I reached the end of the road with my life?

Question

Since the year 2000 i've been plauged with bad luck,first i had an etopic preganacy (i have 1 fallopian tube)may never have children,my oh so wonderful boyfriend gave me herpes, depressed over that got married and divorced in one year time, and just recently had to file bankruptcy,got evicted,lost my job had to take a job $5,000 a year less and move in with my friend and her husband.Oh and during a recent storm a tree fell down on my car and broke my winsheld( how will i pay for that), and i've gained 30 pounds. i stop talking to my family ,friends because i feel like a failure and dating HA!!!. i'm just tired of living, i honestly don't know what keeps my hanging on. I tried talking to a therapist, i just get angrier. I really want to kill myself but i'm chicken. Should i just take some pills and get it over with?

Answer 1

Well no because your life may be needed somewhere else and, what do you know - may be very soon. Seems like it can't get any worse already, so cheer up.

My highschool friend (years ago) attempted suicide. She didn't die, but messed herself up seriously. Don't do it.

Answer 2

No please don't kill yourself it is not the answer. First even though you only have one fallopian tube doesn't mean that you can't still get pregnant because you still can. As for the herpes the loser gave you don't get yourself all in an uproar yet. You may still have a baby if you have herpes. They just do a C Section instead so that the baby will not be born blind. You can probably still have a baby so don't give up. I have been married and divorced three times so I can't seem to get it right either. I am sorry that you had to take a lesser paying job but with the economy like it is right now remember that at least you obtained a job which shows that you still care.

Gaining weight is a bummer for all of us I know but you can always lose the weight. Depression does make most people gain weight so don't give up on that either.

You say that you have stopped talking to your family and friends because you feel like a failure, please don't you are depressed and when we are depressed we tend to withdrawal from just about everything. Maybe dating for you is not an option for you right now until you can get rid of the depression. I am 46 have been married and divorced three times and have been dating the same guy now for the last eight years and he is not perfect either by a long shot he yells at me for things and it makes me feel terrible. We have lived together twice and the first time he threw me out and the second time my mother had him evicted from my home because I was paying all of the bills while he would have a thousand dollars in his pocket. Even though we still see each other the money situation is the same and he always call me to see if I can help him out with food because he has no money yet he still walks around with a pocket full of money.

Killing yourself is not the answer. If i were you instead of seeing a Therapist I would go to see a Psychiatrist for some help. It sounds like you may need an anti-depressant to help you out for a while. Please don't give up the right man will come along and you may find yourself extremely happy again. I am Bipolar and my family doesn't have a lot to do with me because of it, but I cannot help it. I didn't ask to be born with it but my family doesn't understand that and I live on not a whole lot of social security disability each month so I can sympathize not having enough money and having to move in with friends. I have had to do it too. Please go to the Psychiatrist there are medications out there that can help you greatly so you just hold on. If you need to chat with someone e-mail me at [e-mail]. I would be more than happy to talk to you. Remember there is a dark cloud beneath every silver lining and you are due for some good luck. Don't think about killing yourself though if you are please go to your local hospital with a Psychiatric Unit and tell them that you want to end your life if you have too but please get some help alright. Take Care and God Bless you. Remember everything happens for a reason but for now honey please get some help.

Answer 3

I bet if u here the story of my life u wouldn't feel so bad, lets just say everything I know, loved and treasured has been destroyed in a certain disaster that has happened. currently i'm broke will be homeless in 3 weeks, depressed, confused, angry, gained weight and is stuck at that weight. my job is horrible, i have no car cause i lost it with everything else. i have no family where im at, only have exactly 1 friend, cousin just committed suicide, and I'm in the middle of a mental breakdown. all of this has happened to me and I have and will not ever think about suicide, I really have no advice for you because life do suck, but God is on our side. yea u prob don't want to here that right now, but it.s true iam still surviving and even though I can't understand y all of this has happened to me as probably u it doesn't matter cause their is a reason and we might don't know it yet and we probably never will, but trust me there is a REASON. we might not get it or agree with it, but it is not in our hands. u r being put throght the wire for a purpose if u was not strong enough to handle it then he would have never given u those burdens,u never know what for. God can be preparing u for something in the future. we all have our paths and this is yours he chose that for u and it's not to suffer even though u can't see that right now, but he knows what's best for u so have faith, go to church it really helps I know!!! if not cause ur an aethist or something then have u ever thought that now it's the time to change ur beliefs or at least give it a try. or if u don't believe in God just believe in a higher power doesn't matter what it is as long as it's SOMETHING. for all the negatives triple times the positives will come to u so don't give up and don't do ur self in because that's selfish and it won't solve nothing!!!!!!!!! I'll pray for u and it's ok to be angry u r entitled to that get angry let it all out take boxing or something just relieve urself you'll feel a whole lot better and trust it could be worst there is always somebody worst off then you hey like my story, or even just some poor pple in a 3rd world country who's starving or sleeping in a trash bin somewhere. think of all the blessings u have and all positives in ur life focus on how u can increase that instead of the negatives.I hope I helped alittle or at least u gave what I said a thought good luck with ur life and God bless!!!!!

Answer 4

NO. Dont mean to yell, but no. Absolutely not. I have a had a good run of bad luck for 10 years...coincidentally, it all started the day that I met my ex husband (hmm?). I could tell you all the BS and all the pain that I've been through in the last few years, but it would take a few years to write. I'm not talking silly stuff, I am talking major upheaval here...exes with drug problems, mothers with suicidal tendencies and addiction, sisters with boyfriends that died when they should have been healthy, institutions, exes in jail, exes trying to kidnap my kids and stalk me, lost jobs, countless evictions and moves...these are all serious problems but I deal with them to the best of my ability. Once upon a time, I used to cut, but I dont anymore. I write these days...everything that comes to mind. Everything thats bothering me and everything that makes me happy.
Heres an idea...a gratitude list...each day list 10 things you are grateful for. If you cant think of ten, try 5. It helped me out alot. When life seems to be nothing but useless hell, I look at that list and see that it could be worse...there are the things on that list that I could be without today, but I am not.

Answer 5

Please don't take your own life. I know you are going through a rough time. 10 years ago, I lost both my parents to cancer, the job I had been at 10 years, my home, my daughter was diagnosed as bi-polar/suicidal, and my family (aunts/uncles etc) abandoned me. I wanted to be dead, but was chicken. I was sitting in my car at a stop light, and this thought came to me..."adversity creates strength of character" At that point, I should have been one helluva strong character. It was a turning point for me. I knew I had to take control of my "bad luck". Today, I have a job I love, a beautiful grandchild, and more important, I have me, and I happen to think I am still one helluva character.

Anger can be a great motivator, if you want destruction. You have to figure out how to get past the anger and let growth begin again. Set a small goal for yourself, and focus on reaching it. When you reach it, reward yourself and create a memento to remind yourself of your success. Whatever you do, don't go backwards. If you can't find a way to take a positive step forward, just stand still.

Good luck to you.

Answer 6

I havent had the best of luck in the last 6 yrs or so, but I havent had it as rough as it sounds like you've had,, but one thing that ALWAYS made me feel good- I had a job in Las Vegas, I was doing road side service calls for people with flat tire, locked keys in their car or needed a jump start - well my point being,, I usually felt so much better after having helped someone who was in a real crappy situation, if you have time - volunteer at an assisted living center for elderly, or read books to kids at the library, walk your neighbors dogs now and then,, find a nice church that makes you feel good and see if they need help in the daycare on sunday mornings, I guarentee that helping others will make you start feeling so much better about yourself and your self worth, there are people out there that care and you dont even know them, really there are so many reasons to try and regain control of your emotions, Be a fighter and win, dont give up thats to easy, God never said life was gonna be easy for each and every one of us, you can be an example to many others going thru similar situations, Dont Give Up,

Answer 7

No ~ U just need to pull ur head out of ur ***and get busy turning it around.everyone hits hard times. First start looking for a job and hopefully u will have some help getting back and forth to work. It states in the bible that "this too shall pass" it just takes time and everyone surely has plenty of that. Life is already too short and sweet to end it. Take a look around u and try to find the good in it. U really need to pray...he actually hears u.trust me. I have been there.Good Luck

Answer 8

No way!!! I know how frustrated you feel! Not the same problems, but the same emotional result. I wanted to just make everything go away....by ending my life. (I'm SO glad I didn't) It was so tempting, though. If one therapist doesn't work for you, try another. and another. You WILL find one that can help from the angle you need. It really is ok to be angry. You have alot to be angry about. A therapist can help you work through it. Keep trying. But.... PLEEAASSSE! DON'T GIVE UP! You are not a failure! I'm sure your family is really concerned about you. They are the ones you need to keep in contact with. If you don't think they can help you, then don't expect them to. Just let them keep being your family. It's important to you AND to them. Ok? God, I hope this help you! Good luck!

Answer 9

ok what i see out of your relationship is that possibly issues have grew to develop into right into somewhat flat, have you ever both tryied to communicate about it? you're nevertheless sense like going out and performance some relaxing because you're nevertheless youthful it quite is okay, you've the right to do it, in case you imagine that you dont love him anymore why do you should maintain wondering that still might want to paintings? the most important challenge in a relationship is trusting and if he had hit you earlier then that's no longer an exceedingly healthful relationship then , what i might want to suggestion you is to end with this once you could, attempt to describe him what you want in someone, possibly all you want is a large replace on your existence, shifting to Lincolnshire is a good idea to commence yet all over again. with a bit of luck i develop into in a position that can help you!

Answer 10

honey i feel for you, **it happens 2 us all!!! but u must think positive & eat no bread or beer cos they r very depressing, take olive leaf extract, evening primrose oil & fish oil daily & st johns wort will help too

eat cranberries, blueberries n raspberries / juice 7-14 times a week to get rid of the herpes, the olive leaf will help also

thought field therapists and kiniesiologists r gr8 for all stress problems

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oh id say the devil is doin his best to make ur life miserable he doesnt care if people giveup n kill themselves.
be strong honey, read the Bible go to church, ask God for blessings

Answer 11

No, you absolutely should not give up. Keep going to the therapist. The anger is absolutely normal and it means that you're processing all the cruddy stuff. The thing about therapy is that it helps you to realize you can't go backward, only forward.

Don't give up on yourself... if you're a person of faith, just be still and listen for whatever message God has for you. Try to turn your problems over to him and ask for his intervention. I cannot tell you just how many times this has worked for me.

If you're not a person of faith, I would still encourage you to find a quiet place, and just empty your mind of everything that's going on inside of you.

I'll say a prayer for you tonight...