Can a poor stupid ant say farewell?

Question

In April, my sick wife took our only child, whom I'd raised since birth, and left, starting a custody battle.
In August, she died of cancer.
In September, her family filed for custody of our son, keeping the custody battle going.
I haven't seen my son since the end of April.

Along the way, Love offered me a humble goddess who loved me, and whom I love. I wasn't looking for this, she found me.

And last night she closed the door, for all the reasons I had to keep me from falling in love in the first place...all the reasons I willfully ignored so as to love her with a whole heart.

Forget everything I've written. Ignore all the questions and answers I've posted.

I know nothing. I understand nothing.

I'm just a poor stupid ant trying to find my way in a very big world.

And I find myself, alone with my tears, in a house that was once a home full of love and joy and laughter.

Unloved, and unable to give the love that fills my heart: I've no business being here.
Robert

Answer 1

No you can't, because I won't let you.

You're one of the brighter people on this board, don't ever consider yourself as a stupid ant.

I'm sorry for what happened, but just keep your head up. It always gets better :)

Answer 2

Robert, I am so sorry you are going through so much! You are loved - by people you haven't even met yet. People who cry with you for your situation.

Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that things will improve for you. Is there a way you could see your child? Talk to the judge or something?

It also sounds like you may need some help - like to talk to a counselor or something. I have been in a place similar to where you are, and there is a way out. You just need a little help to find it.

You are not an ant, you are a person of value, who is worthwhile, and worth knowing and loving.

Good luck and God Bless.

Answer 3

Quite the contrary. This is not the time to sever any more ties. Even if we can only offer levity that you can't appreciate, or downright silliness, we are humans on the other side of this line. As awful as your situation is, any and every betterment will depend on people. STAY!

Answer 4

yeah, well, that sucks and all

so ahh, heres a thought, take a shower and a shave and go on with your life,

its not easy, its hard,

there is more love on this earth then you can imagine


there are many hearts who will yearn for your heart,

the heart wants what it wants and needs what it needs,


I understand your difficulty, my son has histiocytosis, my own marriage is wanning, I thought I found my new bride, and am torn between calling her and saying come here and marry me, and just saying "hi hows it going"

life goes on,
love conquers all,

strength

Answer 5

I am so sorry to hear that. Please try to stay positive. Your son needs you. Please know that I am saying a prayer for you as you read this, I hope it give you strength.