Seriously!!! What do you do when you are frequently bombarded with ideas of suicide?

Question

I am bi-polar and take 4 different medications (for the past 3 years). I participate in partial health programs and have stopped drinking. I am doing many things in order to be healthy, but I still have these thoughts. The only thing keeping me going is my children, they would be devistated. Any advice as far as lifestyle changes, drugs, behavior, etc...? Thanks!

Answer 1

I used to be horribly depressed, I was told that at the begining of each day and when you get these ideas, but expecially at the begining of each day to take 5 minutes to think of something happy that envolves you in the future, try and think of a different one each day...going to your childs weding maybe, you grandchild saying nanny or grand dad (sorry dont know your sex) for the first time..anything that makes you happy and envolves you in the years to come. It helped me a great deal.
Also, do ask your doctor about your medicines, you may not be on the right ones, get a second opinion.
If you just want to talk to someone, mail me and I will be happy to chat about anything :)
(PS I expect that you will get some horrid answers on this, just ignore the idiots, the only way that they can feel good about themselves is by making others feel bad)

Answer 2

Suicide? Wasted talent! You or things can't get better if your dead. I'm pretty sure everybody has had bad thoughts, hell We All have F-ed up situations even Donald Trump.. No matter how good or bad somthing is We can always change it, I wouldn't just end it. You can never take that back. I commend you for a healthy lifestyle, my advice love your kids watch them grow up don't break their hearts, by never getting to grow old with them. It's ok to be sad we all get that sometimes,Get a support group, a buddy to talk to, Seek a good doctor one that specializes in depression, an outpatient department at a hospital can help you. As far as behavior put God first and he'll always put you first..

Answer 3

First off, i commend you that you are sticking in for your kids. Any reason to stay around is a good one i have found. Also, it is great that you have stopped drinking and are participating in healthy programs, be sure to keep that up.

I would suggest that if you aren't seeing a councelor, pshyco therapist, or pshychiatrist you should get one right away, if so make sure you tell them and explain to them what's going on. If you have one and he/she sucks get a new one, asap. Also, you can call a hotline or something, it is purely confidental and you can use it to get help. Try talking to your normal doc if none of this appeals to you, see what he/she has to say. They might suggest and upage in dosage or soemthign that might help.

As for things you can do now, i have found it to be helpful to say something you like about yourself when you wake up every morning, something new not the same thing over and over cause that beats the purpose. Keep in mind what you are fighting for, don't forget you are keeping alive at this moment for your children, and remember how much you love them. Also, another important thing you can do is to tell a friend or loved one about this. It will help to just unload. They should be willing to listen, if not that's something entirely different. Also, i would look for a support group on the net if i was you. Note, do choose a group that just 'accepts' you for what you are and doesn't try to 'push' you, if that makes sense. I mean, don't go into a group were they are like "you want to die. Ok, that's cool, i'll support you in whatever you do". You want a site where they will be supportive, but will help you out of this situation, if that made sense.

I don't have much more i can say, just try to hold on and get professional help. I know what it is like to want to die, but just try to get some help, keep looking forward, if for nothing but your children. Please keep strong though, and if you need to talk feel free to contact me. Good luck! =)

Answer 4

If you are experiencing depressed suicidal ideation, you might think about asking for Lithium if you are not already on it. It is proven to effectively treat depressed suicidal feelings, but isn't as effective if you are in a mixed state, or dysphoric mania, and have suicidal thoughts. An antipsychotic usually works best then. Either way, you need to talk to your doctor about adjusting your meds. I also have bipolar disorder, and it can be a constant struggle to stay balanced. Exercise and healthy eating are two key components of mental health that people often overlook, as well, so if you are not active or eating well, you could try to gradually change that as well.

Answer 5

First, you're right. Those children would be more than devastated. Besides, I don't think you want to leave them without you to watch out for them....

You need to talk to your psychiatrist (or find another one) because some medications actually cause suicidal thoughts. If it isn't those then its probably something to do with your bi-polar disorder - so either way, please talk to a professional. Your description, "being bombarded" makes me really suspect your medication (but I don't know if bi-polar disorder would create the same feeling of "being bombarded"). Make sure you use those words when you talk to some psychiatrist.

Answer 6

I am very sorry you feel this way I been there long time ago it was almost a weekly thing people would fine me half dead on the floor, I had learned , how I had to face and the horror that happen to me when I was child being abused, physically and sexually, it was like the horror movies of the past was ongoing through my mine with out any stop or fast forward button to push.
I learned I had to accept the things of the past I was able to transfer my feeling and emotion through writing a daily journal, I had to learn all over how to live, and take care of my self by taking very small steps, if you want additional support or just want to chat with some one, my yahoo ID is soulstore on yahoo messenger. Be strong and sober and supportive to one another unconditionally with eyes and arms wide open, to remain in a safe position.

Answer 7

Talk to your psychiatrist, or even switch to a new psychiatrist. Treating bi-polar disorder is almost more of an art than it is a science. Your meds may need to be adjusted, maybe even several times till you hit the right "blend." And talking to someone instead of just getting a prescription will help you understand where these thoughts are coming from and how you can handle them when they do come. It's pretty serious stuff, so you need a serious professional to help treat it.

Answer 8

Get help. If the counselor you are seeing is not helping, change! You are aware that you need help. Do it now while you still have some semblance of control. Try a stress free life style, hard in these days I know. Get enough sleep. Sleep deprivation does not help any situation. Avoid stimulating behaviour/friends/drugs. Take life easy and quietly. Meditate and/or pray. Read relaxing stuff, poems, old classics. Listen to relaxing music. Go to Church and pray. Develop a relationship with your maker. Get to know Him and through Him, yourself. You are of a divine nature. You are a child of God and He loves you.Good luck and God Bless.

Answer 9

Poor guy. You know I quit having self-destructive thoughts over four years ago. Instead of blaming myself for everything I don't like about myself or my life I began blaming other people for how they make me feel. Once the anger is redirected outward instead of inward, so long as it never leads to violence or criminal activity, you start to feel a whole lot better. It wasn't a miracle pill, it was just me saying everything is not my fault, and then that was it, not one suicidal thought ever since. Good luck!

Answer 10

I have lots of thoughts too. Not of suicide but lots of thoughts. Some are good and some are not. some worth my time to explore some are a total waste. when a thought enters your mind that you don't want, think of something else. LIKE your kids would be a good distraction. So what can you do for your kids today? What would your kids enjoy? Do stuff for them. You will feel better.