suicide???

Question

Hi I am a teenage girl who has a huge self-esteem issue and isnt very good at contronling her emotions. Ever since my dad died three years ago my life has fallen apart, I mean I am currently in college so i guess that means i want a future right? so then why do I beg God to take me!?! I hate being here!!!I go along with the actions every day like a zombie i smile and laugh because that is what is expected of me!!The truth makes people uncomfortable,to be honest i am not even sure what kind of answers i am looking for I guess i just want to tell someone....because not a single person knows this...this is my first time actually admitting this to anyone else.(if a ton of people i dont know counts as somebody)I guess i am just requesting some advice. whatever you can give me will be usefull.

Answer 1

you may be feeling pressured to fit in and be a success. ive found that the best way (for me), to be happy is to be completely selfish and self centered. forget what anyone thinks of you, forget trying to please, forget popularity, and be a success for yourself if you desire, not for them. its better to love yourself and be hated by all others than to be unhappy and be a puppet.

Answer 2

hmmm....life is no fun when you are not with the right people. So....I think you ned to find the "right" friends to hang with.

Go on that quest. I promise it will be the most rewarding experience when you found the folks you belong to.

A good way to start is to check what you like. Is it some kind of sports? Travel? Or reading, writing? Or playing chess? Or playing theater? Making music? Painting?

Whatever it is.....find it...and put all your passion in...

Actually I had a time in my life where I was wondering abut"what am I dong here" and "where is the sense of me being here"? - not to the degree that I wanted to kill myself but everything felt senseless.

And then I got into an extremesport and that's when life became suddenly very interesting. I had no time for sad thoughts because when doing the sport it was about survival. I foudn out that I really ewanted to live and survive. Any thoughts at the side would have been dangerous, full focus was required at all times. But more important is that l I met people there who did the same thing and we helped each other to survive and watched out for each other. There is nothing better than friends. Real friends. And this experience changed my life forever. I went in with fear and the feel of senselessness and came out fearless and happy and knowing that life has a meaning and it has to do with other people.

So - if you have the feeling that something is missing in your life then you should try something really new, something what attracts you and what makes you excited, and perhaps a bit scared. And just be very open to all the new stuff which is coming towards you, especially new people in your ilfe.

Answer 3

Damn you sound like me growing up. I am now 36 and have attempted suicide twice, I think about all the time but it is getting better. As much as it sucks to ask for help it is the only way you are going to stay alive. If you think about you are asking for help,, as you said you do want a future, so get it and start with getting your emotions balanced with a professional counselor, psychologist, M.D., or a psychiatrist. I personally have always felt worthless,and not liked. I intellectually know this is not true, but the feeling is rotten.It has been an uphill struggle to feel better, I have to take anti-depressants,and anti-anxiety meds to function. The suicide thoughts do subside, but do also recur. I am at the point now where most days I look forward to the day and what it will bring. Talking about it helps immensely even if it makes someone uncomfortable. You have taken a tiny first step and it was a huge one, now go get the help you deserve and start living your life. It will not happen overnight, but it will happen if you want it to. If you are in real danger right now call 911 and go to the emergency room you wont like it but they will help you through this and get you on a course to help yourself. I have always been told and believe now, that everyone has a purpose in life, maybe that is why I am still here, to talk to you and hopefully help. Brian

Answer 4

Working out is definitly a good way to help prevent depression, because it releases endorphins which make you happier.

But that isn't a sure fire fix, you may have bi polar disorder or something like that, many many many people have it, like 1 in 5 or something. If this is the case then it is a sickness, the same way getting the flu is a sickness, and sicknesses are treated with medicine. So maybe seeing a doctor is the best idea, if you would rather remain incognito, there are always phone numbers you can call regarding the way you feel, and people will talk to you for free and help you get your life back on track.

I knew a girl who killed herself, and I see now how much she really is missing out on. Even years and years later it still hurts to think how much she is missing. Jst hang in there and you will find that thing will work out, especially if you are proactive and try new things. Maybe helping people that are in need e.g. homeless or Greenpeace or something like that, get active, and MAKE SURE YOU DON'T LISTEN TO MUSIC THAT MAKES YOU SAD, even if it feels good to hear it, music is a powerful force and can influence your actions very much. So try to think happy, you have to believe in yourself and sometimes work hard. Don't forget that there are ALWAYS people who can help, and feeling depressed and suicidal is a problem that can be solved, just make sure you keep going, no matter what because every day there are people in your life that are so happy just because you exist. So keep on keepin' on and I can guarantee you will find that it's worth it!!!! :D

Answer 5

First of all think back to the loss of your dad , how you feel now , and how you felt then . Don't you dare talk like this .Imagine the pain you will iinflict upon others , who love ,know you , and probably lost your father to .
Suicide is selfish , you want to nflict further damage to yourself , as well as those who have already , stood by , and suffered with you , at the loss of your father
I will tell you this as well. Even if suicide is not the option , which it isn't .. Take into consideration the emotional suicide you are inflicting upon yourself , your self esteem , and your drive for life .
Your father is dead god rest his soul , it what not his intention to drag you down .
Are you the same girl you were when he was alive . Obviously not . When loved ones pass , we never forget , each time you choke up it is for him , and he is not forgotten .
Do not confuse grief with depression . move on ,and make your world a better place .

Answer 6

Lord I pray that nobody on here decides to be "funny".

Sweetie, you're having a very stressful time. Your dad passing is a huge deal and you should have had therapy for that. Going to college is rough, I know cuz I'm there too. I would suggest going to your school's guidance center to ask for help. It's hard but you have to take that first step. You have a purpose here - I didn't know your dad but as a mom I can say that I know he wouldn't want you talking about your life as if it were disposable. I have been down the road to hell myself. I took a pile of pills but I was saved at the bitter end by someone who loves me. I am mortified whenever I think about what I did. I almost left my kid motherless. I went on to have another baby. If I had been successful he'd have never existed and the thought of a world without that little ray of sunshine is something I don't wanna imagine.
You are worthy. Please go talk to a professional and don't come to yahoo looking for real answers. These people mostly suck. lol
Good luck to you.

Answer 7

Well, I think I can understand what you are talking about..

When I was 24, I went through the worst period of my life.. I was very much like a walking zombie who would smile but would never be really happy.

But now that I am 29, over it, with a happy family of my own (you can check out my blog about my son at http://verityy.blogspot.com ) I found that we have a choice as to whether we want life to be interesting or not.

I found that I could actually choose to be happy or not.

It is tough because when you are in teenage, you are seeking direction in life and when a role model like your dad passes away, that makes it even tougher on you. But that does not mean you cannot create miracles, become a better person, lead a better life an do more to make your dad proud of you!

For me, the greatest turning point came in 2001 when I actually attended this course called SCS.. it really turned my life around and helped me put down my past burdens in life.. made me a happy girl again.. and gave me the confidence in life I was seeking..

Actually, I would strongly advise you to attend SCS yourself if you truly wanted to help yourself with this period that you are going through.

If you would like to find out more about SCS, you can email me at [e-mail]

Answer 8

A world full of nothing. A room of people and all alone.
Are you able to study well? Read more than a page w/out having to re-read.
Do you have highs and lows, but more lows. Are you horrible at somethings, like Science lab, but extraordinary in other situations.

I changed a lot when I went to college. I flunked out three times.
I wasn't until I felt just like you did, that I finally bucked up and talked to a psychiatrist. Saved my life. I still have moments, doubts, problems.

But over time, I have learned to deal w/ them the right way.
Now I look at happy people, and I don't envy them. I join them.

Don't give up, cause somewhere there's a place
where we all belong :)

Answer 9

Most people will gone through your current stage. A lot of people living just for the sake of still alive. But will suicide end everything? No one can answer that, it's could be a unknown, much more miserable life awaiting after death. Learn to let go and appreciate every little things in life will make you realise that actually it's wonderful to be alive....

Answer 10

suicide is NOT painless. It may not hurt you, but it hurts all the people who love you! My husband is suicidal, has been in several institutions since we were married, says he has felt that way since age 11. He convinces himself that I, his parents, and sisters, 'would be better off without him'. It's NOT true. People do love you, and people do need you. You were meant to be here, and you have a purpose. Just because you don't know what it is now, doesn't mean it isn't real. Get help. Get counseling. If you can't afford a counselor, go to your local MHMR. Or see if the college has someone you could talk to. Do it SOON. It's important! I can't say it often enough: Get help! Please! You're right, some people are uncomfortable with the truth, but there are people who will listen to you. There's also church, some churches actually have counselors on staff, and they're either free or very low cost. But please, please please, get help!

Answer 11

Contrary to the wisdom of DTB, suicide is not painless. However contrary to eevryone else's reassurances, there is no gaurantee things will get better. I can't tell you that you will miss out on some wonderful experiences. I can't tell you that in six months, your life will suddenly turn around, and you'll look back on this time, and praise the flying spagetti monster that you stuck it out. What I can tell you, with nearly 100% certianty, is that if you go now, you'll never know. Personally, I'm rather interested in what's going to happen to me, if out of nothing more than morbid curiosity.

Oh, and, while it's far from a gaurantee, statistically, things do get better with time.