, and while i'll try, i've come to accept the fact that i may never get the one i want. The other big thing is especially here at school is that people sort of see me as this sarcasticlly cynical funny guy and i'm treated like a character. it's great in a sense because i'm popular and all, but it's almost like, at the end of the day, i have no one

to confide in about what i really want. and all and all i want to be loved, i want someone to just confide in, and want someone to understand me, and not just see me as this sort of created character. part of it's my fault because part of that is who i am and i'm damn proud of it. i just wish sometimes people could look into me and know that i have a heart, emotions, and want a girl and all even if that's not how i always come across.

Answer 1

Yep, been there. Sometimes I'm still there.

Don't set yourself up for failure, every defeat leaves a lesson to be learned. Take what you can from the situation, no matter how painful, and use it to your advantage.

You'll have someone that makes you happy, and when it happens, you'll hear bells! And in that moment, you'll swear that you own the earth, and life will never be sweeter. It's all about that moment, so go for it!

Answer 2

You are very introspective. I would list my goals and see which ones will require an attitude adjustment or personality change in me. Changes can be subtle. You are not a character. You are a person who counts so make sure you can be serious as well as sarcastic. What is it about the girl that attracts you? If it is just looks then you will be bored soon. Find a girl who you can have a meeting of the minds with. This way your energy and your humor will match. Best of luck to you!

Answer 3

When I was in school, it was the same for me. I always had a dream of a wooden cabin in the canyons with a fireplace and I would be holding the woman of my dreams in my arms. We would talk about everything under the sun until the wee hours of the morning. Some dream. That desire however, stays with you if for nothing else as a memory.

In any event, to be loved, you must love yourself and believe that you are worthy of love. A friend, a close friend will tell you this.

Answer 4

i know how you feel i am treated as a character in school too but not as the "sarcastically cynical funny guy" lol.......more like the smart teacher's pet ......haha but i know how you feel lol i have been feeling that too like i just want someone there for me .........i think its the weather lol..........haha.......well hope you feel better ........it helps to talk to someone lol and haha i don't mind a new friend too lol.....

Answer 5

Quit whining.