I dont want to be here anymore, quickest way for suicide? i keep screwing everything up, i cant take itanymore

Question

im so depressed, ive seeked medical help, nd at times i think im getting better, but then i just get that much worse. everything is going so wrong in my life, with my family, my gf, i cant get into college, i cant keep a steady job, i feel like a waste of life. its all becoming too much for me to handle, i know i'll hurt people if i die, but im hurting so badly right now, i feel that my life holds no reason anymore. the pain is just too much to bare, as selfish as thats sounds, i cant fight anymore, it hurts way too much.

Answer 1

I have never been in your situation, so I find this EXTREMELY selfish. If you think you have it bad, try talking to some other people. For example, my 3 year old daughter has been molested. I am not ready to jump off a bridge because of that! Everyone has ups and downs and the downs are usually LOW down. I have had moments where I thought it would be easier if I were dead, but then I remember that the only person it would be easier on would be me. You would be opening up a whole world of hurt for everyone around you. If you are TRULY that selfish, then nothing anybody says here is going to change your mind. I don't think you are selfish or you wouldn't be asking for help. Go to church, seek counseling, get active, get a hobby, SOMETHING - just remember that there are others out there with many more problems than you - for instance - you could have been born in a 3rd world country searching everyday for your next meal. Pick your chin up, seek more help and remember that there are people out there who love you.

Answer 2

Try taking one thing at a time. First reconcile with your family. Having problems with the gf? Then break up with her. It might hurt worse for awhile, but you will lose a stressor in your life. You can get into college, it might not be the one of your choice, but you can. If necessary go 2 years at a small college and then transfer later on. Remember suicide doesn't hurt the person who kill themselves, it hurts the ones they left behind. You have no idea what hell you will put your family through.. Their pain and guilt will follow them through out the rest of their life. The problems you are having are normal. You can face each day and get through them. Don't feel like you have to fix everything at once. If possible, take a little trip to clear your mind and get away from everybody. Or find one thing that you feel you can do-a new job, hobby or volunteer and focus on that positive.
Life is always going to be hard, but you have to use that to make you stronger and to learn from your mistakes. You have to create happiness for yourself, it won't just fall into your lap. You need help. Find a counselor or some group that you can join. Again, you have no idea what pain you will cause your family, DON'T DO IT. Suicide is not a solution, it is not a temporary thing. Do you really not want to live to see what you can do with your life? Have a wife and kids? You can turn your life around! Start today and start small.

Answer 3

Please get therapy and hang on! My father commit suicide when I was fourteen and I am now thirty. I have felt the effects of this my entire life. Everything I do, every relationship I have, even how I am with my children is influenced by what he did. This time in your life is very painful and hard to deal with. All I can tell you is YOU WILL GET BETTER. You made need to go into therapy for much longer and there are medications you can take to help with your depression. This is a medical condition you can get help for. You are so young. Please give life a chance. I think all of us who have ever been that age went through those feelings where you feel like you don't matter and nothing will ever get better. It will. I promise. I wish someone had told my dad all this before he thought about suicide. It will cause more pain then you could ever know. I guarantee you if my dad is looking down on me, he would see all the wonderful things he didn't hang on for and he's wishing he did. My stepdad had a son that died around your age. He didn't kill himself, but he is still in pain after twenty years from losing a child. Please get help from your parents too. They do love you. You need to tell them the kind of pain you're in. Bottom line, there is NO GOOD WAY TO KILL YOURSELF! It should never be the answer! I still haven't forgiven my father for it.

Answer 4

Well, first of all you need to keep trying different medications until you find the right one. Trust me, there is one out there that is right for you. For me it has been Effexor. Before that, I wanted to die everyday, cut myself, sleep and cried all day and didn't want to do anything. Every little problem felt like the end of the world and I wasn't able to cope with it. When my father died I was really depressed and stressed out so much. Medications should be able to calm you or numb you to the anxiety and depression that you feel from every little thing that you feel now. Normal people have defenses against constant depression that we don't. If you find that nothing is helping, then maybe you should try Electro shock therapy. Yes it has some side effects like memory loss but that is much better than loss of life. It is the quickest way to end severe depression. But I suggest you keep at it trying to find a medication that works. Tell your doctor you need something stronger.

Answer 5

I will tell you from experience, trying to kill yourself is not the way to go. I had tried to commit suicide so many times when i was younger and just could not complete the task. It wasn't because I was weak I just couldn't do it right and I am glad I never succeeded. My late husband was suicidal, he didn't kill himself but he died at the hands of a bad doctor. I wanted to die when he died. I can tell you this much, you have not given up. You are here looking for help and that is a good thing. I really want you to get on the phone and talk to a crisis center. If you can not afford to speak with a psychiatrist then go to your local mental health agency and ask for help. They will not turn you down. If you are having problems with your family and your gf then maybe you just need to step back and look at the big picture. I know it hurts and I know you feel like the whole world is against you but I promise you they are not. What you have is an illness that is treatable. It starts by seeking help. You may have sought medical help in the past but it may not have been the right one. You may actually need to be admitted for 72 hr observation and this way they can evaluate you and get you on the proper medication to get your chemical imbalance straightened out.

No amount of exercise is going to help especially if it is a chemical disturbance in your brain. Sure endorphins make happy people but you have to be somewhat of a happy person to begin with. Just do me a favor and don't do anything to hurt yourself get on the phone right away and call a crisis center if you do not know the number then call the police and tell them that you need to be put in touch with someone from a suicide hot line. It is imparitive that you do this now. Do not wait until you get a better answer. I am not a health professional but I have been in your shoes.

Answer 6

Joe, I don't know if you have ever had a relationship with Jesus or if you even believe in Him but He is real & He does hear us but sometimes we don't listen for His answers. Pick up the Bible & read Psalms...some of these are where David was crying out to God & He does answer. It was always the times in my life that I was lowest & could do nothing but cry out to Jesus that He always helped me. I could tell you all the mess I've been through but right now it's now about me, it's about you and suicide is NOT the answer. Maybe you would be an answer to someone else. Think about that. There is always SOMETHING that keeps us going. Take a look at the things in your life and pick that ONE thing (or person) that makes you reach out for help. Work wherever you can until you get through all this...because you WILL get through it, believe me.

I have been where you are, except I was a divorced single mom who always had to make sure her kid was taken care of. It finally took its toll.. I really didn't want to have to go to antidepressants but finally I knew I had no choice & it really helped me get passed that worst part. Maybe you weren't on the right medicine. What one person can take, another person can't. Some medicines make you worse not better. It is a chemical imbalance, not crazy!

Answer 7

everyone got bad times in some point of his life. yours seem slightly bigger but why are you thinkin of ending ur life ? dou ever think that ur not the only one having this problem ? its ok to cry and let it out im not sayin that will solve the problem but it makes u feel better for a while. its ok if u cant keep a job. that means that the perfect job hasnt come to u yet but u have to make an effort aswell. its ok if u cant get in collage. every person in the world wasnt meant to b in collage or else who will do the other jobs that needs to b done ? u need to talk with someone and let it all out. doesnt have to b ur gf or family. find another person/friend ur close to. finding a hobby will really help u to kill some time. i know right now ur not thinkin bout a hobby but u need to start somwhere. ull b likin it later on. dont give up and stop thinkin bout killin urself :) com on smile

Answer 8

I almost comitted suicide but i am happy now so glad i did not. I went to google and tried to findout how to do it but all these religious sites came up. I wanted to drive to grocery store and buy lots of pills but did not think they would sell them to me and then thought what if i went into accoma and messed up my brain and was a vegetable the rest of your life. Therefore if you are screwing up everything, chances are you would not die and make your life even more hell so don't try it. I know this one hid who hung himself on grad day and his parents found him and guess what he lived but is brain dead not. You don't want to be a burden on someone do you. Also who would find your body. My younger brother would have found mine and i did not want to mess him up for life so thing about others. DOn't listen to those other people. THey obviously don't know what you are going through and thei things you describe to them may sound like you are just crying because things are not going your way but this is your life not theirs so they do not understand. You don;t need a girlfriend, family are all you have so try to mend or they will come around give it some time, college is soo expensive and even when you graduate it is hard to get a job so just keep trying to get into college and if you don't then be a sales person. Salespeople can make lots of money with commision and stuff at radioshack and other places like that. You are not looking at all your options. You are still young and prob would not have married that girl anyways. I have been out of high school 8 years and dated tons of guys. Hey at laest you are not pregnant and single. I am and i have to worry about paying for not only me but someone else. I got on antidepressant meds and i got 100% better so i believe in them. Do you have health insurance? If not i am sure social security or something could help you get antidepressants. There is nothing wrong with taking them maybe you have a chemical imbalance if you are thinking such negative thoughts and even if you don't the medication cannot hurt. YOu have to be proactive in you want to get better. Good luck

Answer 9

You are not going to find anyone here that will tell you how to kill yourself. If you want to feel better, get some vigerous exercise in. I mean really push yourself. Why can't you keep a steady job? Maybe you are sabotaging yourself by having a pessimistic attitude. It's called a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you believe bad things will happen to you, they will.

Seriously, go for a long run right now. The endorphines will kick in and you will feel better. I've been there. It's the quickest way to feel better. There is no easy way to kill yourself.

Answer 10

Try and remember one thing, all things are temporary.. you are young. the fact that you cannot get into college seems like a big thing right now, but it could be a blessing in disguise.. why not take some time out and travel. Find a new girlfriend.. get a change of scenery.. there is sooooooooooo much out there, don't quit until you have seen it all first!