I got this problem. I have had a really bad life. I was sexually abused at seven by my mother and then later when I was a teenager as a hostage. I was too ashamed to tell anyone. I told dad once but he said it was my fault.
I was a runaway off and on throughout my childhood due to the violence at home and at school. I even been pinned to the ground and given golden showers.
As an adult, I been hit by a drunk driver that took me through a 22 day coma, a near death experience, and three years to walk again. I got married as soon as I could walk and then got burned out of my home. Then I started isolating and when I found out my wife cheated on me I attempted suicide and been suicidal ever since. She has cheated on me a total of five times. We are legally separated now but I am hurting and lonely. I dont want to break my vows with her because everytime I think about dating... I think of her.
I have heavy anxiety attacks. Not fear but I rock in emotional pain. One day I will die.
2006-09-21 08:00:34 · 21 answers · asked by ddead_alive 4 in Society & Culture ➔ Religion & Spirituality
When I had more angst as a teen, yes. But my life hasn't been as terrible as what you just described. So, I'd feel silly telling you about my problems, after reading that.
What I would do, in your shoes, would be move to a new place where you can start fresh and try to let the terrible past fade away while you build a better today and tomorrow for yourself. I'm sorry you are lonely, and the reasons why. But don't rush into a new relationship when you need to resolve alot of inner termoil first. To not be as lonely, I would try going to places where there are people who like the same hobbies as you do. Focus on what you do like in life, instead of continueing to dwell on the ugliness you've seen. Be strong, there's always a chance for a better day tomorrow. Peace and hope
2006-09-21 08:30:08 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
The last thing you said about your wife..you need to be realistic. If she cheated on you the first time, the relatioship should have ended. It seems like you bring on some of your pain, like with your wife. As for the other things you mentioned, sorry for those experiences.
I've had suicidal thoughts before, but those thoughts are what makes me stronger. I think to myself, when ever I experience something terrible, that I should just kill myself, but at the same time, I know there is a solution, and I always find it. The main point is that I have things to accomplish in my life that I have to finish, so I can't let some crap make me want to kill myself.
Also, you can choose to ignore the problem by simply praying to a religion, or you can logically think this through, figure out each problem, and solve them realisitically. Thats what I did, and I feel so much stronger because of it.
2006-09-21 15:06:40 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 3⤊ 1⤋
Everyone has thought of or tried suicide at least once at some point in their lives. It sounds like you have had a rotten hand dealt to you but let me tell you there is always someone who has it or has had it worse than you. You need to leave the wife, get to a doctor and see about therapy. I do not mean this in a bad way, but sometimes when you hold all of that anger and guilt inside you can create physical sickness of your body. I know because I have been there. I feel your pain. and if you ever need to reach out to someone, just email me. I am almost always online and I answer my emails religiously. God never meant for you to stay with someone who is taking you for granted. There is someone out there who will love you and be what you need. But first you have to cut loose the baggage. You cannot enter a new relationship without dumping the old one completely. I am on medication for anxiety attacks and severe depression and mood swings but I am 100% better with the regulated meds I am on. I have done my therapy and am just about over all of my trauma. You can do this too. I have faith in you.I will be praying for you, and hope to talk to you further. If you do not talk to me, please at least find someone to vent to. It will save a lot of heartache down the road.Best of luck.
2006-09-21 15:09:27 · answer #3 · answered by mortgagegirl101 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I went through alot when I was young and considered suicide between the ages of 8 - 10 years old. That's when I realized I needed something to look forward to in life and looked to God.
Fifteen years ago I got married and within a year she started screwing around and it took me another ten years to get over that, but I'm ok now but don't trust human beings anymore.
Best thing I could tell you to do is find something in life that you enjoy doing but doesn't involve anyone else, then It'll turn out good because there won't be anyone to screw it up for you. Good luck bud. :)
2006-09-21 15:08:50 · answer #4 · answered by Sean 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Yes, I have and it's hard. A lot of people don't understand when one feels suicidal BUT there are people out there who will listen and help you through lifes crappy times. You should realy see a doctor/therapist and maybe get on some medicine. Don't be afraid to do this because it can really help you. Even if you don't want to take medicine, you should really talk to a therapist or counselor. Your life can turn around but you have to push to get to the better. There are complete assholes out there who care for nothing but themselves and unfortunetly you seem to have met many of them.
Try and keep your head up and know that your life is worth the struggle. You will come out of the hard times and find someone who really loves you and sees you for your own individual uniqueness. You need to let your wife go. You can't work for a better life if one of the people who hurt and continue to hurt you are around you.
Here is a link for a bit of information. I wish you lots of luck and hope you find happiness. YOU DESERVE IT!
Some info
http://mentalhealth.samhsa.gov/
quick vew of some phone numbers to help you out.
http://mentalhealth.samhsa.gov/hotlines/
2006-09-21 15:10:10 · answer #5 · answered by HapyDay 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Sorry about what happend to you, perhaps you should seek some therapy. You need someone that you can talk to and help guide you through your problems. Yahoo answer isn't the best place to get answers because unfortunately there are a lot of rude people out there with no feelings or morals. So, my suggestion to you is to get some therapy.
2006-09-21 15:07:15 · answer #6 · answered by Fantasy686 4 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Honey i`m sorry about all you have been through, you really need counseling and healing from the inside out... Please don't do anything that you will regret later... Suicide is a cowards way out and will not get you into Heaven.... You can accomplish anything that you set your Mind too.... My Husband has cheated on me several times but i`m not gonna try to take my Live because he doesn't know how good of a wife he has.... You can make it dear...GOD IS BY YOUR SIDE!!!!!!!!!!
2006-09-21 15:05:19 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
Yes there has. I'm am sorry about your past but you can have a better future. IF you can get a hold of the great love that Jesus has for you.
He will stand by you like no one else. Love you with a complete love. He will wash away your pain and wash away your anxiety. It is a road that you must take and some things will be better right away and some others will take a lot of time. But Jesus will be with you through it all.
2006-09-21 15:03:20 · answer #8 · answered by Makemeaspark 7 · 5⤊ 2⤋
Get Jesus in your heart and he will make the pain stop. It is not your fault. I too have been abused in several ways and I refuse to be suicidal. Your are here for a purpose for God and are very special to him. Get on your knees and ask Jesus to make the pain go away and to accept him as your savior. He too was abused and died for us. If you need further help call hotlines, they will get you to the right place mentally and physically. My prayers are with you. God Bless and take care.
2006-09-21 15:05:15 · answer #9 · answered by stickinthemud 3 · 1⤊ 2⤋
..Pray to God every day,, to give you strength..i will not get into how badly my life was,, not for the whole world to see..Trust me my life was way worse than what you have said , and yes i too did ,and felt the same..!! i promise things , will get better....but you do, need to go get some help... i can say this,'' Only focus on GOOD.'' .Oh, and for that woman get rid of her..
2006-09-21 15:17:57 · answer #10 · answered by *Glowing* *Wings* 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋