Sounds like you would do well to continue the medication and the talk therapy.
I can understand where you are at, because while I was at medical school my parents disagreed with my choice of girlfriend and threw me out. I was faced with an enormous challenge: to keep studies happening, to find a place to live, to get money for rent and food and to keep my relationship going.
Not easily done.
Got depressed.
Failed a year twice - had to speak to course counselling about what to do - took a year off to get my act together.
Struggled.
Passed the year. Failed final year once (relapse) and then passed.
Hard slog to get there, but I made it through my course and now am working happily.
Physical therapy is one of the more worthwhile jobs there are around the place. It is a demanding job and there is a lot to remember: anatomy, biomechanics, physics, physiology ... all of this stuff, plus patient interaction and getting these old deaf forgetful people to do what it is you ask of them.
I know you feel like you're stuck and you're looking into the abyss. You are on the brink of discovering that life can be so incredibly amazing.
It's like taking a test or end of year exam. I have seen people who have withdrawn from their course to avoid the exam. This is the fear of failure producing failure. If you take the exam and fail, you just do it again. You learn and you do it better. Suicide is the ultimate avoidance strategy. You never have to take a test again (unless you believe in reincarnation of some form). The trouble is, you opt out and choose not to follow something you had previously chosen which is not as bad as pulling out of a course because you can at least try and get to where you want to go by a different pathway.
Perhaps you can't see so far ahead yet.
Talk with your therapist
Have a read of the wiki pages below.
The shock therapy one is only for severe depression, which I don't know if you have.
The combination of cognitive therapy and an antidepressant is a good way of dealing with depression, but the cognitive therapy is very important!
You can email me if you like.
Best of luck!
2006-09-21 17:41:26
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answered by Orinoco 7
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first of all, stop reading this and either dial this number:
1-800-SUICIDE
or go to this website:
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html
i'm totally serious. my ex-boyfriend committed suicide a couple of years ago, and i it really makes me feel horrible in so many ways, especially to think that he would have probably not done it if he had just talked to someone at this most desperate moment. just talk to someone. you can do it. there are a million reasons to live, even if you can't see it right now.
my ex also left behind two parents and many friends (including me) who were absolutely devastated when he left us forever. maybe he couldn't see or didn't realize how much we would miss him. but he has hurt us all in the worst possible way.
i too suffer from depression; i too take meds. i too become suicidal now and again (most recently - 5 minutes ago, which is why i even found this thread). but what stops me is the knowledge that things ALWAYS get better, and that i just can't be so selfish and cause so much pain to all the dear people who love me. even if i don't want to live, they want me to, and they've given me so much that i can't betray them.
i'm also a pediatrician and have many depressed teen and young adult patients. so i do have that expertise on the subject as well as my personal experience. so you should listen to me and call that hotline :-)
you are a wonderful person with a good heart. please choose to live.
and to the person who said "if you feel like killing yourself, do it" and "this is not a forum for such a discussion," etc., you are an a**hole. shame on you.
2006-09-21 18:00:02
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answered by Shiv2379 1
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I'm sorry that you're depressed, but I've been there too. I'm kinda there now, in fact. Perhaps the reason you're depressed is that you're not living your life to the fullest. Perhaps you're bored with your current position. It sounds to me like you're the kind of person who wants to be out there, but is afraid to be out there for whatever reason. The only way people can be happy is to stop thinking about materialistic things, to stop thinking about mortality and start thinking about the good things about life and how we can help others. If you are feeling depressed, it might help to have some fun, do something that is just for you. You should also talk to a counselor or someone close to you. Don't give up, there's always hope! I'd be sad if you gave up.
2006-09-21 17:44:44
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answered by poeticjustice 6
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It will probably take a little more time for the meds to kick in. Be sure to take them faithfully every day at the same time. Night time is best just before you go to bed. You go to bed every night so that will help you remember to take the pill. Tell you doctor because he might want to switch your medicine. Some of the meds can make you feel the way you do, too, so call your doctor today. Try some talk therapy too.
2006-09-21 17:48:56
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answered by ruthie 6
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continue to get the help talking to others that have a bias opinion is always helpful. then you need to know who you are. what is it that stimulates or makes you happy only you can figure that out and the only way you can do that is keep trying and going for it. you say you love the med. field, well maybe what you are going through will help you decide. then you can really help people cause you been through it, dont give up what ever you do we need a brilliant mind and that is what you are developing believe it or not. you may be too smart even for yourself adn have so much inside it frustrates you. go for what you love and you will find that within you. you are young and have a lifetime ahead. there is so much out there and i am sure you will conquer once you are comfortable with it and make sure it is what you want and not what anyone else wants you to do satisfy you
2006-09-21 17:45:51
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answered by Anonymous
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Talk with your psychiatric constantly. You can change doses and levels or try new meds.
I have done all of these things over 10 years. As life changes, you change and your meds need yo change sometimes to adjust as time goes on. Secondly, seek and find, and visit a psychologist/counselor to talk truthfully to. If one doesn't "fit/work" for you, seek another.
I made a change in counselors and it made a world of difference for me, Lastly, acknowledge that you are sick and have a disease (like a diabetic). It is not your fault, don't blame yourself, or beat yourself up, just take it slow, one day at a time, give yourself a break, and know that you are a loved special and unique human being that can make it. If I can, my friend, anyone can. I (thought) I was completely hopeless, but I am still here 10 years later and I'm not gonna give up on myself for nothing or nobody. God Bless!
2015-02-22 06:34:02
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answered by Thomas 1
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I understand.I have major depressive disorder.I am on medication to help me sleep,medicine to anti depress me and klonopin to handle my anxiety.No pills will help when things are messed up in your life.We all have to deal with that crap.I see my doctor and I'm in a severe depression, but I know its because my brother died and the is no cure for that.I have been on antidepressants since I was 14,I'm 35.Believe me when I tell you that things will change.Things are always changing and if you can hold on when things are really really bad,it will let up.You will have a whole new set of problems and forget the ones you have now.Life is a roller coaster and you just need to hang on.God has plans for you.you may never know what it is,but you will always be where you are suppose to be at this moment.Hang on there.
2006-09-21 17:56:02
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answered by kelliekareen 4
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i know where you are coming from and how hard it can seem. Now, if you are undergoing therapy (you said you were didn't you?) you should definetly tell your counselor how you are feeling. They might tell someone, but they know what they are doing and what is best for you. If you don't have a counselor, tell someone you can trust NOW! You can't wait, call a family member, a friend, anything. Try calling a hotline for suicide, they can help you and there is no chance of them reporting you or anything like that. Do somethign now to keep yourself from hurting yourself. In the long run, you need to tell your doctor (or your counselor if you got one) that your meds are not working. They will most likely prescribe a new one or up the dosage. Please, tell someone now though, remember you can always kill yourself later, try to make it better right now though. I wish you the best of luck, and if you need to talk to someone feel free to contact me. Good luck, and please stay safe!
2006-09-21 17:41:50
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answered by Anonymous
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If you've already seen a doctor and and know that there is a problem, you're like 90% cured! Just take it one day at a time, and for God's sake stop thinking about suicide. It's a perminent solution to a temporary problem and it won't help anything at all.
Just keep in mind that you're young, well educated, and there is an entire world for you out there. Worst comes to worst you can just leave and go somewhere new to find your calling. I know this sounds like a bunch of bullshit, but I bet you're gonna end up fine.
Good luck!
2006-09-21 17:49:57
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answered by quickblur 6
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2016-10-01 05:51:08
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answered by ? 4
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