My father bought me a handgun (I like to go hunting and handguns are useful sometimes) for my birthday. This week, when I got bullets for it, I held it to my head at least twelve times. I wanna pull the trigger... but then I don't. It'd be a waste of bullets. I hate this god damned life and all the harsh bastards out there who made it such a mess. I hate my mother for being such an FUKIN ignorant and abusive cow. I hate people!!! I HATE THIS STUPID GUN!!!
But I love it, too. I wanna end it somehow... please help???
2006-10-06 15:31:49 · 19 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
Just hang in there honey,stop thinking negative thoughts and ..well,life ain't perfect,you know that.just ry to make the most of your life,do good to others and do something you're good at.People are fighting everyday for their rights to live life and here you are on the verge of throwing your life sweetiepie!Probly best if you do a clinical reassessment of why you are feeling like this and ask advice from close friends.Go visit them!Learn something new eg. writing poems or playing the piano,but I would recommend putting those guns safely out of sight.Buy some new clothes or something special for yourself-only you can make yourself feel special. Suicide will gain you nothing I'm afraid.
2006-10-06 16:19:32 · answer #1 · answered by fadly j 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
First of all, give the gun back to your Dad until you are not full of self-harming thoughts. If you can talk to your father about your feelings, tell him why you can't accept the gun right now and ask him for help. If you can't talk to him, find someone you can talk to such as a guidance counselor or a mental health worker. You can call a crisis hot line if necessary. If your mother is abusive, get out of that situation. Depending on your age, you should be able to get help relocating. Change other areas of your life to make improvements. This life is worth living when you find out what makes you happy. I keep a list on my refrigerator of the activities I love to do and do well. I try to participate one of those activities each day - even for a little while. It keeps me happy and builds a positive self-esteem. Death isn't the answer. My friend shot herself when she was only 21 years old simply because her mother didn't like her boyfriend. She gave up her life and in the process, destroyed the lives of others. Her little brother (at age 8) found her "headless" body and has been in and out of jail ever since.
2006-10-06 22:41:50 · answer #2 · answered by TJMiler 6 · 2⤊ 0⤋
As I'm from the UK I find it very strange that any father would give someone who is obviously young a hand gun. That said, you have had some very good and loving answers to this question. I hope that you will read these and understand that there are a lot of really caring people out there who actually care about you, even though they have never met you. Take their advice and talk your anger and hurt through with some one. Above all give the gun back to your father. I wish you all that is good in life and there is a lot of wonderful things out there.
2006-10-07 02:50:02 · answer #3 · answered by Grannygrump 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
well 1st up ignore the ignorant wankers on here. anything to get your points up right?
2nd, get rid of the gun. you dont really need a gun in your house. if you wanna go shooting, then borrow one or ask you dad to keep your gun locked up and away from you until you can use it together.
3rd, realise you are not alone. i have been self harming since i was 15, thanks to an abusive step dad and a mother that did nothin to stop him. even now 5 yrs later, if things get too much or if i have a few bad days where i cant seem to pick up my mood i still slip back into old habits. but remember the pain does go away but you need to work at it.
try joinin a gym, everytime you feel low and think about the gun go to the gym and work your body out so its too tired to think of anything else! least that way your mind is distracted by something that is worth while!
or try starting up your own business. i dont know how old you are, but if you live at home or are at school or anything, or even if you could fit this in around a normal full time job, find something you are good at or you like and work to make money from it!
there is nothin like the feeling you get when you WANT to get up in the mornin coz you have so many ideas buzzin around your head and you want to get started!
but mainly remember you are not alone, when you feel down, do somethin to make you remember you are worthwhile and this earth would be worse off without you than it is with you.
2006-10-06 23:05:23 · answer #4 · answered by mj_junkie86 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋
PLEASE, PLEASE ,don't do it i don't know how old u are but u need help get rid of the gun its just a cop out if u kill ur self . there is so much more to life u just half to go and find it .if ur mother is so abusive move away some times the people that hurt u most are family there is an old saying u can pick ur friends but u can't pick ur family and that's true .GO to a new place and stay in touch w/ only the people u love and that dosen't mean u have to tell them where u live.u seem to like ur dad but only surround ur self w/ people want to be around u but don't wast what god gave u and most of all love ur self first if u need to talk e-mail me .
2006-10-06 23:30:30 · answer #5 · answered by djonecat@yahoo.com 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋
wow you really are in a mess i assume from the fact your father bought you the gun he has another reason for you to use it and it wont be that when he wakes in the morning you are not there!!! You obviously have a good sense of observation cause i am sure when your luck runs out your parents will see and live the worst moment of their lives over and over again. forever! No matter how hard it is or how no one sees your point of view waking in the morning t o a sunny day /wintery day opens up a vast opportunity to say i am here i deserve to be listenened and i am alive!!!!!
2006-10-06 22:55:29 · answer #6 · answered by tink 2 · 2⤊ 0⤋
First, get rid of the gun. It doesn't sound like this is a positive thing for you to have. Second, everyone feels that way about people in general at times - just drive down the street and see how ignorant people can be. Go to your doctor and ask him for a referral to see someone about your rage. I hope you get help and feel better some.
2006-10-06 22:38:29 · answer #7 · answered by kny390 6 · 3⤊ 0⤋
When i was on my teenage years i have thought of ending my life using a gun (my father`s)but somehow my brother saw me and they have to keep it away from me... but it doesn`t stop me from being persistent of harming my self, weeks after i over dose with pills but luckily i survived. For me then everything was unfair, everything is not real. When i got a job years after in the hospital i wa so deepressed that i had another suicide attempts. Now that i am all growned up and a mature adult, far from home i once again had a suicide attempt but i lift everything to God all my burdens and all the heartcahes i have, I got great good friends who understands and love me whose been supporting me emotionally trough my down times. PLease think positve about everything. All of us has our own trials in life but life is too good to be a sober. God bless and may God give`s you peace of mind and peace at heart.
2006-10-07 02:34:41 · answer #8 · answered by geieyoung 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like you need to get out of whatever going on there, My big therapy has always been a long drive (sounds like you might end up in Canada)
If its really that bad separate yourself from whatever and whoever and ya might want to leave the pistol at home.
take care
PS IM me if ya want
2006-10-06 22:42:01 · answer #9 · answered by Ben 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
you really need to talk so someone about all that you are feeling go to your gp or ring a help line you could also try speaking to your parents, keep the gun locked away and its never really as bad as it seems. take care and stay healthy
2006-10-07 01:24:54 · answer #10 · answered by nuttynurze 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋