I am feeling blue ? ? ?

Question

oh i dont know, i know my life is not that bad bot as bad as some people, but i feel this great sadness in me, i cred nearly all night last night and in the moring people saw me cry today adn i never let people see me cry, i just say i dont feel well, but its a lie.

i cant voice my emotions i can write them but i am unable to tell people how i really feel. i know it is selfish to say yuo want to kill urself but it always seems an easy option. i dont think i am depresed i cant be as i am still able to carry on with college and get good grades i feel like being occupied helps me forget stuff. but it doesnt hide the fact that i a sad.

i dont think i can even keep my boyfriend happy, i mean yeah we have good s*x but talking about stuff is not our strong point and wheni am sad i am distant with him and he thinks i am trying to get at him and i end up feeling worse,

what is going on with my life please help??

pps: icant get mental help or cal lthe samaritans they are not options 4 me.

ive always been a sad person i have tryed to kill myself adn i told my mum i woudl kill myself at the age of 8 this isnt good isi t

Answer 1

Sadness is a sign of depression, sweetie. I have always been someone who has to push myself. Do you sometimes feel that there is a great on your chest? Suicide does seem like the answer sometimes because it would just be over. Well, I keep myself going by taking it one day at a time, and I can't think back if I had done it, that I would have missed some really happy times. You said counseling isn't an option---I wonder why not?
The college you are attending should have someone you could go see. What I would do if you can't or won't go see a counsler, is go to your regular doctor and get some depression medicine.
I am taking some, and it really helps. It takes a couple of weeks before you can really feel the effects, but it does help with some of the feelings you are experiencing. Please go and try this, what I want to tell you most importantly that is you are not alone. There is alot of lonely sad folks, and we have to just stick together and lean on one another.

The reason you can't express your emotions is because the confussion on people's faces that don't through this. They think we can just be happy-perky all the time. Sorry, that is not me, hasn't been and I don't think I will ever be that way. I live for my kids and my family. So, I find myself getting out bed for them most mornings. You really need to go and get help for this sadness. If you don't have a good support system with friends you definetly need someone who is going through this to talk to you, and encourage you on the real bad days.....of course too you need someone to have a pity party with, then the other days someone to put their foot up your butt to get you going....I am serious, honey, I am not trying to be mean, but I need that myself sometimes......

I will pray for you that you can find the courage and the strength to get up every morning, and that you can rest at night........
Please take care of yourself....

God bless us all..............

Answer 2

You are insecure - that is all. And NORMAL too. You need to worry less. I think you are feeling a little down that there is no romance in your love life, and think that it is getting to be all about the sex, but you dont want that part to end - and you are feeling guilty about it. You need to embrace it instead and decide if you want just a sexual relationship, or maybe it is better if you end that relationship and move on to someone else - it could be you are bored with your boyfriend.

But overall, there is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! Stop being so depressed and cheer up! Maybe you need a few more girl friends and need to hang out with them more - maybe you need space and time away from your boyfriend so you can think straight.

Answer 3

It does sound like you're depressed. How long has this been going on?? When my doctor told me I was depressed I gave her the same arguments - that I was keeping up and work and home and taking care of the house and the kids. She told me that didn't matter -- if you're feeling "blue" all the time then something is wrong. If you can't get MENTAL care, just go to your regular doctor. Get a checkup and tell her what's going on. She should be able to help you out.

Take care of yourself. If you can't tell people out loud how you're feeling, write it all out and give a copy to your boyfriend and a copy to your mom (and maybe your best friend). Give the people that love you a chance to be there when you need them - you'll BOTH feel better!

Answer 4

You may just be going through a rough patch, at times we tend to question our existence. Just try to do things that will make you happier, try going to nice places, pretty places, eating foods you like. In general you may just need a natural pick-me-up.

Answer 5

sounds like you are having problems with depressions i wish i could make things better for you i can ask you to go to the drs and talk to them and see what they can do for you . my name is linda i can be a freind if you need one

Answer 6

I FELT DEPRESSED FOR A LONE TIME BUT I TALKED TO MY DR AND HE PUT ME ON SOME MEDS TO HELP ME , IT HAS WORKED FOR A FEW YEARS NOW

Answer 7

I think you are having too much sex

Answer 8

i dunno, it just comes and goes i guess. i do enjoy flipping things off at random when im sad, or sometimes i do that when im mad. or maybe i do that until i get mad, its better to be mad than sad i think.