have you ever reached a point in your life....? HELP?

Question

In which you didn't want to live anymore
. where you were alone and angry and mad at yourself for not being able to express on paper what you were going through. as an artist i am going in circles in a pshycadelic rage. i hated the thought of me and my anger burned so intolerantly. i had to hurt myself and i did and there is my art. the scars on my arm.
Well i feel that way right now. I'm alone in my room and no one cares, no one wants to know. I hate the thought of me, my art, what it means. it's expressionless.
I am going to dissolve in my abusive mind, how can i express this artless form known as emotion.
Whom among you can relate to this unfathomable starvation of mind.
i can't understand myself

Answer 1

I can relate. One way I help myself with this is by singing. Anything with harsh words, screaming, or heavy metal guitars. Bleeding the pain away is o.k. but singing the pain away is something else.

Answer 2

Right now, I do not especially want to live. But neither do I especially want to die. In the past I have felt like I did not want to live anymore. To be honest, I do not understand the nature of your problem but I think you should discuss these feelings you have with your Dr sooner instead of later, if you are harming yourself.

Some people have suggested that 'you will grow out of it'. I think it is a dangerous thing for you to accept this type of advice. Ultimately, you know that something is not right. However well - meaning some answers have been, they are not able to give you a full medical check and diagnosis online...

Answer 3

I know you can't understand yourself now, or more that you can't understand the world your in, where idiots seem to rule? But don't hurt yourself. It may seem like a way for the anger to escape but it isn't going to help you, it'll just be a permanant reminder of your pain and keep on bringing you back to what you feel right now.
What do you want out of life? Just focus on that, focus on laughing back at all those idiots you have to be with all day, see them working at mcdonalds for the rest of their lives while you have the perfect job, a beautiful wife and happy little kids in the house you built yourself.
One day you'll see, now chin up, you are so much better then this mate.

Answer 4

Yes. Very briefly, I was there. I was a teenager, which seems like a prerequisite for unreasonable angst, and I am a writer, so I understand need to express yourself on paper. Everything in my life - my health, my grades, my social life, etc. seemed to be spiralling out of control. My parents intervened by threatening to erase my book (the one I was writing) off the computer if I didn't shape up. They were coming from a place of love, but I didn't understand that at that time. I ran to the bathroom and very seriously considered emptying the entire contents of the medicine cabinet into my stomach. The thing that stopped me was that I could never get published if I was dead.

That's my advice to you: no one will see your art if you're not here to create it. Truthfully, this bundle of raging hormones thing will pass. You'll go on, experience life, discover things to write about, and find ways to make yourself happy. Being a teenager sucks, but I promise it gets better.

Answer 5

life is full of obstacles. especially for an artistic person such as yourself. in my experience artists tend to be a bit more emotional than say a CEO or a gardener. you need to learn to control the anger and direct it towards the paper, not yourself. you need to find the right outlet for your art and the inner strength to get it there. i can definitely relate to starvation of the mind. the only person that can ultimately feed your hunger is yourself. YOU need to make the conscious decision to get through what your going through. maybe the form of art you are focusing on isnt the right form for you. if you are writing, try painting. if you are painting, try writing. if your on drugs, stop them. unclutter your mind and the expressions will flow :o)

Answer 6

Im kind of at the same place... i try to talk to people or i try to write how i feel but its like only i will ever understand it. Its so hard to say what your feeling when your not even quite sure what you mean. I think some people are blessed or cursed with minds that think wayyy too much. We just think and think and never stop to say enough!.....sometimes its hard to just find yourself or find people that help you find yourself. I have never resulted to physical abuse to myself because i dont have the guts. I just want you to know that even though you feel like the only person in the world who is alone and cant figure stuff out....im here too. Im surrounded by people who have got it all together and im completely lost.
Just letting you know im here.
cheers to letting this get better.

Answer 7

You need to get some help mate, the art of therapeutic conversation is what you need in order to express those emotions you struggle to deal with alone. Don't hold it all in and torture your mind until you feel like giving up, talk to people as often as you can and keep yourself safe. You are not alone, if we had the kind of society that could be honest about such struggles you would find that most people have mental health struggles inlife at some times.

Answer 8

It seems like your having some very strong feeling your have deep difficulty in expressing then you do not like yourself. You self harm and you feel alone and that no one care for you it also sounds like your really depressed this must be terrible hard go though.
I would suggest you counselling probably of rogarian humanistic variety if you want experience acceptance and try and understand yourself

Answer 9

i have the same problem...i'm an artist as well...but have given up completly...i don't see why life is worth living...so i understand where you are coming from
i cut too...it's horrible...i know I need to stop but can't. it's an addiction. I skip meals...
life is hard..and the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that tomarrow might actually be better....and mabye if I just hang on one more day...my life may change for the better....it's hard to too...but worth doing.
it's hard when you're living in a world full of people and no one seems to understand huh?...well i understnad...just hang on cuz tomarrow might be better.

Answer 10

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