can you relate to me?

Question

have you ever reached a point in your life
In which you didn't want to live anymore
. where you were alone and angry and mad at yourself for not being able to express on paper what you were going through. as an artist i am going in circles in a pshycadelic rage. i hated the thought of me and my anger burned so intolerantly. i had to hurt myself and i did and there is my art. the scars on my arm.
Well i feel that way right now. I'm alone in my room and no one cares, no one wants to know. I hate the thought of me, my art, what it means. it's expressionless.
I am going to dissolve in my abusive mind, how can i express this artless form known as emotion.
Whom among you can relate to this unfathomable starvation of mind.
i can't understand myself

Answer 1

Didn't you ask that yesterday? Listen you're not helping yourself, we all relate to you and I'm sorry to say this but what you're going through is normal!
Do something different, do you know what endomorphines are? They are chemicals in your body which make you happy, they are found in chocolate sex and exercise, so do some exercises. Every night I want you to stand up straight and touch your toes, then I want you do ten sit-ups, ten push-ups, and some more stretches. When you feel comfortable with ten go up to twenty, then thirty, and eventually you will be doing a hundred. This'll make you feel more confident, more energetic, happier, and it'll give you something else to concentrate on - this helped me through life sometimes. Do this for me ok sweetie? I'm worried about you.

Answer 2

Nobody truely undersatnds themselves, I'm still floating about at 30 and I don't really know whats going on, the way i go through things is to see myself a bit like a character in a film or sitcom, no matter what happens to me in my life, how alone or overwhelemed with people I become I will always be true to myself. Art is something you should progress through use your talent to try and express how you feel, even if you don;t understand it you might see yourself progress through your work, also write a diary I had a lot of problems when i was younger and I found writing it down gave myself a chance just to babble everything out and you can kind of figure things out by reading backover it. My last tip would be before you go to sleep think of 5 things that you enjoyed that day, don't tell me there is nothing as there is, the simple things like the colour of the tree down the street or smell of the bakers as you walked past these bring you pleasure so why not allow them to settle as good memories. Good luck with life and I hope you can come out the other side and smile, I was extremely depressed when i was about 19 and thought I'd never find a way out,but I did and am glad I'm here to smile about my learning curve. Hope this has helped

Answer 3

Notice that everything you are dealing with is in the lower functions of your brain. Those fears and angers and anxieties are all things that you could do even if you could not read or write. Maybe you would feel a little better if you were using the higher functions for a while.
Maybe you could read some books and write some essays. Not that this is a better thing to do than art, I prefer art myself, but it's something to do while you have no inspiration for art. Writing essays is fun, and you can make it easy or you can make it hard. It's up to you.
Then when you clear your head a little you go back and make a little more art. Don't obcess about it.

Good luck.

Answer 4

I think you are working too hard to create something specific. That is the beauty of art. Art is all around us. From the clothes you wear to the way you style or don't style your hair. I think maybe you should find a counselor to talk to or maybe go out and do something. Try to find a play to watch or go to a coffee house or an open mic night. Try other forms of art; sculpting, poetry etc. A lot of what art is is how it makes you feel while you are doing it. If your art does not make you feel good than stop doing it, try a new technique etc. Also, if you are on any type of drugs (illegal; marijuana, coke, etc) then that could be some of the problem. when I was on drugs I was kind of in a bad place after a while. Please don't give up. We need artists to beautify the world. I saw a work of art from Picasso that consisted of three lines. Don't try too hard and have fun. If you need someone to talk to email me. [e-mail]

Answer 5

Don't worry - it gets worse before it gets better. Eventually you will get to embrace the agony and make misery your new joy. If you follow this path as far as I have you will come full circle and hate yourself so much that you force yourself to act and appear "normal" knowing that every moment you do so is twisting the all too familiar knife in the metaphyical wounds within and by screaming out only in yor mind the echos will be all the louder to you.
I have long since realised that I will never be truely happy again and as such have come to enjoy tormenting myself emotionally to the point that this is both a great joy and sorrow at once.
Clarity comes with time. Endure and learn...

Answer 6

YES YES YES I relate and you really must try to refrain from cutting. The best art is from emotion. Angry painting, ripping paper and pasting it ( you get the point) , music, Try words. like a brain storm on paper get words down and turn them into something that you like later.
punch the bed until you are exhausted, I have to kneel down and put my head on the floor arms, back (called child pose in yoga , who knew?) and tell myself that I am not allowed to hurt myself it takes a while. I RELATE. .....No one cared about me either and it was not in my head. I would use the self inflicted injury an something to focus on. The pain was bearable because I understood it and did not have to feel and it also gave me a twisted way of nurturing myself by taking care of the wound for a while, But like with drugs you are pushing the pain down and you will have to deal with it at some point. So keep asking for help or ideas because I really never heard someone verbalize how I felt when i was younger and I care.

Answer 7

it does not happen to everyone.. only a select few who are strong enough to live with the burden..
the void.. and not knowing how to fill it.. eating seems like it would work but it does not.. the apathy of your art is what it must be.. lines on a paper, paint on a canvas, scars or an arm, words in the song... if you ask yourself too many questions you will find that you cant remeber the first one and why you started asking.. what was the point? the aloness in your room only makes it worse.. your wallls are blocking the emotion from entering your soul..
tootles

Answer 8

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Answer 9

Well for starters i am sure u know that u r already trying to take control by self harming. Do u have a therapist? You need to try talking to her/him, friend, family or someone. Try not to wallow in your low moods but think positively and do something. Instead of sitting alone in yr room etc, go out, walk, run, do anything. Why do u feel so angry and more to the point with whom? Hope u find your answers.

Answer 10

You're alone in your room because you want to be! You can walk out and get a breath of fresh air this very minute, sit on your front steps and say hi to people that might walk by. Take a walk wher there are other people and get involved with something or someone. You sound like you crave the atttention of others but don't want to initiate it. You want them to come to you and "notice" that you sit in your room by yourself and cut yourself for the atttention. Well, stop it, noone can care more for yopou than you should for yourself. Live man, Live......