yes, i used too. i am 42 years old now. i was in high school the first time i ever did it. i took my protracter and carved the word why into my arm. i didnt do it again until i was 21 and i started drinking really heavy. i would buy double edge razors and cut my arms and hands. i also attepted to kill myself this way. the reason i did it was because i hurt so much inside i think i needed to let it out. this made more sense to me. i was wounded, it hurt, i was bleeding, or perhaps i was punishing myself too. i did this for several years. i had no self esteem. i had panic attacks and eventually agoraphobia. i self medicated with alcohol and methamphetemine. i not only was a cutter i lived life on the edge. i overdosed several times too. what finally got me help, was i hooked up with a therapist who helped me start processing things through my heart. i was always scrambling around in my head, intellectualizing and racing and joking and evading and she told me if i kept it up i wold melt down again. that by connecting to my heart i would complete the circuit the body is designed for. it was everything i needed and had been avoiding. i am okay. i am clean and sober. i quit cutting years ago. even before the therapy. i think medication helped.alcohol was definatly behind every episode for me and their were hundreds. if i could tell you anything, try to talk to some one, i know through your pain it may seem vain to talk about the physical aspects of this thing, but i have to live with these horrific scars for the rest of my life. everywhere i go. everyone i meet. long sleeves. or explanations. i am branded. battlescars. i am okay with me. i have no problem talking about it but other people have judgements or just discomfort. my prayers are going out to you as i sit here right now. because ultimately my higher power has put me on a path of light and shown me unconditional love, and that is something i had never experienced before. it is the most healing thing i have ever felt in my life, and to want to feel is a miracle
2006-09-22 12:16:14
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answered by poppysgirl 2
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I have. I used to burn candles and make pictures on my arms with the wax. It made me feel better about my self, but then I got so disgusted with the fact I had to rely on pain to make myself feel good when so many people didn't that I forced myself to stop. I almost cut a vein once so I knew I had to stop cutting my self. I just did things that didnt actually break skin, so I didnt end up dead. I'd keep a hair band on my arm and snap it whenever I had the urge to cut or burn myself and I slowly weened myself from it. Its been a year and a half and I still do it sometime (like once or twice every five months) but I don't need it like I used to. I buy scar reducing stuff so that I'm not reminded of it and get the urge to do it again. Not seeing the effects help me ignore why I did it in the first place.
2006-09-22 13:04:00
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answered by Anonymous
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There are self help support groups for self-injurers, I would recommend that. I used to cut, slap, burn and starve myself, but I've stopped now- I keep telling myself it is not a productive or realistic way of coping with my emotional or psychological turmoil. I usually write, exercise, or talk to people if I feel the urge to harm myself.
2006-09-22 11:58:22
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answered by Anonymous
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I can totally relate to you. one day about 7 years ago i started cutting myself. i am in therapy and trying to find the right meds. i went to an IOP (intensive outpatient program) and been hospitalized but i haven't cut myself in almost a year now. it is a daily struggle not to hurt myself i hope that you seek some treatment so one day you can stop too. GOOD LUCK
2006-09-22 15:06:03
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answered by Special 5
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Yeah... I'm a self injurer and I have been for more than half my life,since I was a little kid when I started.... I've been trying to stop but I just coudn't ... you're right... IT'S HARD!!!
email me whenever you want ok? it's debbie_bff@yahoo.com , I'll be glad to hear from you. good luck!!
2006-09-24 06:05:11
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answered by Debbie 2
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I do it, for attention sometimes, and it is not addictive for me, I dont do it very often. MY suggjestion is to find a soulmate, who can help you with this, and you wouldnt want scars for him to see. A guy (hmm... or girl) that can understand your problem (you know, he used to have the problem, friend or family with that problem.) Also get help for that, counceling ect. It can do you wonders. Work hard for it. Good luck! Peace out. Bye. Luv/Kodi
2006-09-22 12:01:37
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answered by Anonymous
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yeah i know! its so addictive!!! i'm 17 and i'm in rehab for it now, i'm meant to be in school, but they sent me to a hospital, i'm a day-patient and it hasn't helped at all! having to talk to so many phsychologists and doctors - explaining myself over and over! i am getting so sick of it! i feel even worse now, i'm sorry, i have no solutions to help stop cutting! but yes, i can relate to you!
2006-09-22 15:01:28
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answered by Bethany 3
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Yeah, sometimes I make deep scratches into myself or burn myself. I know it's bad but it really is addictive.
2006-09-22 11:52:52
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answered by Fish Boy 2
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cutting yourself with a razor is addictive??? that is about the biggest load of bolony iv ever heard
2006-09-22 12:18:38
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answered by Anonymous
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You need professional help.
2006-09-22 11:54:29
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answered by Anonymous
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