I've been putting God in my life for the past few month; praying every night, reading scriptures?

Question

But I just had a bad physical fight with my boyfriend and I started it. We have 2 kids, I ask him to help me out and bath the older one. He said no his head hurts. No matter what or how I feel I've always had to take care of them by myself. 2 and 5 months. I can home from a c-section, sore and left alone with a 1 year old and new baby and he wants to talk about a headache. I feel bad because I've been talking to God lately and I know I just did the opposite of his will. I have an interview tomorrow and now my hair is messed up. What did I do? I feel weak, confused and don't even know if I should go to the interview. I need another job because the one I currently have pays nothing. I live from check to check; somtimes over drawing on my account. I'm not a big spender on me; just my 2 girls. Clothes, diapers, ect. He helps. But he only works pertaining to the weather. Someone help me or give me the words to get back in touch with GOD

Answer 1

Lord God touch this sister with your loving arms. We know the spirit is willing, but our flesh is weak. Lord send someone in her path that will help her with her children. Convict the babies Dad that he take responsibility for these children and start helping with them. Lord draw both of them closer to you that they live according to your word. Bless Her that she wants to draw closer to you Lord in Jesus name I pray Amen.

Answer 2

Wow! Looks like you've got it pretty bad. Ignore the gnostics and atheists who say God doesn't exist. And the guy who said God won't answer your prayer--He will always answer the prayer of a sinner who wants to put Him first. No matter how "bad" you've been. If God doesn't answer the prayers of fornicators, etc. then none of us should get any answers. He was annointed by a sinful woman and forgave her sins. (Luke 7:36-50) "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." (John 8:7)
I'm not a professional counselor or anything, but it seems to me you have some choices here. Do you want the best for those two baby girls of yours and yourself or are you wanting to stay in this "comfort zone" and keep living from paycheck to paycheck? I know it sounds like a stupid question but sometimes people don't really want to change. Ask yourself seriously. If you want to change, God CAN help. But you also need to realize that you can't do it by yourself. Your boyfriend (father of the two girls?) doesn't seem to be the right one to ask for help although he should already be helping. Find someone in your area at a local church that you can talk to--another woman preferably--who is a little older than you that can be a mentor to you. God can show you who that can be. You may already have someone in mind. But make sure she is a strong Christian. Also, local churches may have "closets" for young mothers to get clothing and diapers, etc.
Keep praying and reading your Bible. Although it was written thousands of years ago, there are answers for today right there in front of you. Don't give up.
I'm praying for you and so is my daughter. God bless you on your interview tomorrow. Psalm 5:12--"For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield." You may not feel "righteous" but when you've asked God to forgive you, it's done. Christ's blood covers it all.

Answer 3

Know this above all else God is a God if love he knows you are imperfect and will make mistakes. He knows are weaknesses he knows what we each face in life day to day and he considers these things. He can read your heart and sees the good there. Do not give up in seeking to know the truth about him and the wonderful promises he has given us. Pray for his help to get you through all the stress you are under and even if he thinks this new job would be a good idea. He is there to help in every aspect of your life.
Also try sitting down with you boyfriend in a non confrontational way with out casting blame and talk to him about all your stresses and worries. Ask him what he suggest a good solution would be to benefit you both. You may also want to consider a[apologizing for the fight, but don't let it define the next few days or even change how good you have been doing in praying to God.

Answer 4

All I can tell you is to not lose faith. This is the Devil trying to tear you away from God. It is a War out there and you have to remind yourself what is important.
The fight will go way, later you'll think how stupid it was and then maybe when you are both cooled down you can talk.
I don't know but it is not good for your kids.
Stress does that, but like I said, take a deep breath, really listen to God and be quiet. By that I mean, don't pray don't ramble just sit and listen. God will speak to you and tell you what to do. Also , talk to your pastor or someone you trust in the church. It will work out.
You are in my prayers,
God Bless

Answer 5

Sometimes when you are doing the right things and feeling good about it, that's when you get hit with stuff the hardest that makes you question how you are living. I think it's Satan's way of trying to get you. Dont let him win, just keep doing what you were doing - praying, studying, reading scripture and dont give up. God is always there for us with His hand outstretched, we have to reach out and take His hand. As far as your interview goes, go to it and do the best you can.
You cant get out of a situation by standing still, you have to move forward.
If you are having a really hard time with your BF, consider that maybe you shouldnt be with him, you need to pray about it and ask for guidance, then be ready to hear the answer, however quiet it is. Good luck, God bless you, and I'll pray for you.

Answer 6

I understand that what you need right now is understanding, honestly its difficult to be a mother of two young babies, I was there, and also with a spouse that didn't do anything, continue in your prayer/bible study. My most favorite pastor said, "a relationship with our LORD is a journey, we are all on different paths". It isn't our place to judge, you do what God has lead you to do.
I cannot help with the hair question, but DON'T do anything that would hinder the improvement the lives of yourself and girls. If you don't go to church find one, being around other believers is an armor against despair.

Phl 4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.

Learn that verse, when you are tempted to quit, you can remind yourself, memorizing verses is one of the many armors of God.

Answer 7

I don't know what faith you belong to but it really doesn't matter as long as God and His great letter to us is a large part of your life. Go see your Pastor and confide in him your concerns and see if he can get you some help. Remember, God loves you and wants the best for you. When you are having a difficult time, go someplace in your home and get on your knees and pray to Him. When you pray, talk to God. You don't have to follow some foolish rules you've heard about or anything like that. Just talk to Him and be aware it is God you are talking to. He will help you. I could write a book about the wonderful prayers He has answered for me.

Answer 8

I understand you are struggling. I’ve been there myself. First thing you have to do is understand that you cannot change his heart. God has to work on him. You have to accept that he is what he is. As for you, remember that God loves you very much. If you are turning toward God, I would highly encourage you to join a local church. Christians are called to come together for support and mutual edification. There are men there who are deacons whose job it is to make sure that peoples felt needs are taken care of in answer to the call of Acts 6. And of course, you have the community here. Feel free to email me if you like. My wife and I have 5 kids, so I know how rough it can get.

Answer 9

I understand perfectly your situation because I have a 2yo little girl and a 2 weeks baby. I help my wife in washing our 2yo and I take my 2yo with me whenever I can so she can get her out of her hair. for a little while. I´m an atheist... And I respectfully tell you that prayers and god won´t help. You could find the strength you need in talking with your boy friend, telling him how tired you are and that you really, really need his help. That it won´t be like that always but that it´s tough now because both kids are small and need a lot of attention and supervision. Tell him that you´re depressed and confused and that if he loves you he should at least give you a hand because you can´t do it all by yourself. Don´t conflict, just make him see your point. I bet whatever you want that it´ll have more effect than a prayer or anything religious. Good luck... I mean it.

Answer 10

You need no words to get back in touch with God. Your repentance and your desire to do better is enough. God does not expect perfection - He expects admission when you fail and a real attempt to do better.

If you are physically fighting with your boyfriend, one of you needs to leave. You have two beautiful girls who will grow up thinking that physical aggression is what women should expect when they speak their mind.

He also doesn't sound like he's overly valuable in your life.

As far as "what did you do..." You backslid. One step back does not get rid of all the progress you've made. Lean on God. I can assure you of one thing - God would not want you staying somewhere where someone was hurting you, no matter WHO started the fight. Get help. Get help from God and get help from someone who can help you get away from someone who's abusing you - because that's what he's doing.

Hugs.