Whats wrong with me?1?

Question

Im a 21 year old loser
I have 0 friends
no support
No Health insurance
my parents are idiots
I have heart problems.
I think i might be getting dumber by the day, or it could be that im "just" depressed. I really cant tell. There have been times in the past few months that ive felt lightheaded for about half an hour after waking up.. im a little scared.. is my bad heart getting to my brain?? Ive always been kinda dumb.. I think Ive just been less focused because im depressed, thus dumber, but i dont know

I just turned 21.. Woo. I went out with my parents to celebrtate.. hows that for a big 21st b-day!

Btw all the things i just said i would never tell anyone close to me. Respond however you like.. I actually find most insults funny :-P

Answer 1

Hmm. I don't know if this is a cry for help or just a need to validate your self-deprication.

First of all, you may not have health insurance, but there exists medicaid or your county health system, which is extremely low-cost. You can receive health care, even with a condition. Please look into that.

I was you once. I was 21, fat, ugly, friendless, poor, at the mercy of life. I'm 26 now. I'm beautiful, seeing someone, have good friends, good insurance, and live far away from mother (thank God). What happened between the three suicide attempts, hospitalization, and medication, was the belief that I finally was not any of those things. My problem is that I made most of my problems up. I thought I was ugly so I dressed ugly. I was fat, but I refused to take a walk around the block a few times. I kept feeding the anger and hatred within myself.

I hope you live in an area that has a mental help chat line, the kind that has counselors to talk with 24/7. Because...and this pains me to say this...if you keep this up...you will die a senseless death. If you keep stressing about the horrors of another day (my opinion of why you're dizzy) and willingly try and see what happens when you finds solutions for your issues, believe you might have a chance.

If you don't do this for yourself, do it for the friends you have yet to meet after you get better.

Answer 2

For someone to insult you would be cruel. I don't think that you are a loser I think that you are very depressed. Have you been to a Psychiatrist to be evaluated for anti-depressants? Have you been to a therapist to see what may be wrong and talk about your problems? I think that maybe you should see a Psychiatrist to see if you need to be put on medications so that you may feel better. There is nothing wrong with you mentally other than you sound depressed. You are not getting dumber by the day just a little more depressed.
If you have no health insurance and no job why don't you go to your local Health and Human Services office or whatever it is called in the state that you live in and apply for medicaid. If it is really bad you can even apply for Social Security for a mental disability. Good Luck to you and I don't think that you are a loser at all.

Answer 3

You are not alone. Although I am substantially over 21, do have at least one close friend, have support and health insurance, my parents are assholes (does that qualify for idiots?).

I do not have heart problems but I smoke like a chimney.

I am getting smarter by the day (except for the smoking part, I guess).

Don't be scared. You are NOT a loser and your candor is commendable. You may turn out to be somebody great. If not great, at least comfortable within yourself. 21 is not an age where you can be comfortable in your own head. Raging hormones, confusion, peer pressure . . . give it some time. You'll be okay. Good luck and peace and best wishes to you.

Answer 4

Why do you think we would insult you, you are just going thru a rough time. When you feel depressed think about all those people out there that have to go to dialysis everyday, or the kid that just found out he has cancer, or the parent who just lost their child in a car accident? I could go on and on, but let me make this stick in your head, everything happens for a reason, don't analize it just go with it and set some goals doing some that you will think you would really enjoy. You probably have someone inside that you've never met before. It is the truth when people say that you can do anything you want ! Buddy there are millions of people in worst crisis's than you, so get going ! And the next time someone insults you , stick up for yourself and tell them to f--k off !Good luck.

Answer 5

WOW!!! um......WOW!!!.... Try going to some free therapy in your county. You can get help for free or a little to nothing at a clinic. An antidepressant might help you get on your feet a little. Why don't you try getting a job that offers health insurance like Walmart offers insurance to their employees and I'm sure you would have no trouble getting a job there. You can meet people to potentially be your Friend in therapy or maybe you should apply for financial aide and go to a community college and take some courses for people that learn slower than others. You could meet freinds there and get an education so you wont be dumb any more. Well I hope that I helped!!!! Good luck!!!

Answer 6

Wow. you sound like my ex other than the fact that you can actually spell, so maybe you're not so dumb after all.....he pretty much had all of ur problems except i believe he had health insurance...he also turned 21 this year. It may be depression that you have. I would try to seek help like soon. Umm..do u have a school counselor maybe that you could talk to or someone at work that you can trust? Is it because you're shy that you can't make friends? Contact me if you want to and maybe i could help you somehow at least support you emotionally. I can be your friend. :-)

Answer 7

Will to start with the answer or comment, first i would like to tell you that as much as you tell yourself that your dumb and worth-nothing, as much as you will get depressed, so i think you should think your self very lucky being alive, in a peace ful country.
you said you have no friends, will i have no friends at uni, but i don't think i am dumb or a loser, so every individual has to listen themselves and make themselves be proud of who they are, because no one else will do it for you except you.
You are the only person that can make your self happy, wake up every morning with a smile on your face and just be happy, no matter What happens during the day.
Just belief in your self and you will feel great.

Answer 8

You are not a looser, you feel like one because you keep telling yourself that. Big deal you celebrated with your parents, enjoy them now because one day they will be gone. Eat healthy, stay away from sugar, drink plenty of water & get 8 hours of sleep

Get a job and do something that you like(a hobby), if you do this you will eventually find some friends. If order to have a friend you have to be a friend.

Life is all what you make of it. Take one day at a time.

Answer 9

this is apparently more normal than I would have thought.
sorta yukko, but normal.

I have lost track of how many birthdays I have been alone. Often I will go out to a resturant.

"just" depressed can get worse...

Ya gotta dig out man.

if you don't have em, get some wheels .. scooter, motorcycle, car

If you are in school, you can be on your parents insurance, or get school insurance. .. if you are not in school, think about it.

although perhaps hard ..doing something often is better than doing nothing. Dig around and find something you like and go do it. watch some movies, get some excercise, find something enjoyable with people. ..

ya right .. but do something!!

Answer 10

You should get medical help for your heart condition, and you maybe need to go to counselling. In life we all need friends and we all need to go out and have fun! Isolation contributes to depression. So try counselling it works. You also need to stop calling yourself stupid because. Probably you have a low self esteem which is another reason why you should go to counselling. Try talking to your parents about how you feel or try to find a comunity counselor. Best of luck. And satop calling yourself stupid because I bet you are not.